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I’m going to kill myself.

I can’t take the depression. My parents are seperating. My mom isn’t there for me. I just don’t want to hurt the people around me. Like my grandpa and yia-yia. I don’t want to depress my mom more. Other than that I have no reason to live. I rarely smile. I’m stupid and failing in several subjects. I just don’t want death to hurt. Not me but my family. I was depressed before this. I feel unwanted. I don’t know why. I have friends, and my teachers really like me but I have this inner lack of support. Like a building without a foundation or a computer without a fan to cool off the harddrive. Like it funtions but has problems and could break just like that. I’m over emotional. I’m afarid if I tell anyone they will take me away from my mom and everything preventing me from killing myself. So this is like a goodbye letter. I can’t take it anymore. I may not kill myself tonight, but if things don’t change it won’t be long.

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❤ℓινιηgJst4u offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 146 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (1 minute after post)

Dont be!!!
I got more problems than you do.
Simply doing that wont solve things.
Be calm and think wht will your loved ones will do without you

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (3 minutes after post)

I’m 21 and my mom and dad are already separated. I feel worse than you are. My parents fight each other from the time i know.
This is YOUR LIFE, dont waste it.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (4 minutes after post)

Hey there you….reply to me……….

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (4 minutes after post)

i think you already named some things to be happy about in your life, where you are misguided is your perception. I jsut watched a woody allen movie the other night and a quote really stuck with me. he said “life is divided into 2 categories, the horrible and the miserable. The horrible is something like a person born with blindness, they live their whole life disabled, completely unable to live like the rest of us. everything else is the miserable.”

basically, EVERYONE has something to be upset about, noone is perfect, nobodies lives are perfect. what makes you a good person is how you deal with it. a divorce sucks (my mom has been divorced twice) but there is always someone who has it much much worse than you, and there is always something to find pleasure in.

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1 year ago (5 minutes after post)

Life is up and down.
you must be the bottom line.

I have been there, too.
I felt I was unwanted (i was adopted my grandparents even i had parents) and tried to kill myself when i was 12. the grandparents slapped my face if i did wrong or when they get stressed out.

but i am still here and you know what i want to do?
it’s to make this world better for kids.

my good frd killed himself. Ive seen his family next to his body. I had no words to tell them.

You are still alive.
You are still breathing.
When u feel you are feeling down or want to kill yourself, tell us whatever you want to tell.

“live like a robot until you start feeling something”
that’s what im doing now.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (7 minutes after post)

You are human being and you can think and know suicide isn’t the answer.
millions of people are depressed.
Only the one who wants to live will fight for it.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (8 minutes after post)

I’m fighting all my life because for one reason, i love myself and i want my dreams to come true.
I’m all alone in the edge of the line.

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Ankit offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year ago (11 minutes after post)

hmm..if you think ur life is useless..dedicate it to others..help them in there pains..support them in ways possible

Wish u all d best,
Ankit

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jleec offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (11 minutes after post)

reply to us!

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (12 minutes after post)

Nobody life is useless!!!
They got find out wht they are…

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (14 minutes after post)

The one thing which is most important for you is YOU and everyone else comes next.
Life for yourself.
Hey there…reply. we’re here talking just for you.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (18 minutes after post)

Anonymous wrote:
Life is up and down. you must be the bottom line.I have been there, too.I felt I was unwanted (i was adopted my grandparents even i had parents) and tried to kill myself when i was 12. the grandparents slapped my face if i did wrong or when they get stressed out.but i am still here and you know what i want to do?it’s to make this world better for kids.my good frd killed himself. Ive seen his family next to his body. I had no words to tell them.You are still alive.You are still breathing.When u feel you are feeling down or want to kill yourself, tell us whatever you want to tell. “live like a robot until you start feeling something”that’s what im doing now.

LIFE IS UP AND DOWN. THATS WHAT LIFE IS.
when you go down, just know that, you soon going to see UP side for you life soon.
You cant see it unless you BELIVE.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (21 minutes after post)

Another great quote, which is double edged, but should help you out.

“this too, shall pass”

neither the good times nor the bad last forever. just stay strong and get through it.

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Anonymous #
1 year ago (23 minutes after post)

think life is like a climbing mountains.
going down, fallin down is so easy and you get hurt so badly.
when u get bottom, you are so tired and don want to do it again anymore.

but you have to. don thnk the reason.

it’s hard to climb the mountain again and it takes time.
you might fall down again and get hurt.
you can take a rest. lil by lil you will find a meaning of your life.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (24 minutes after post)

yes it is. As many times you fall down, then many times you will learn somethin’.
So, next time dont do the mistake you have already commited.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (29 minutes after post)

well..i gues i have to leave now.
And you their, dont think somethin like that.
There is so much in life. just be calm and think about it. wht you can do to solve your life.

