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Depression is taking a major tole on me!

This past weekend I went camping with my girlscout troop at echo trail. It was really fun, BUT about 3hrs before we would begin to pack up and get ready to go home, I fell into a state of depression and it was horrible. I sat near the camp fire circle reading and feling so alone. I didn’t wanna eat or read I just wanted to sit there and never be faced with life again. The same thing happened the night before…I was laying in my sleeping bag and I just got so upset I cried for almost 10 minutes and then I cut…I had accidently broken a glass in my bag and I used a shard to cut my sholder 3 times and then my arm 3 times. I haven’t cut sence then but I have some times before this. I was in this state from the end of the camping trip to yesterday morning. I went to school and as soon as I got to 1st period I broken down…I went to the counslers office and told her to cancel my meeting with my therapist the school provides and that I needed to calm down…after that time for awhile I was ok but even now Im still…not myself…my heart hurts, emotionaly and I want to cut more but i know i shoudn’t. This is also effecting my school work, my highest grade is a 79 when it usually would be a 90 or higher. My lowest grade is a 10…and I want to bring it up but eerytime i try and try and i dont get it I get in a mood and then it leads to another depression stage…i dont know what to do. I was getting help, but now im going back into my depression states…I never had them this bad before…and now i cant seem to stop them…and i dont know waht to do.

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ambrutellow offline Verified User (1 year, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year ago (17 minutes after post)

Try to stay strong. Go back and talk to the counselor at your school. Talk to your friends or your parents. You were getting help before so you know you can feel better. You can get out of this depression and you will, but don’t give up and don’t listen to people who try to hinder your progress.

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emerald_spide offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (27 minutes after post)

the previous posters are retarded, ignore them.

try to dig beneath the surface of the depression. what is making you feel bad? relationships with parents, siblings, grandparents. childhood trauma? bullying? eating disorder (and hey, this is not about your weight, i think weight is a symptom, not the real problem (and who says skinny people are happier anyways?)), other illness, injury? boyfriend/girlfriend trouble?
dont turn your back on the darkness, cause it will eat you up. find out what is casting the shadow instead.
and this is really important, you are ALLOWED to feel bad and NOT DO ANYTHING about it. nowadays it’s sooo important to feel good and be happy all the time, or if you’re not, it’s even more important to TRY to get better. I say **** that.
we cant all be happy all the time.
but when you’ve felt bad about whatever it is, try to find out WHAT it is. identify the problem, and then hunt it out of town :)

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mumstheword offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 21 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year ago (41 minutes after post)

I think you should arrange to see the therapist again.

When you’re in turmoil, what you need is stability. Stick to rigid routines and don’t change your counselling appointments.

Even if your counsellor does talk to your grandparents… what harm? Are you afraid of worrying them? They will worry more if they think you are not getting help because of them.

You need to rest. It seems like everything is just a little too much at the moment, camp.. school.. grades… try to fit in at least 10 minutes three times a day to watch a relaxing Youtube video or to try some aromatherapy… there are lots of techniques to help you feel calm and give you enough strength to face the burdens of the day.

It’s not about solving all your problems, it’s about making them bearable by chipping away at the problems you can chip away at. Then the big things don’t seem quite so heavy the next day…

So, chip away at the little things. Room in a state? You can fix that. Feeling like you aren’t looking after yourself? Give yourself a makeover. Homework looming? Cut up big projects into lots of smaller targets eg. do an outline, do an hour’s research, finish a drawing. So much easier to achieve than “finish project”.

Chip chip chip.. until you feel the big loads lighten. Give your mind room to figure out some new solutions.

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wil offline Verified User (2 years, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (1 hour, 45 minutes after post)

Somebody get these guys off of help! It’s not healthy. How do you become a mod?

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emerald_spide offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (2 hours, 13 minutes after post)

wtf? your counsellor talks to your grandparents? ^^ isnt there something called doctor (or whatever) patient confidentiality? your counsellor has no right talking to your grandparents unless you give him/her permission
you should change counsellor!
ffs, then it becomes a bad circle; talk to counsellor -> grandparents gets to know -> dissappointment = more bad feeligns
arent these meetings optional? and what the hell does your grandparents know anyway? they were raised to be basically robots, to put their own feelings away and act like society wanted them to. it was all about appearing to be happy.
you have the RIGHT to feel bad - don’t they see that you need their support? i mean, you cant pretend to be happy to keep someone else happy - cant they undersatnd that?
have you talked to them about it? i know my parents were like that, got dissappointed when i felt bad. or my mom anyway. i hid my feelings from them in the end and that drove me even deeper into the hole. DONT do that! talk to them, tell them to listen. make a list or something so you dont chicken out (did that too.
confronting my parents was the hardest thing i ever had to do, but it got even harder the longer i left it. but i feel waaaaaaaay better now.
and about your grades. highschool right? (im from sweden so our schoolsystems are very different) dont let your grades take up too much of your thoughts. i became obsessed with them because when i got a good grade (100% was “good”) was the only time i ever got any praise at home.
i graduated nearly at the top of my class, but when i got out to college grades didnt matter anymore - it’s a whole different world.
what i think you need to do is talk, taaaaaaaaalk to your grandparents and tell them how you really feel, without holding back. i mean they’re your family and they love you. they probably dont know how to handle it, so you need to tell them what you need. you’re young for ****’s sake! you shouldnt have to even think about dissappointing them by how you feel?!

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HunterH2O offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (2 hours, 21 minutes after post)

Please ignore the first two posts its sad how people come online and pretend to be something their not and nither option is going to help.

Hey how long has this been going on? Well youve taken the first step of seeing a counsellor, good for you its probably the most daunting step. What do you look forward to? Focus on that, having a goal makes everything so much easyer.

Wb

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HunterH2O offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (3 hours, 18 minutes after post)

Have you thought about speaking to you doctor about how you are feeling, quite often they can point you in the right direction. Also its completely confidential so no worries abou anything you say coming out.
God i remember my days of shows and plays, there is no better vent or retreat from feelings than being someone else for an hour or two. Do you talk to you boyfriend about how your feeling this way?
Dont worry about your grades they will come, its probably just because your head is somewhere else. They will get better when you feel more positive.
As for the guy giving you abuse, next time he says that, use a leaf out of Winston Churchills (ex-british primeminister’s) book, “Yes i may smell like **** but i will have a shower when i go home and be fine, you will look like **** for the rest of your life.”
Obviously not i direct quote but his is similar, ive changed it for you.
And dont ever agree with dushbags like the first two guys there not worth the space the occupy.
Hope ive helped a bit

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