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ummm pray?
best way to snuff it
is in your sleep.
quick, painless and simple.

So good luck with that!!!
while youre at it..
can you also pray for me…

you and i could hold hands and skip into nothingness

cutting is not exactly the best habit to have. i know from experience. praying is a good suggestion. what do you mean your death would cause problems for others but not feelings?

prayer does nothing..
i tell you i’ve tried…
tahts why i said…
well good luck with that!!!

i meant if i die in any ways, someone has to pay for it. if i die at an apartment, the land lord will demand reparations to my family. etc. someone has to take care of my dead body. And i don want to cause those problem.

but i feel i have no point to live…

life can be tuff, dying is not the answer, or the best way out…and praying does do good..sometimes its just you and god, talk to him..i bet he will help..try it and see first…

why do you feel you have no reason to live. what triggered this?

human

We all feel like that. But dont do it. There is some reason why it hasnt happened yet and maybe thats because you are not meant to die yet.

much as i hate to admit it we do not control our lives in every way. your suffering while great, is not the end of the world. some greater power has a plan for us and we die when our time comes….we do not pick our time. you need to live for you not for others.

http://www.suicidal.com/ Here is a link I’m hoping you will take a look at. There are many who suffer from depression and self harm. Thankfully, there are places that can help you. I’m sorry you are so miserable, and you would want to end your life. This is never your answer. You can get help with this and learn to live a happy and productive life. also your local hospitals offer support groups where you can get assistance from others who are going through the same thing. I hope you will consider the alternatives. ((((HUGS))…

i realized last night if i don open my mouth and tell my feelings to my frds, they won’t know and they wont feel bad. so i thougth i should shut my mouth.

they say “you make me worry bout you” “it’s not fair for you to put me in this situation” “friends cant help you forever”.

if i just shut my mouth then they do not need to feel bad. maybe they get sad.
last night, and recetly, i tried to find out what the best way to die.
i couldn’t find it.

i cut and my friend talked to me what happened. he didnt see my blood from my arm. i hid it. i wiped it out while he was not seeing. i guess i didnt want to give hm more stress bout my depression.

my other friend i could talk anything had to leave the town coz somehitng happened to his family. i relied on him. i called him wheni feel i want to cut. now i cant give him any more calls. coz i don want to give him more works. taking care of others.

my other friend i could talk anything is also dealing with other friend’s problem. i cant ask him anymore help.

last night, i had no one i could talk. so i wanted to die. but i couldn’t.

agreed. i did that for too long. talking to someone even if its only for one day at a time helps. even if its someone who wants to help and you just need to vent.

im so sorry! but you have us okay? please dont do anything.

whats causing your depression?

but i cant keep asking help. i don get better.

i can feel their tireness. i know they are being nice and kind to me.
but my depression doesnt go away.

last night when my friend told me “friends cant help you forever”
i thought it’s right and decided to shut my mouth up.
i was walking at mid of night and many times if i just walked into a road, a car would hit me and everything would over. but i couldn’t. i cant cause the driver any problem. im just so stupid. i was saying by myself “i just wana die” “i just wana die”. crazy. i was so scared i would really kill myself. i called other friend and asked her if she could let me stay. i didnt tell a reason. i don want any more ppl to know bout my problem.

seas light wrote:
http://www.suicidal.com/ Here is a link I’m hoping you will take a look at. There are many who suffer from depression and self harm. Thankfully, there are places that can help you. I’m sorry you are so miserable, and you would want to end your life. This is never your answer. You can get help with this and learn to live a happy and productive life. also your local hospitals offer support groups where you can get assistance from others who are going through the same thing. I hope you will consider the alternatives. ((((HUGS))…

thanks for the link. i will take a look

your fear shows that you dont really want to die. you need to talk. get the reason for your problem out so we can help. we want to help. we are here to help. that is what this is all about bud (sry idk if you are male or female not that it matters).

its gonna be okay! you can get through this if you keep on fighting!
your friends need to help you and support you. if they dont you need to find new friends..

