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ahhhhhh

what is going on in my head, everything is hard, I just want to run away

I miss a connection with another human being. Spent whole life making connections but now there isn’t a single person who I feel likes me, or even knows me, who I can talk to or I feel safe around.

Everybody hurts- I mean everybody who I once kept close and I loved, is now hurting me. I can’t reach out to my ex and talk to her, she isn’t there anymore, she want someone to buy a house with. She said she felt sorry for me for thinking this and when I am “up” I understand, but its still true, it’s about what I can do for her. Its not just house buying, but sharing a life and she doesn’t want to share mine and I don’t blame her, I wouldn’t want it either. I miss having someone, anyone, wanting to be a friend. I can make acquaintances by the dozen when I’m up and faking, but I don’t feel anyone understands or cares, they just go silent or change the subject or call me “princess” if I start to share the pain that is in me, that IS me.

What brought this on? Trying to be brave and face some pain from long ago. I tried to build a support network first, but it was just a waste of time as they just make it worse.

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CONNOR [FIERCE] offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (21 minutes after post)

Instead of faking who are in front of people, just be yourself. If people do not accept who you are then who cares. There are millions of people in the world and you might meet new friends everyday. A good relationship does not happen in five days. It takes time. I assure you in the end all the work you put into the relationship will be worth it.

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1 year ago (29 minutes after post)

CONNOR [FIERCE wrote:
]Instead of faking who are in front of people, just be yourself. If people do not accept who you are then who cares. There are millions of people in the world and you might meet new friends everyday. A good relationship does not happen in five days. It takes time. I assure you in the end all the work you put into the relationship will be worth it.

Myself? Good advice, accept that the real me is an unattractive ball of rage and confusion. I had many long term friends, lasting 5 yrs and more, but I changed so drastically that they became strangers almost overnight. I’ve put bucket loads of effort in to relationships, but I’m starting to think it was a waste, as the ones that ment and helped the most were the ones that took no effort and just happened. And the perfect strangers are often kinder than life long friends, as you aren’t afraid to be honest around them.
Thanks for advice, I’m just wired and wacked right now. I think I just bit off more than I could chew and my mind just ran in circles of uncertainty and isolation.

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CONNOR [FIERCE] offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (55 minutes after post)

Well maybe try seeing a counselor? Other than that I suggest trying to focus on other matters. Keep your mind busy.

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1 year ago (59 minutes after post)

that really is the obviouse answer isn’t it. :-|

arrrhh, yeah, that’s what I need to do. dang mucking turtle pooping councillors, asking all those difficult questions and poking all the sore bits…

Swearing on help.com makes you creative. thanks connor, Even an hour later, I’m feelign a lot better.

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CONNOR [FIERCE] offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (1 hour, 14 minutes after post)

I guess it just is what it is. We all have problems man. Just take baby steps. If you are depressed you could try antidepressants. I cannot condone them though.

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1 year ago (1 hour, 25 minutes after post)

I was feeling good, and so I set about doing some difficult stuff, I want to change my birth certificate to not be fraudulent. I was calling up the right people when the options for how to do so started brancing, and I started feeling emotional overwhelmed. My habit in these times was to do things that just aren’t possible anymore, so I started wigging out.

But now I at least know my coping stratergies don’t work, and have a test case for testing knew ones. Decided drugs aren’t for me, but I should get some prof help.

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CONNOR [FIERCE] offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (1 hour, 33 minutes after post)

Just do whatever makes you happy and keeps you busy. Drugs are the last step but maybe jogging or running might take your mind to different places and keep you healthy.

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chunkymove offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (2 hours, 22 minutes after post)

5kms a day. Thanks, I’m a regular user here, and know all the right things to do, I was just overwhelmed before.

I think I was starting a new challenge to avoid facing my current one that got to hard. Lesson learnt.

Thanks Connor, going to close post now.

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chunkymove offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (2 hours, 22 minutes after post)

woops, didn’t tick anon, oh well.

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