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I feel I’ve lost all my friends…
(if anyone takes the time to read this, god bless you haha)
In high school I had a HUGE circle of friends that I called my best. We would do everything together and go everywhere and I was so happy. Two of my friends decided to go to the same college as me and we thought it would be amazing. I didn’t want to room with them because I thought it would stop me from making friends, but the other two roomed together. Right away things started getting awkward fast. Slowly, they would stop waving to me, and they never wanted to hang out when I called them. I felt like I was the only one interested in doing anything with them and they didn’t care at all. So I started to get mad. And I know I was wrong, but I started to talk bad about them because I’m a girl, and girls do this sometimes. So I told one of the girl’s ex boyfriends about how mad I was. A few weeks later the ex boyfriend calls me and says he got a letter from the girl and it criticized me calling me a loser because i’m not a frickin alcoholic like she is. So we started to make fun of the letter, publicly. She found out, and called me and said all these insults and told me to basically die and if she ever sees me in person she’ll kill me… And I didn’t get to say one word. So after I stopped balling my eyes out, I called her back and tried to explain why I was upset with her in the first place and she just wouldnt hear any of it…
So now I see her every so often and she’ll just try to not make eye contact with me, and we basically act like we don’t even know eachother.
And what hurts the most now is that over breaks, all our friends get together, but she has basically ruined my name to everyone, so few people want to see me, or they just dont include me anywhere anymore so things arent awkward…
I am just so distraught by all this, and I don’t feel like I really should apologize, because I meant what I said, and she’s taking no blame for how she made me feel. I’m okay with losing her as a friend, but I just wish I could have the others back…
My family tells me that if they are my true friends they’ll see the truth and stay with me, but it depresses me more that all the memories of my past are with people who I guess arent really my friends after all…
I just needed to vent I suppose… isn’t really a question or anything.
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