whats triggering these feelings? what is the reason you cut and feel depressed?
also how old are you?

i have a sad family background. i was adopted my grand parents.
i tried to kill myself when i was 12. thought nobody wanted me.
i used to cut when i was a college student. every time it was after my ex broke up.
this time, i lost my dream and don’t know what to do. And i don’t have a place that i can call a home. i don have a place to stay. it is complicated.
i always need something to hold on. and it’s always not myself. it’s always someone or something. i didn have enough love when i was a kid. so i always need soemone/something to get through my life. when i lose it, i just want to disappear.

streetsoldier13 wrote:
your fear shows that you dont really want to die. you need to talk. get the reason for your problem out so we can help. we want to help. we are here to help. that is what this is all about bud (sry idk if you are male or female not that it matters).

i know i am scared to die coz i don want to cause any problems. i just want to disappear or forget everything makes me sad.

awwh im sorry thats sad =(
but people do love you okay? please know that. even if it doesnt seem like it at times you are NOT alone. you will always have someone there for you.

may i ask what your dream was?

αиgєl♥ wrote:
awwh im sorry thats sad =(
but people do love you okay? please know that. even if it doesnt seem like it at times you are NOT alone. you will always have someone there for you.

may i ask what your dream was?

i don believe “people” love me.
they are always gone after they helped me a bit.
they think they did enough job.
they don’t love me. they are just friends.

i wanted to help people.
i wanted to study for that.
but i realized human are so greedy and my efforts is useless.
while some are building, others are destroying it.
there is no point to make efforts. coz those ppl are enjoying their lives.

your dream is not pointless. the fact that some are helped and then destroyed again is a circle of creation……its complex yet simple. we do our job of helping others….yes more get hurt but then we are there to help. and yes we must be self reliant but not closed off to others completely

we are with you ,you are not alone and we care.dont do nothing what you will regret,pray,and god will help you.hugs!!!

i am sorry for everyone.
i know you guys are trying to help me and i know my friends are trying to help me.
all i could think of after my work was going back home and cut.
and i did.

i am not saying all these things coz i want to get pity or i want to get better.
now all encouragements give me more pressure that ‘i have to get better’
nobody allows me to get depressed.

it hurts me that i know people around me and ppl here are trying to help me but i cant answer it.
i feel bad.
i am so tired of being depressed at the same time.
i don know what i really want.

i keep people pushing away and try to be alone even tho i know i hate to be alone.
just complicated…

its okay to be depressed. it happens to everyone at some point. but its not irght to be depressed for this long. you need help.
if you get the help you need and continue to fight, you can make life how you want it. im not gonna lie, there still may be times when you feel you want to die. but you can get through that. it might be a struggle but you can honestly do it if you want it bad enough. please get professional help.. it might work.
good luck! xx

Cutting is not the best thing to do. You shouldnt be doing that it’s a habit that’s hard to break trust me I know. The best way to deal with this is talk to someone. If not a family member then go to a friend that you can trust. Thats actually what Ive been doing. I have been cutting because I hate life but one of my friends saw my away message and she knew something was wrong. Whenever I feel like cutting I tell her and she talks me through it. Or I dont even tell her I just call or text her and just talk. She also takes whatever I use away right now; so soon I wont do it anymore because I will have run out of things to use. So hang in there and dont cut. Talk to people and dont think that they dont love or care about you because I have learned that they do. Some people just dont show it as much as others.

XXashXX wrote:
Cutting is not the best thing to do. You shouldnt be doing that it’s a habit that’s hard to break trust me I know. The best way to deal with this is talk to someone. If not a family member then go to a friend that you can trust. Thats actually what Ive been doing. I have been cutting because I hate life but one of my friends saw my away message and she knew something was wrong. Whenever I feel like cutting I tell her and she talks me through it. Or I dont even tell her I just call or text her and just talk. She also takes whatever I use away right now; so soon I wont do it anymore because I will have run out of things to use. So hang in there and dont cut. Talk to people and dont think that they dont love or care about you because I have learned that they do. Some people just dont show it as much as others.

