Pain and nociception help: I haven’t cut myself in a few months, but now, I am staring at my veins. - Help.com

People have told me directly “I don’t like you.” And if they have yet to do so, they are never anywhere near me.
And I would go to my freezer for some ice cubes, except we have no ice cubes. :( I actually do that a lot.

Well thank you.
There’s no specific event that’s triggering me right now. My uncle was in town the past few days, and he makes it obvious that I am an unbearable person. He prefers the dogs, my sister, my brother, my parents, all to me. It’s just kind of heartbreaking. My mother voiced to me specifically this week that while she may love me, she most certainly does not like me. And I am being the one blamed for my brother now attending therapy sessions, and I cannot help but blame myself when I hear my sister crying in her room, because I know it’s about me.
That mess, along with others, is about to make me explode. I’ve been looking up the sharpest knives and blades I can go buy for the past hour.

Ah, well. It was a try.