Year help: I am 54 years old, came to this country in 1975 with $ 1.75 in my pocket. - Help.com

Thank you all for your kind words, when we feel that our world is colapsing and there is nothing to hold on to we feel desperate. I know that we are not suppose to lose hope and I am sure that in God’s plan what happens is for a reason, however, the idea of being homeless is scary to me, I’ve always taken care of mysel,but now, the person who was my partner in business and who is been like a father to me for many years is about to lose his home also. He’s been there for me when my own brothers were not and he is the reason why I believe that there are good hearted people in the world. After losing our company the struggle to make it has been hard but we managed to stay above water, now it seams like we both will lose it all and the more depresses you get the harder it is to face the world. Where do we go from here?

Khalil, you are right, I have not lost my faith in God and you are absolutely correct. I know that there are people in the world in worst shape that I am. Today I still have a roof over my head and some food on my table, I am trying to take care of my friend and myself. I owe it to him. The problem is that sometimes we feel all the doors are closed and there is no way to go. I pray for a job I have applied so many times looking for employment and have not received one reply. I wish I could do more for other people that are suffering or are hungry or are also homeless, believe me, I have helped people before and even though those people love me, I am sure, they are not in the position to solve my problems. My friend who is 67 years old had a heart atack a few weeks ago, so things for him are not great either, especially now that he is about to be homeless himself. I know that too many people suffer in the world but for today I have to think of my and my friend and try to take care of us and come out of this situation. I thank you for your thoughts and your kind words.

Khalil, our stories are unique in many ways. No I do not have children and yes I have relatives near by but because I am different than how they want me to be sometimes they don’t want to help that is the reason why I believe in the kindness of strangers that do not question your life but love you the way you are and give you a hand when you need one to cross the bridges of life. I have found more love among strangers than with my own brothers, It’s sad but it’s true.

Because we take family for granted. Khalil, when I was able and one of my brothers asked for help I did not hesitate in helping them. God had been good to me and I believed that by helping them I was doing God’s will. Sometimes it doesn’t work that way. It would be too long to explain through this method, but, family relationships many times are too complex and complicated. I believe in people until someone gives me a good reason not to believe in them. I do not like liers or thieves I don’t believe in people hurting each other for any reason. I believe that love and friendship are very powerful forces, crative and positive. I have applied those beliefs to my own family but the response has not been great. I am the youngest of them all and it seems that no matter what I have to say it’s of no importance to them. Why? I don’t know, and yet, I have received very harsh words from my brothers, from insults to telling me to foget I have a family and never come back to them. That hurts too much but I always forgave. I cannot keep feelings in my heart that hurt me or eat me like a cancerous virus. I have also found very kind people in the world that have showed me so much love even when they did not have to. So, love may not come from where we expect it but somehow in some way it always comes our way.

That’s true, you don’t think of taking back what you give because some of us are givers not loaners. When I offer my help I give my help I don’t lend it, but that is a matter of perspective, believe me, I know people who are loaners and if they do something for you they will never let you forget it. You are sold for life. But then again, we are all different. It is too stressfull to be waiting for the repayment of a favor that you did for someone. Give if you can, unselfishly, with an open heart and without expecting repayment. Keep yourself free of feelings of dissapointment because someone hasn’t paid you back. Somehow, from somewhere your pay will come right along with the grace of God.

Thank you so much for the kind words, when we give we not only give material wealth but wisdom and support. The workds that I have received have been inspirational and full of love and wisdom. Thank you again and GOD bless you!

Dear Khalil,

Not much has changed in my life, my faith in God, however, is still strong. I’m still fighting my mortgage company to keep my house so that I can have a roof over my head, the economic crisis all over the world is felt more, understandably, by the people that struggle on a daily basis to make a living. Who knows what tomorrow will bring? we hope for a brighter future and hope is what keeps us going. I wish that happiness fills your life, my brother, and that sunny days complete your weeks and the smiles rest upon your lips. Take care of yourself and God bless you!