Im not close to my family. actually i don even talk to them.
so i talk to my few friends bout my cutting. But two of them are already having enough trouble with their family and friends. I cannot give them more stress. so i stopped telling my problems.
One is still helping me but i always get depressed at mid night. he has to wake up early next day so he tells me “we can talk tomorrow”. I feel so hurt. I feel Im left alone and he doesnt even care how i am feeling right now. The feeling I have now is something i need to solve at that moment. I know i am being selfish but sometimes i cant know what’s friendship?

You are not being selfish at all. You are just going through a lot right now. Your friend obviously cares about you. You just have to talk to him. Friendship is exactly what he’s doing he just doesnt know what to tell you sometimes. You just have to keep it in your head that he will always be there no matter what. I just recently stopped and Im gonna tell you what my friend told me. She said just be happy even if it’s hard. Dont cut your self because I care about you and I dont want you to go anywhere. So think about him saying that to you. That should get you through some long rough nights. If you dont mind if I ask. How old are you?

Anonymous wrote:

XXashXX wrote:
Cutting is not the best thing to do. You shouldnt be doing that it’s a habit that’s hard to break trust me I know. The best way to deal with this is talk to someone. If not a family member then go to a friend that you can trust. Thats actually what Ive been doing. I have been cutting because I hate life but one of my friends saw my away message and she knew something was wrong. Whenever I feel like cutting I tell her and she talks me through it. Or I dont even tell her I just call or text her and just talk. She also takes whatever I use away right now; so soon I wont do it anymore because I will have run out of things to use. So hang in there and dont cut. Talk to people and dont think that they dont love or care about you because I have learned that they do. Some people just dont show it as much as others.

Im not close to my family. actually i don even talk to them.
so i talk to my few friends bout my cutting. But two of them are already having enough trouble with their family and friends. I cannot give them more stress. so i stopped telling my problems.
One is still helping me but i always get depressed at mid night. he has to wake up early next day so he tells me “we can talk tomorrow”. I feel so hurt. I feel Im left alone and he doesnt even care how i am feeling right now. The feeling I have now is something i need to solve at that moment. I know i am being selfish but sometimes i cant know what’s friendship?

That one comment about living for yourself and not for others is the best one to think about. I often feel like I am a nothing
and a nobody. Just a drop of water in a large bucket and a grain of sand on a huge beach. We should also keep in
mind that our bodies are not perfect and that sometimes things inside bodies and our brains develop into serious
situations. Being depressed all the time is not normal, it is not the way we are really supposed to feel. This is why
it is important to find a group to participate in, and maybe seek out some professional help to see what is really going
on. There are medications that can straighten out our malfunctioning brain chemistry and you would not believe
how much of a difference it can make. I have Diabetes II and have Major Depression. I have to take a lot of meds
and because of this I have been feeling totally different. Talking this out is extremely important to get these toxic
feelings out and see what has been really going on. Many a time we think we know the reason and we might have
an idea but many times we blame ourselves for things we had nothing to do with. If you don’t get along with
your family members then it is time to find good friends instead. You can’t pick your relatives but you can pick
your friends. I was never ever close to my relatives except for my Dad’s sister and Mother, the rest were just too
jealous, resentful and had too many issues to deal with. So I found and made some really good friends who
treated me much better than my goofy relatives. I care about what happens to people and I don’t want to see
anyone take their own life. Please get some help and you may find some real interesting answers.

…Holy crap

I think I was supposed to find this site…

Dude- “anonymous”, you get it! You totally get it- humans ARE greedy and I have the same dream, or did have- I wanted to help people so badly and I really did too; I mended hearts and dried up tears, and they thanked me by destroying my confidence and twisting it all around on me calling me a “manipulator”.

I’m at the apathetic stage; I don’t care about anything nor anyone- especially me. It would…oh yes it would be so easy to simply nod off and never wake up, to climb up somewhere high and lean waiting for the wind.

