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I can’t control myself anymore! I cut myself like everyday and feel better for a while then I think about what I’ve done and feel bad so then I want to cut again and in the end it’s just one big cylce of confussion! At times I wish I would just drop over. It’s just that painfully frustrating!

Never to this extream! I don’t have an exact answer to the cause. I use to know what would cause it like, something to upset me, my fam. fighting, bad day at work ect. Now it’s just something that’s stuck to me! Like a gear has been jammed and I can’t pull out whatever it is that got stuck in the first place!

I don’t really have a relationship with my family even though I live with them. I’m kinda the stranger that just lives there with a key. I’ve been seeing theapist and yesterday I went to the doctor but i need someone who I can talk to with out making an appointment ya know? I’ve tried the hotline but I get soooo distracted talking on the phone it’s hard to tell them exactly whats goin on. Plus I feel like I shouldn’t call them. There are probably plenty of other people out there with worse problems then mine. I just can’t get it together!

No one I can truely trust I suppose. I hate bothering people about this sort of thing because it brings them down. I don’t want them to feel like me. I would never want that to happen! I call a friend and talk but I can tell they get upset with me. I need to tell them in case something would happen.

I know your right. I just don’t have the energy to do anything. I attempt to be around the people I do care about. but it’s all fake! I’m the fake! I pretend to be happy as to not upset anyone when in reality I’m ****** up!

I don’t think I can. My head is going a gaziilon miles an hour. I don’t know how much it can take!

No, I’m not going to kill myself. I do think about it at times but I don’t have an actual set plan or anything. I guess I’m just a mess today. Things just never get better.

I don’t even know…I guess at times I tell myself I will go through with it. That one day it will happen and it will be over. I’ve thought about how I’d do it and when but it doesn’t seem right. In the mean time I dont know how to pass the time.

It’s harder then it sounds. I feel like I’m in a dream like state. when i try to go out and do something it only gets worse becasue i feel like everyone around me is happy and i’m not!

IDK i gotta go thanks for writting!