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wat do u mean, like voices in your head or like god telling you?

schizophrenia.

yes on a channel 4 documentry, but that is definatly a form of schizophrenia, whether you fight your mind or not…

brianna.biege wrote:
or like god telling you?

WOW! i have to write a book about somthing like that! thanks!

no prob. yea thats wat i was thinkin about but i wasnt sure.

I think this can be a characteristic of OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), if you research that online, hopefully you find some interesting and relevant reading material.

I would also like to add, that while your comments seem to indicate a psychological issue which you should seek counseling for, but it may also be interesting to know that, in our faith, it is taught that satan has the ability to whisper into the hearts of people, which leads to discord and wrong doing. However, that ability is limited to whispering and does not mean they can force you to do anything. When we are incited to wrong by these whispers, we are guided to recite (A’uzu billahi minashaitanir rajim) which means, ‘I seek refuge in God from the satan, accursed.’

Just a suggestion, but it may be helpful to copy this guidance into your own life. Acknowledge that the thought occurred, trying to suppress or deny it may make it worse, so relax and don’t beat yourself up about it, let things flow naturally, but when you hear those thoughts or whispers, just say to yourself, ‘I seek refuge in God from satan’.

Keep us updated if you find out anything else or make some progress. Take care, peace.

Are you on any type of illegal drugs hun? I am sorry if this offends you but I need to know if you are battling as well a substance abuse problem?

no im not, i have medication to help me with sleep paralysis but that is it. ive never been ina fight never hurt anyone and i do charity work so i cnt understand it. so you think it coul dbe a form of OCD or schizophrenia.?
thanks everyone for replying

My first thought is a psychotic disorder but there are so many different avenues that you would really need to speak to a licensed psychiatrist so that you can get the correct help for your specific situation. I can suggest a couple of things that would be the general opinion of anyone who might not know your history, but that would be a huge generalization and I don’t believe that it’s fair to label you with a name of a disorder when I don’t have any solid concrete evidence from you.

While it does sound like a psychotic disorder of some type it could be a myriad of things that may be causing you these symptoms. You might have a reaction to your sleeping pills, you might harbor feelings that your no longer conscious of anymore that have been repressed. When did you notice you had these symptoms? Have they happened all your life? Did an event of some type trigger these voices in your head to start? Have you ever been diagnosed with any type of disorder? These are all questions that a psychitrist will ask you so that he/she has a history from you. This way they can better understand what your going through and then will proceed to build a plan tailored to help you get well again. If you need anything at all please don’t hesitate to contact me on Help.com I am here and very happy to help you in any way I can. Take care and I wish you all the best!

hello, thankyou kimmi.

well it was once my grandad died really. and i felt guilty becaus ei hadnt seen him that much and when he was ill my friends were nicer so i enjoyed it more, so now i feel absolutely terrible cos obviously i wanted him to be okay. but thats not even a worry anymore in comparison to these, they are unbareable. ofcourse i do feel bad about my grandad and i miss him terribly.

Your so welcome :) Everyone deserves to be treated with respect and love. I am sorry that you have suffered such grief but rest assured that life is sometimes like this and it does and will get better. We all suffer and we all have grief at some time in our lives. It’s not pleasant when we are dealing but know that you will get through the trying times. Life is so unpredictable and definitely not always fair.

The things to keep in sight are those that are positive. We need to learn that although you felt horrible for not being with your grandad as much as you thought you should have, it is ok to let it go and you can stop beating yourself up for it. Treat yourself as the delicate person you are and cherish yourself. Sounds so easy when you type it out right? I won’t lie to you this will be a difficult task to master. Would your Grandad want you to feel horrible? Would he want you to walk around beating yourself up over things that can no longer be changed? I am really going to assume that your Grandad would only want the best for you and for your soul to be happy and carefree as it should be. I also will bet that there are other things along the way that you still hold inside that you also need to stop beating yourself up for. Take a deep breath realize that the past is just that and the future is what you will make it. Let the past go and improve the person that you are.

I am not so sure that you have any sort of psychotic disorder, maybe your thoughts have clouded your mind and you are not able to shine thru the storm. Positive thoughts because you are worth it and you are special. You are your own individual person who may not always make the correct choices because you are human, but will use those wrong turns to turn around and use as a direction to the right road.

I could tell when you wrote that there was something about you that was special. I don’t answer many posts for my own different reasons but this post seems as though you just needed some direction. I hope you find all that you need to stay strong and let go of those bad thoughts. Remember when you find yourself needing some direction take a deep breath and tell yourself you deserve to be happy and that you are worth every bit life. Take care :) and if you want to share anymore know that I am here for you.

Could possibly be borderline personality disorder