I’ve cut myself too- I bear the stupid scars for other people’s indifference and heartlessness.

Now I am alone. Ha! where’s my help? They say crap like “pull it together” and I say no! I just don’t want to! Leave me alone to die, I’m doing nothing for this world- I have nothing. No job. No money. No friend/partner and soon, no home- so why bother?

I feel so very numb inside, I don’t sleep well and hardly eat either- I’m probably halfway there…

…

Why did I even bother replying?

….I don’t even have an answer…wow…

I-

Um…

There’s something really wrong here…

There is nothing we can do about it, people. I’ve tried everything to escape, I have a lot of friends from many different backgrounds, a lot of them, most of them are just a tragic, really sad but I also had a experience of a lot of things too, in good and bad strange way, it doesn’t matter anymore and I went through a lot because of them, does it make me one of them? The answer is NO, well, you see, we do this only once in our life time to learn, what is like to survive and feel. We will die alone, I think it’s okay to freak out, people, because we do have a purpose, yeah we do it to live then we die with a reason. If we die unfinished business with friends, family, or whoever out there, that cares for you or else, many complication relationship to be loved or hated. Your soul will be around, but the part of you is gone forever until you make a peace for everyone include yourself. I know, too much hassle or too much to say, but that is how I feel. I feel like someone is watching over me, trying to courage me every time when I try to feel, or able to think clearly, trying to communicate the soul around me, but maybe it may be sound strange? what the hell, what do you expect me to be? to be the perfect, be a perfect person? perfect life? I’m deaf. I can’t hear a music, or any of sounds. I am trying my best to open my soul, to speak up for people that it’s okay to live, but don’t fall down and give up way too easily because there’s tooooooooooo many ways to get around! yes, it may be very hard lesson to live but hey, are you feeling valuable to live? YES! YOU ARE! why? you are a human, just like me and we should not waste our bodies on death-drama then life goes on, it’s harsh thing to do for everyone to feel but there’s another solution to understand death is let someone who you really love to fly away and be happy. be remembered.

It’s okay to think many different things in your mind, people. Why? Don’t get me wrong, because I can’t be always right and you are allowed to speak up your mind to see what is around you, then use the opportunity to change everything by itself if you have a courage to change the life in better way, or possibly in worse. Another define of life, is like we gamble on our lives away. There’s too many emotions for me, to say. Sometimes, I want to become a writer, but I couldn’t. I want to be somebody, a person has a career in entertainment business and want to have a whole future ahead of me but the big question mark is, is this real? or was it just a illusion? Yes, I’m an struggling artist, just like everyone, all of you, go follow your heart then you’ll find it out. All it takes to be patience and have a faith. I know, a man in my dream, i know him, he said everything will be okay, but i also had to face another man in my dream, he was scary but i want to make a choice for myself to live. Why? I am here for a reason to live. Thank you for your time to listen, everybody. Have a wonderful year!

Hey i don’t know why, but i feel the same way you do. My Mom and dad have bad relationships and my dad used to fend off his anger by beating me up when i was a kid. I studied overseas ever since i was 10 years old and i grew up alone, i can relate to your lack of love from family. I hate my life and i find it pointless living in a world where everything revolves around money. We are all slaves to society, governments and people of higher power. but that’s just life and we try our best. Some of my friends have too been trying to help me overcome my depression, it just make me feel sad and selfish to just kill myself, but I still wanna do it.

I found a way to stop myself from suicidal thoughts and maybe it will help you.

I tried thinking of someone who is less fortunate than i am, read up about slavery, orphans, people who are starving to death, people who are handicapped or have disability, people who suffer from incurable diseases. people who live in war country. people who had lost family members or their life savings from natural disasters. How about people who are trapped in canyons or deserted island and in a verge of death hoping for a second chance in life?

I started to think how lucky i am and able to appreciate my life more. friends can only help so much, but eventually its all up to you, we have to be selfless and start thinking for other people’s well being, that’s when your life finds more meaning because the focus is not on yourself.