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It’s always the same…
Today I put up our chrismas decorations bymyself. My parents and my brother told me the would help but didn’t. My boyfriend bailed out on me for thanksgiiving. My family ignored me everytime I tried to say anything at the party yesterday. I’ getting so tired of trying when nothing changes. I keep having these thoughts of taking a whole bottle of pills. Its even coming out in my dreams. IDK I don’t want to yet the more I think about it the more it makes perfect sence…Am I crazy? Or just simply invisable?
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No, your not crazy or invisable…and no, yu definitely shouldn’t O.D. on purpose…look on the bright side…at least you have family and a boyfriend…some people truly have no one but you do have people there for you…
Don’t try hon, find people who appreciate you for who you are. You can’t choose your family unfortunately.
~Charlii-Party~ wrote:
No, your not crazy or invisable…and no, yu definitely shouldn’t O.D. on purpose…look on the bright side…at least you have family and a boyfriend…some people truly have no one but you do have people there for you…
I don’t think they really care about me. They just like the idea of having someone around that they can use and manipulate. They wouldn’t be missing much if I wasn’t around…
I think we all feel like that sometimes…but I think that when people commit suicide it truly does hurt more people than they’d ever expect, even if they weren’t particularly nice or caring people…
Not to sound cynical but they would get over it. At least then they would realize how it feels..
They don’t realize I”m here now soooo they really wouldn’t have to change much of their daily lives anyway. I would probably be easier for them to keep on goin at their own busy lives.
First, I think you should get some help. You are crying out for help. Depression won’t go away by itself, it may get better somedays, but unless you change the pattern it will just keep coming back.
Second, Do something that makes your happy by yourself. You have to be able to know how to make yourself happy, that way you don’t have to depend on your family or boyfriend for happiness.
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Not to sound cynical but they would get over it. At least then they would realize how it feels..
People who don’t care never realize how it feels, they may never understand how you feel because it doesn’t appear they care about much more than themselves. You need to find your own happiness and don’t depend on them, they will let you down. I know how much that hurts but not everyone is like you and thoughtful.
No one should be like me I’m not a good person anyway. Maybe I’m just like them. Your right they probably wouldn’t know how I was feeling casue they don’t care. Well, then I guess I don’t have anything to be guilty about wanting to do this then.
Zo wrote:
First, I think you should get some help. You are crying out for help. Depression won’t go away by itself, it may get better somedays, but unless you change the pattern it will just keep coming back.
Second, Do something that makes your happy by yourself. You have to be able to know how to make yourself happy, that way you don’t have to depend on your family or boyfriend for happiness.
It’s sooo pathetic because I don’t know what will make me happy. Nothing does! It’s like everything I try to do just comes crashing down on me. The things I use to like seem stupid now and a waste of time. IDK whats goin on but thanks for trying to make me feel better. ;)
i think you’re not being positive enough. I mean, I know that sounds retarded, but trying to find a negative side for everything never helps.
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No one should be like me I’m not a good person anyway. Maybe I’m just like them. Your right they probably wouldn’t know how I was feeling casue they don’t care. Well, then I guess I don’t have anything to be guilty about wanting to do this then.
Au contraire my friend, you have all kinds of reasons to live. You can make a better life for yourself and be happy you just have to want it and it seems you are stuck in the negative by choice.
I”m sorry. its hard to find anything positve anymore. Everytime I think of a positve thing I get knocked backwards a few pegs. Its frustrating when you feel that nothing is getting accomplished.
You need to love and like yourself first. If you don’t how would you know if other people like you? You won’t be able to tell.
Your parents might be really busy with work, and personal issues. Parents rarely tell their kids- “Hey I am stressed out, life sucks right now” It must be really stressful to provide for a family, especially in this economy.
They do care, even if they aren’t showing it right now.
When you are depressed one of the symptoms is not liking things you usually find enjoyable. You can call 1-800-273 TALK - to talk to someone. Please don’t kill yourself. Strangers you never met care. Look at all these people responding.
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I”m sorry. its hard to find anything positve anymore. Everytime I think of a positve thing I get knocked backwards a few pegs. Its frustrating when you feel that nothing is getting accomplished.
Don’t be sorry, you can find a positive if you try really hard and then when you do, hold on to it. Find one thing you really like about yourself and repeat it every time you look in the mirror.
I know it’s frustrating, but killing yourself really isn’t the answer. Good things happen when you wait for them…
Thanks:) I probably won’t do it because no one would even know I was gone. Id probably be layin in my room for days on days anyway.
It is really hard to think positively, I know. I was raised in an extremely negative environment and had depression myself. It takes practice to think positively. You will have to work hard for it. I actually put sticky notes on my mirror (a suggestion from my therapist), with positive thoughts. Like “I am smart”, “I am worthy”, “I am beautiful”.
Why don’t you leave your house and go watch a movie? A comedy, like Madagascar II.
Hahah I wish I could but I don’t have my licence yet. A movie does sound nice tho:)
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