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I’m failing out of all my college classes. I never go to them anymore. It’s too late to pass any of them. I’ve had a drug problem. I have been clean for 12 days now though. I’ve gone to two Narcotic Anonymous meetings the past couple weeks, because I want/need to. I’m spending A LOT of money on schooling and I have nothing to show for it. I’m going to be in debt. I have major depressive disorder and borderline personality disorder. I’ve been trying to find some solace in meditation and reading up on related topics such as spirituality, but I feel like my situation is too far gone. I want to run away to the south, where it’s warm. I want to connect to something bigger, whether that be spirit or love or anything… and I feel like I can’t do that here. My parents see me as a **** up. My mother is co-dependent. I put complete trust in no one.
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have you been to any local church or anything?
The only thing that will change your position is you changing it, praying is fine, but do that after you work to fix things, if needed.
I know how you feel about your classes, ive been there.. i have literally missed soo many classes when i went to my final i forgot what room i was in. and i dont even have drugs as an excuse… i was just unresponsible >
but as for your current situation the best way to get out of a hole is to stop digging, which i see you are already doing, and gj on being clean. Now just remember if you do mess up it doesnt mean its over.. it just means you get to get up and try again, this time with a little more knowledge.
Id have to disagree w/ xeno. I dont want to get in a pointless argument, but from what I know is if you have full faith in God, and trust and be obedient to him, he can change your life. He will work through you and fix things. the key here is accepting his grace and he will fix it for you, because you cannot fix it yourself without the grace of God. Too many people say they believe in god… then go and try to fix it themselves, thats completely counter-intuitive.
Here are some songs i listen to when i am having a tough time.
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fus…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I6VKwG…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Nkzxw…
i have many more good songs if interested
Lol. Yeah. okay. Pray and never try to do anything for yourself, that’ll get you far in life.
i dunno. i think u shud seek sum real help. i think it wuld help if u get an understandin companion, like a friend. at times, even pets help. especialy dogs.
Scientific studies confirm it, praying has the same effects and affects as rubbing a lucky horseshoe or rabbit’s foot. Do something more productive with your time.
stop trying to test God, hes not a puppet. And I hope every christian realises that you don’t pray and instantly get what you want, or may even get it at all. In the end its not your will its his.
gfhsdfd wrote:
In the end its not your will its his.
Then why the f**k are you so pissed off?
who said i was pissed off?
Something that comes from being good at English. I can tell by the way you wrote that last reply.
haha, no.. not at all, that is in your head. I can see how you may think that, but its just like trying to detect sarcasm through text.. sometimes it just doesnt work right
Okay. First of all, what’s the ******* point of worshiping a god if it isn’t going to do anything for you? Secondly, if god has a plan, why the **** pray? It seems rather presumptuous to think a god is going to give a **** about your grades, etc. When there are starving people who need the help more. Thirdly, what about all the promises made in the Bible, god’s “holy” book? Verifiable text that guarantees you get what you pray for if you believe god will do it, and you pray in Jesus name, so that it may glorify the father through the son? Doesn’t that mean anything? Or is the bible just a lie written by men who made mistakes? I think it’s the latter.
the point of worshipping God even if he isnt going to do something for you, because its not about you. you pray so that you cah have a personal relationship with christ. he gives you a choice to make one with him or not. and That is not how God works… he doesnt just pick the ones that are the worst off to help first.
What about his promises? it does not guarantee you will get what you want, i dont know who or what youve been listening to.
and im not trying to be passive aggressive.. im pretty much quoting scripture. it says Matthew 4:7
7 Jesus answered him, “It is also written: `Do not put the Lord your God to the test.’”
Then your god sucks and is not worthy of a relationship with me.
I would suggest you research Zen Buddhism. Its not a worship of a god or buddha its a way to help you accept yourself for who you are and very calming. I would say itsa more of a mindset that will help you deal with your personal demons.
oh he is, but im sorry you feel that way, and im sorry you are so self centered. the least pleasurable life i can imagine is one dedicated to pleasure
Masochist.
gfhsdfd wrote:
the least pleasurable life i can imagine is one dedicated to pleasure
Funny… that makes you really wrong.
its much more rewarding to live a life for others, not for yourself.
Who isn’t here?
gfhsdfd wrote:
the least pleasurable life i can imagine is one dedicated to pleasure
Verum, we should show this guy a movie like Se7en to show them what the least pleasurable lives look like.
Yeah. That perp was ****** up.
gfhsdfd wrote:
its much more rewarding to live a life for others, not for yourself.
Why the mothaf**k do you think we spend so much mothaf**king time on this mothaf**king site for?
Certainly demonstrates the versatility of the word.
Xeno Dragon wrote:
gfhsdfd wrote:Why the mothaf**k do you think we spend so much mothaf**king time on this mothaf**king site?
its much more rewarding to live a life for others, not for yourself.
There.
Sorry, a little grammatical self-surgery.
Verum Causa wrote:
Certainly demonstrates the versatility of the word.
Lol. ^_^
Look. One doesn’t need to believe in a imaginary being to be moral. Just like one doesn’t have to believe in Santa Clause, the Tooth Fairy, the faeries at the bottom of the well, unicorns, Big Foot, the Loch Ness monster, etc. Delusions are not necessary to be good.
no not at all. but then again being good doesn’t get you into heaven either
i know im sure ill stirr up some stuff with that one.. anyway i must sleep. l8r gents
I’ll let you have the first go Xeno.
I think I choked the site… I’m trying to post in another widow, but it’s not going through…
It might just be the fundy spewing all the crap.
Something I thought you both might like. A post I made ages ago, in my first week or so on this site. http://help.com/post/67334-god-thinks
God Thinks
These are the lyrics to a song by Voltaire. Read them, and think. I don’t want a flame war, I just want people to think about this.
God thinks all blacks are obsolete farm equipment
God thinks the Jews killed his son and must be punished
God thinks the white man is Satan
God, they know what God thinks
God thinks we should all convert to Judaism
God thinks we must all be Christians and
God thinks we should all embrace Islam
God thinks the only true religion is Hinduism
And I
I know what God thinks
God thinks you’re a waste of flesh
God prefers an Atheist
God thinks all people like you are hateful
God thinks all people like you are an embarrassment to creation
self-righteous, judgmental, first to throw the stone
and use His name for your own protection
God thinks the sun revolves around the Earth
God thinks there was something very wrong with Copernicus
God thinks abortion is murder and
God thinks everything that science gave us is wrong
God thinks women deserve it
God thinks AIDS is a form of punishment
I hate people who blame the Devil for their own shortcomings and
I hate people who thank God when things go right
And I
I know what God thinks
God thinks you’re an idiot
God prefers a heretic
God God
God thinks all people like you are hateful
God thinks all people like you are an embarrassment to creation
self-righteous, judgmental, first to throw the stone
and use His name for your own agenda
God is a liberal
God is a democrat
God wants you to vote republican
never trust a man who puts his words in the mouth of god
and says that it’s absolute truth
its lies and it smells like death
its all in a day’s work taking money from the poor
Why do you think that God would need your dirty money
if he wanted to start a holy war?
self-righteous, judgmental, first to throw the stone
and use His name for your own protection
God thinks puppies need to die and
God thinks babies need to drown
’cause God is neither good nor bad
God is you and me
God is Everything
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