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Anybody.
Please.
I’m losing everything here. Life has worn me away completly. I cn’t make it through a **** day anymore unless I’m drunk or on substance. Everytime I ask a simple question people look at me like I ******* shat myself. its like I’m invisible now just quietly losing it. I can’t bring myself to tell somone face to face whats happening or even hint that I go home to stare at the roof and let the light die around me. I went out today just looking for an excuse to explode I just can’t do it. I’m finding ot harder to hide my scars and can’t look my allies in the eye. People keep stealing everything from me and I just need to hear somthing. just somebody say somthing. anything.
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Hey, I hear you.
It seems alot of the trouble is coming from the people in your environment. You need to make an exit strategy to move away from the people who are causing you this pain, and you need to think deep and hard about your substance use and make a decision to either quit cold turkey, or gradually but quickly reduce your usage and then quit the stuff completely. Without the mind altering substances clouding your thoughts, you will be a whole new person. I am not against drugs totally, and I have tried my fair share of things, so I am speaking with some experience.. if you set goals to try and achieve things, they will happen. You need direction and guidance, but it takes alot of soul searching and contemplation.
If you feel that you are up to it, you can write out all the stuff that is happening and let it out there. Not only will you get responses to your particular situation, but by processing all those things in your mind into an understandable piece of writing will actually help you understand the situation you are in and how to make it better.
Peace.
Well, if people sorround you like jackals, why do you hang around them?
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Anonymous wrote:
I don’t hang around with them. They just see me or go for my house.
Do you know why? Is there something that has gone on in the past to cause it?
Have you tried counselling and seeing a doctor about drug and alcohol problems?
You can always do things over the phone, if you are living in a cloud of drugs and alcohol it will be making things worse. Is there something in your history that you think has made you feel like this?
Please tell us a bit more about yourself, are you in the UK, USA or elsewhere? male or female, and maybe how old you are?
Going by the description of your (lack of) activity, i.e. lying down for long periods of time etc, may indicate that you have gone into clinical depression. While everyone feels a bit depressed now and again, which may even be healthy, but to get stuck in that mindset is when it would be considered a more serious problem. Doctors can prescribe both drugs and counselling. I personally would prefer the drug free route, and getting exercise can help, even from light running or walking through greenery, parks etc.
You can get through this and come out a stronger and more beautiful person at the end of it. Diamonds are created under the extreme pressures of the earth. Likewise, what you have here is an opportunity to find yourself and a be light to the world.
There is always more to you than you can see for yourself.
If you want to you can add me, then you have someone to vent to when you need it.
What do you think you need to do to make things better for yourself?
Vyki wrote:
What do you think you need to do to make things better for yourself?
Yes, this was the next logical question and I was thinking it too. We are here for you, is there anything we can help you help yourself with.
Btw, I’d also reiterate Vyki’s offer, you could add me to your friend list too and shout me anytime you need to blow some steam.
Take care for now. peace
Sorry I came on earlier but then had to go out, I hope you have been feeling alright today. Will try and catch you again tomorrow.
Hey, we are still here, seems like a difference in timezones for our different sign on times.
How are you doing?
Hi,
Feel free to post anything on your mind, we will respond as soon as we can. I am online for the moment, but I will be finishing up from work anytime soon, so it will be a short while til I get home and back online again.
How are you feeling, any updates or newfound insight? :)
Hi, credit to you for trying though, its more than a lot of people would have done
A counsellor wouldnt judge you, they are amazingly understanding about things. I see somebody and I was terrified about going the first time and practically had to be dragged there but now I am finally dealing with things and I feel a bit better knowing that I have that safe room and that safe person to talk to. Does that make any sense?
I’ve got to go now sorry, but again feel free to add me if you want to talk. I will keep checking back though. Look after yourself and try and keep your chin up. People do care.
You should be able to find people in the phone book, or see your doctor and tell them briefly how you feel and they will be able to advise you. It is incredibly scary but it is worth it in the long run.
You are not a coward you are on here talking about things a bit, that takes guts. I really have to go but look into it and see if you can get some numbers for people, then you always have the option there. Take care V x
I’m glad to hear that you are trying to sober up, it will take a little time to adjust, but it can happen really quick if you stick to it and don’t think about it too much.
To get counselling, you can phone your GP, you don’t even necessarily have to go down to the surgery, just ask to speak with your doctor, and tell them that you are anxious and nervous about seeing them.. they will understand completely, because lots of patients can feel a bit uneasy about such things. If you think this is too much to handle by yourself, you are more than welcome to forward your details to me and I will ring them for you. :)
They will get you a referral to a specialist. However, that in itself is just one piece of the jigsaw, the healing process has already begun, because your intention and desire is there.
Peace.
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