Depression is taking a major tole on me!
This past weekend I went camping with my girlscout troop at echo trail. It was really fun, BUT about 3hrs before we would begin to pack up and get ready to go home, I fell into a state of depression and it was horrible. I sat near the camp fire circle reading and feling so alone. I didn’t wanna eat or read I just wanted to sit there and never be faced with life again. The same thing happened the night before…I was laying in my sleeping bag and I just got so upset I cried for almost 10 minutes and then I cut…I had accidently broken a glass in my bag and I used a shard to cut my sholder 3 times and then my arm 3 times. I haven’t cut sence then but I have some times before this. I was in this state from the end of the camping trip to yesterday morning. I went to school and as soon as I got to 1st period I broken down…I went to the counslers office and told her to cancel my meeting with my therapist the school provides and that I needed to calm down…after that time for awhile I was ok but even now Im still…not myself…my heart hurts, emotionaly and I want to cut more but i know i shoudn’t. This is also effecting my school work, my highest grade is a 79 when it usually would be a 90 or higher. My lowest grade is a 10…and I want to bring it up but eerytime i try and try and i dont get it I get in a mood and then it leads to another depression stage…i dont know what to do. I was getting help, but now im going back into my depression states…I never had them this bad before…and now i cant seem to stop them…and i dont know waht to do.
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