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An Undisclosed Location | 1 year ago (49 minutes after post)

I care, and am here for you. Indeed without a doubt, you will forever hurt your loved ones more then you can ever imagine. Don’t do it! There are many options out there to help you. Try to contact your local hospital. They offer depression support. From others as yourself, you will learn to push those thoughts out of your head,and receive much better ways of coping with your depression. At least go and give this a try. I think you owe yourself, and your family this much, before checking out. Life is for living, difficult as it may be, there is always an answer for everything, if you just seek it out.I will be praying for you, and to get strength needed to get well… (((((((HUGS))))))) :)

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (2 hours, 2 minutes after post)

i feel same some times
spent time with people lower than u
visit places like hospitals,parks,
spent time with friends, childrens,

write down your problem
write down your assets

think on your problem
try to solve them
if they are solvalbe there is no need of worry
if they are not solvable ,worrying for such things is waste, is n’t

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (9 hours, 37 minutes after post)

Those last two lines wher also said by hitler.

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Anonymous #
1 year ago (12 hours, 5 minutes after post)

Its Thanksgiving and time for families to be together, think about all that you are thankful for including life itself and enjoy the holiday my friend. Things will get better have some turkey and enjoy time with your family which is also something to cherish life really isn’t that bad if you really think about it.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (1 day, 19 hours after post)

what about for some one like me- im 18, im vegetarain, and i have no family, bad holiday for me…):

my thanksgiving dinner will be a 5lb bottle of pure helium…bye forever cruel world

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (1 day, 19 hours after post)

Go ahead, kill yourself. No one else outside the people you know will care. People die every day and yet the world keeps turning. Life goes on. If you feel as though you need to end your life, then please by all means do so. No one is going to stop you. No one can. I know people who have committed suicide and to be honest, their family still mourn for them time to time but they keep on living as they had before. Do you know why? Because they believed that there was more to life that was worth living for. They weren’t cowards who couldn’t face the pain that they were forced to endure. But if you’re a coward then go ahead, join the masses of those who were too weak to face the pain and take the easy way out. I live in a country whose suicide rates are one of the highest in the world. Almost all the time, my train schedules are delayed because someone deliberately jumped into the tracks. Ironic isn’t it considering that the family of the deceased still has to pay the train companies a fine for the delay. If you think that by killing yourself you can end the grief of others around you, think again. If you did and you still want to die, then go die. But die in a way that won’t bring further troubles to your folks. Everyone here say’s kind things and encourages you not to commit suicide, but I think differently. How you want to lead or end your life is up to you, so don’t let anyone deter you. But you should at the very least listen to them. So if this is your goodbye letter, at least revisit it and thank the people here for giving a portion of their time to help you. It’s the least you can do before you depart. It’s a tough world out there, and if you do kill yourself, then you weren’t strong enough to take it head on like everyone else. But if you do find that you want to take a chance and live your life and find the joys that come with it too…to help others like you in need, then think about it. I’m not going to encourage you on your decision, but I just gave my 2 minutes of my time to help you. Whether you’re already dead or these 2 minutes will actually determine the course of your life, hell if I know. This is just the internet. I’m a nobody. But I’ve seen enough nobodies actually make a difference in this world. Good luck and cheers mate.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (1 day, 22 hours after post)

Huh…its not only you are the one who has the problem in this whole world. Only the one who is ready to face and stand up to the problems is a man. Killing yourself is coward act. we’re just 20 to 25 old. life is just began start for us. Killing in this age is …i dont wanna say.
Just show wht you are made of, instead of acting like this.
I seen many message like this….we cant guys like you cant realise simple fact. Live for yourself and your the one important the most. Face and belive in the hardtimes, surely we will win.

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An Unknown Location | 6 months, 2 weeks ago (5 months, 3 weeks after post)

look I feel the same way, life seems so pointless and yet there is our love that wont let us end our life. Im my case i love my daughter and she is only 3 but dam i really want to just fkn kill myself and never have to deal with inner blackhole that eats my soul out. I understand you compelty and feel compassion towards you. Its almost comforting to know Im not alone yet sad at the same time. Its like life is lacking and the thing is lacking has to do with you but you cant seem to figure it out. Well thats me anyways. hope this makes you feel this much ____ less alone in thinking it would be easier off to ……..well not be.

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Anonymous #
6 months, 1 week ago (5 months, 4 weeks after post)

I think people that want to kill themselves are weak minded and quite frankly cowards. It takes more courage to live and face the problems then to off yourself. We’ll always find some excuse to wine like a baby and say “why me. So quit boo hooing and acting like a baby and grow up. Maybe you’ll make your parents proud someday.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (8 months, 2 weeks after post)

i wont to end my life last year my dad died the my sister then my wife left me dont love me anymore i ave tryed i jst wont to die cant live without her i love her so much i am not eatin i cant take no more

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