im 16, i got kicked out, my friends kinda abandoned me, school is..
bad, it was good. and yea, it seems like most of the teachers there hate me anyways, there are a few that like me, but the majority dont. im living at one of my friends house, but that is stressful for her and her family, especially this month… they had a tragedy during november and yea… i dont want to do that, the girl that i fell in love with… lead me on, that she felt something too, and then when i got close to her… she just abandoned me. i was always there for her, and as soon as she didnt need me… she just stopped caring. my mom is an alcoholic, and thus i left her house, so i dont even have the option of doing that, and my dad… well he just doesent understand all the rest of the crap that im going through, and makes things harder for me. then we got into a fight, and yea… there is so much other crap too… but i would be here all day. i dont see a point in living… and not tro be rude but i have came on here before and said i was going to kill myself, and somehow i let myself believe it would get better everytime… and after each time… it got worse. i refuse to keep doing this, im going to end this now, before i experience more pain than i will feel from the knife. im losing everything one by one, so i might as well speed up the process and lose my life too. tomorrow after i go to the doctor for some medical reasons… yea i have medical problems too… i will go to school, and then at lunch i will grab a knife, and durning class after lunch i will ask to go to the bathroom, i will lock the door, and do it. noboddy will find me until the janitors try to clean the bathroom and by then it will be too late. if you want to try to change my mind, go ahead, but like i said, it has never gotten better, and im sick of it. so dont say life gets better, dont bring god into this, and please, dont say that my loved ones will be upset, cause the people i thought cared about me abandoned me, or it would be in their best interest for me to be gone.
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