Future Grieving
I’m sitting & thinking & worrying while praying
So much so, I can’t seem to hear what God’s saying
Control of my thoughts has become my worst battle
No wonder I’ve sought to escape from such babble
I write to express my insane thoughts & feelings
I know there’re illusions, yet my mind keeps them reeling
Crunching & churning from my thoughts can’t evade
Or make peace with mem’rys & mistakes I’ve made
Knowing long term escape, can’t be achieved
so knowing & praying I seek to relieve
Obsessions, compulsions, that take o’er my head
& feel me with self-hate & feelings of dread
I fear that with time that my minds getting tired
As deep in more guilt/shame/remorse it is mired
& if this is true – I’m as well as I’ll get
& I might not have seen the worst of me yet
I wonder & ponder & fancy life’s leaving
Pre-empting the onset of my future grieving
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