friends help: I cant do this anymore…life that is - Help.com

Hi, when I went into high school I went through a lot of the things you are describing. Social problems, the pressures of being a teen these days and self loathing. I went through that albeit being a guy, I can’t say if girls or guys have it harder but I can say we just go through it differently.
I have scars all over my body from cuts, burns, punches and a few more I don’t even remember how they got there but I know for sure most of them I put there myslef. I won’t lie to you and say life is going to get easier, I’m almost done with college now and even though I am a very different person then I used to be. Being put down by others and having fights with friends is a part of life. Its our actions to these incidents that define us as a person.
I was bullied in high school, called a ****** by my own father and renounced by my older brother who wanted nothing to do with such a loser like me in high school. I was in the truest sense of the word, alone.
Home was hell for me, but my room was my room. I had a mirror in it and after a **** day around my junior year I ******* puched the **** out of it, til my knuckles gushed blood and my veins pumped battery acid. I took one shard of mirror and cut my right arm up real good.
Now I’m not saying that was the begining of my deperssion but it certainly was my breaking point, the point of no return. Either I beat this or it kills me. It took me years to be able to look myself in the mirror again without hating what I saw but I did it. Not through god, counseling or drugs. I did it with my own strength. I called out to those bullies when I was ready and kicked their ******* *****. When I get put down I either let it go or come back hard and low.
Get mad, it is not what you possess but rather what you “let” go of that truly defines you . Are you really going to let your “best” friend ***** at you for what you believe in? Are you going to let those people who make fun of you really get to you? Let go of that which truly does not matter and I promise you will be happier than you have ever thought.