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I’m female and trying to work out if I still love my teacher. I fell for her in year 8 (not in a homosexual way - more maternal at first) and still think of her very much to this day. It would take way too long to explain my story but if anyone wants to hear or talk about a similar thing I am here. But yeah, I still dream about her and think about contacting her all the time. I’ve recently started university and I miss her so much, I always get this niggling feeling that I need to know how she is. I sent her a letter this morning just telling her normal things and I really hope she replies. I don’t think it’s gonna happen though cause I told her in school that I loved her. Pretty quickly to be honest. She first taught me in year 8 and I knew I loved her by Christmas. I told her in a letter in April - even handed it to her personally…timed it well though…it was the last day before Easter so I could avoid it for 2 weeks. But yeah she seemed to pretty much be neutral about the first letter. Then I sent a second and she told some other teacher (higher up). I was destroyed. But to this day I can’t quite work out what I feel for her now. Is it still love? I always want to know how she is and how she is getting on with her kids (she adopted - when I found this out I was cut in two). I always saw myself as her “daughter” in a weird sense. I was distant from my own mum at the time and she was there. Help!

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (11 minutes after post)

Did you tell her that you thought of her as your mom, and that you and your mom weren’t that close, and that you don’t love her in a romantic sense. That could be what is making her uncomfortable. I would send her an email just asking how she is, and if she doesn’t reply, I wouldn’t think of her as a mother figure, because she obviously doesn’t deserve it. I know what you’re going through, my 8th grade english teacher was the only one who kept me from commiting suicide. She was the only person that really cared about me. I told her the next year how much she helped me, and she never really responded… I felt really let down, but then I realized she probably just felt uncomfortable.

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (17 minutes after post)

yeah I know what you mean. I told her I saw her as a maternal figure in the first letter which she didn’t really say much to. Then in the second and third ones I vaguely remember asking her for a meeting cause I eally needed to discuss my feelings, I guess that’s what put her off. I can understand it from her point of view but I just wish we could have a friendly relationship and that she could write back and not be distracted by everything I’ve told her. She isn’t the best with technology and I have sent her many emails with no replies. I’ve been in for a chat every now and again and I even worked as a classroom assistant with her when I was trying to get over her (not good idea!). I saw a different, irritating side to her actually and realised what other students thought of her. But at the end of the day she just wanted students to listen and be interested in what she was teaching. I was and am studying German still! She inspired me to study it as a language and I have so much to thank her for. I just wish we could be friends and write like all was normal. That’s one thing that stands out, the fact that it’s all been one way. It really hurts.

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (22 minutes after post)

I understand what you mean… most teachers don’t really want to have a relationship with their students outside of class. Almost all of my family and their friends are teachers, and they really don’t like to see their students outside of school because…you know, it’s just too much. Send her a thank you note if you haven’t already, and just hope for the best, but prepare for the worst. Hope I said anything helpful.

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (26 minutes after post)

yeah that last sentence makes a lot of sense :D I don’t expect a reply to be honest and this is like the last thing I can think of doing. I don’t know if maintaining contact is a good idea or not but I’m willing to give it a go. I know it’s probably not the best time to have written her a “normal” letter yesterday and posted it this morning, seeing as I still don’t know if I love her or not, but it was something I felt I needed to do. I have always taken risks with her and even if this one doesn’t work at least I can say I tried to make things normal again. Thanks very much for the chat :D. If you ever need to talk about your experience then feel free.

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (29 minutes after post)

liz13 wrote:
yeah that last sentence makes a lot of sense :D I don’t expect a reply to be honest and this is like the last thing I can think of doing. I don’t know if maintaining contact is a good idea or not but I’m willing to give it a go. I know it’s probably not the best time to have written her a “normal” letter yesterday and posted it this morning, seeing as I still don’t know if I love her or not, but it was something I felt I needed to do. I have always taken risks with her and even if this one doesn’t work at least I can say I tried to make things normal again. Thanks very much for the chat :D. If you ever need to talk about your experience then feel free.

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