LIFE!
I need some help. I really screwed up my life. I went to a very competitive college and I am about to get kicked out for underage drinking and supposedly lying. I did not lie but I was under investigation for lying and my school convicted me of lying. I am now going to get kicked out of this very prestigious institution. It set up a career for me; therefore, one could say my career is over. I do not know what to go. I like to think of myself as that kid who was always so innocent and all the adults liked. In high school, I was all the teachers friends and they all helped me achieve my goal. Where I am now. Now after a stupid mistake, poor judgement, a poor decision, that is all gone. I still can go to other colleges and I think that is what I need to do especially in today’s world but it will put a big financial burden on my parents. Something I do not want to do. I was contemplating running away. It sounds silly and I told some friends, I even told my parents. I would run away to Florida, a place with many marinas and sailboats. I am an avid sailor. I am very good at networking and I feel it could work. The reason I am not going to do it is because of the pain I would give my parents. I do not know what to do. What do I do when I see my friends and they ask me how everything is going at school and then I say I got kicked out? This whole situation goes much deeper than this. One of my favorite books is The Catcher in the Rye. The main theme is loss of innocence. As I grow up, I don’t want to. I want to stay that little kid that everyone loves forever. But two years ago, all I wanted to do was get away and grow up. I am sure this is common among many adolescents but I just don’t know. Maybe all I need is some support. And the thing is, I have been getting support from everyone I talk to but I just feel ashamed. I feel like a loser. I feel like the person that I told myself I would never be, a failure. I failed. Through adversity comes strength but gosh darn it, I hate adversity. I want to live the perfect life. Maybe this is mistake number one. I tend to ramble like I am doing right now. But yeah any words of wisdom would be great. :)
Thank you.
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