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im 16, i got kicked out, my friends kinda abandoned me, school is..

bad, it was good. and yea, it seems like most of the teachers there hate me anyways, there are a few that like me, but the majority dont. im living at one of my friends house, but that is stressful for her and her family, especially this month… they had a tragedy during november and yea… i dont want to do that, the girl that i fell in love with… lead me on, that she felt something too, and then when i got close to her… she just abandoned me. i was always there for her, and as soon as she didnt need me… she just stopped caring. my mom is an alcoholic, and thus i left her house, so i dont even have the option of doing that, and my dad… well he just doesent understand all the rest of the crap that im going through, and makes things harder for me. then we got into a fight, and yea… there is so much other crap too… but i would be here all day. i dont see a point in living… and not tro be rude but i have came on here before and said i was going to kill myself, and somehow i let myself believe it would get better everytime… and after each time… it got worse. i refuse to keep doing this, im going to end this now, before i experience more pain than i will feel from the knife. im losing everything one by one, so i might as well speed up the process and lose my life too. tomorrow after i go to the doctor for some medical reasons… yea i have medical problems too… i will go to school, and then at lunch i will grab a knife, and durning class after lunch i will ask to go to the bathroom, i will lock the door, and do it. noboddy will find me until the janitors try to clean the bathroom and by then it will be too late. if you want to try to change my mind, go ahead, but like i said, it has never gotten better, and im sick of it. so dont say life gets better, dont bring god into this, and please, dont say that my loved ones will be upset, cause the people i thought cared about me abandoned me, or it would be in their best interest for me to be gone.

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jleec offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (6 minutes after post)

i dont think you will do it. I think despite all the ******** you know that its just not worth it, and to use that knife would prove nothing but your own weakness. I believe in you. Stand tall and act like a man, and you can get through whatever ******** is happening in your life. dont let all this get to you. You still have yourself to be proud of, and that is something nobody can ever take away. You need some changes in your life, that is for sure, but to end it would be the worst thing you could do.

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Barbyman offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 6 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (7 minutes after post)

what are a weakling? at 16 i was in the merchant marine no fighting there .Ive seen the world and i got paid for it i learned how to bake bread and cake i was almost 2 years on a Ship and that taught me a lot .Go and do something like that and don’t tell me you cant do it ..

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (8 minutes after post)

suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. you will grow older and become more independent and be able to choose the people you keep in your company. i myself have struggled with the desire to kill myself so i know how you feel. your parents and your friends do not define you man, you need to find where you begin, you for yourself. trust me, the feelings you are having are completely normal for your age but your brain chemistry will change along with the person you think yourself to be. please be patient and just figure out a way to care for yourself because believe it or not…you are somebody and soon the longer you life the more you will become who you truly are.

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jleec offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (10 minutes after post)

get a hobby and immerse yourself in it. pick up a guitar or soemthing, i know it got me through highschool!

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chrisncai offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (15 minutes after post)

well to the person who thought i wouldent do it, i have nothing else to lose so whats stopping me?

to the second person… thanks for calling me a weakling… that helps.

to the third person, i cant wait till im older… ive been waiting for that since i was like 6.

and right now a hobby would only give me more stress with school.

but thank you for taking the time out to talk to me. i appreciate that.

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Billy Bibbit offline Verified User (1 year, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (17 minutes after post)

It seems an odd thing to do. Come to a website called HELP.com, and tell everybody that you’re going to kill yourself and there is nothing that anyone can say to change that. So why are you here then? Are you just bored? Do you really want help and are just reaching out hoping someone will talk you out of it? Or would you like to tell your story?

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jleec offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (18 minutes after post)

see, now you are being a baby. you are rationalizing with a bunch of lame excuses as to why our suggestions wont work. your in highschool man, its easy, and it doesnt account for much. I was stoned the ENTIRE time in highschool, and im at university now, playing guitar an hour a day wont kill your test scores, im sure you spend more than that on the computer or watching tv. turn that **** off and start living! and you DO have soemthing to lose, your ******* life! thats the WORST thing to lose! survival is what its all about!

also, you can wait. I would wager like 95% of the people on this website have felt exactly like you do now. why else would we be looking for a website called “help.com”. we understand. we’ve been there. listen to our advice and give it a try. TRY getting a hobby, for, like you said, what have you got to lose?

Billy Bibbit offline Verified User (1 year, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (20 minutes after post)

jleec is a little rough, but he’s absolutely right.

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jleec offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (22 minutes after post)

im a tough love kind of guy. Im not trying to insult you im trying to MOTIVATE you! this is your only shot man start living!

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seas light offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 6 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (28 minutes after post)

Well,you don’t want to hear this, but I’m going to say it anyways..
Life indeed, can give us twists and turns, and some things just seem so insurmountable that we just think it would be easier to just end it. Somtimes keeping things bottled up inside, is the worst thing you can do. It takes alot of courage to admit you are at your wits end, and feel seeking help from others, won’t really be of benefit or change things. I have meet many people who felt just like you. However, they decided to give one last shot at seeking advice for their problems, before they dropped the curtain down. Please, I’m no one to you I know. Just someone who read your post, and truly want to find the words to ease your pain, and hopefully will touch something in you, that you’ll at least see and consider seeking help, for me. Yes, from a stranger that truly cares and wants you to at least consider my request. programs like BOY”S TOWN OF AMERICA etc. can really help. your hospital, offers support, and many answers to your problems from others your age, that have come out the other side from depression, and those feelings of hopelessness.well I guess that is it. Please consider my request. Christmas is coming, To carry out what you are contemplating would be so wrong in every way. Holiday or not, suicide is never an option.. I know, I lost someone very dear to me that way. My life has been forever altered, and daily longing for that person in my life again. Do your loved ones, deserve to feel sad everyday, and pass to them your depression? That’s what you will do to them. Think about what you are contemplating, and come to the best conclusion, that will benefit all. You don’t have the right to pass devastation onto others. Get Help Please!!!!!!

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An Unknown Location | 2 months ago (9 months, 2 weeks after post)

YOU really think u got it bad man i wish i was i ur position my god u whiny little
you had a family take u in jesus christ i dont i litteraly live outside of my school and u know what i shower with a ******* hose i eat 1once a day if i am lucky right now i am in the corner of the school stealing wifi on a comp a teacher GAVE me
i get beaten on daily basis all because i came out it was a total shocker 2 everyone its funny how bad u think u got it lol

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