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ahhhhhh
what is going on in my head, everything is hard, I just want to run away
I miss a connection with another human being. Spent whole life making connections but now there isn’t a single person who I feel likes me, or even knows me, who I can talk to or I feel safe around.
Everybody hurts- I mean everybody who I once kept close and I loved, is now hurting me. I can’t reach out to my ex and talk to her, she isn’t there anymore, she want someone to buy a house with. She said she felt sorry for me for thinking this and when I am “up” I understand, but its still true, it’s about what I can do for her. Its not just house buying, but sharing a life and she doesn’t want to share mine and I don’t blame her, I wouldn’t want it either. I miss having someone, anyone, wanting to be a friend. I can make acquaintances by the dozen when I’m up and faking, but I don’t feel anyone understands or cares, they just go silent or change the subject or call me “princess” if I start to share the pain that is in me, that IS me.
What brought this on? Trying to be brave and face some pain from long ago. I tried to build a support network first, but it was just a waste of time as they just make it worse.
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