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Last year, things got quite bad at home, parents wanted

to split up, only told me, dad and I were always fighting and he chucked me out the car a number of times. My mums an alchaholoic and bcame really drunk so i could never really talk to her. I couldn’t taslk to my brother bcause they wanted to hide the divorce plans from him. When work was building up and there was a boy at school that would not leave me alone and continusly “i love u” or “i hate u” and it was usually the latter and we fought the whole time i don’t know why even put up with it. I started self harming when i stopped sleeping. I got about 2 hours a night every night for months. Then i got this back under control, gradually i got my sleep back so now i can sleep from about 1 - 7 which gives me 6 hours.

I am better from this last year i stopped the self harming because i realised it was wrong which was hard because i had become quite addicted. i told my mum (not about this) but how i was feeling and things are better now, she’s seeing a counseller but she has a boyfriend, so she’s having an affair (which i found out from overhearing phonecalls and then asking). I don’t mind this she deserves happiness i just don’t like being lied to. I’m not very happy at sixth form, because last year attention from my friends kept me happy, and that atmposhere. i’d only just started to get attention from boys and it was exciting. Now basically everyones gone and i’m left with many peopel i don’t get on with, so now this isn’t “exciting” if you know what i mean, anymore. My lessons send me to sleep because the class sizes are so small even me on my own in one. I feel so ridiculously tired the whole time. I do play sport i’m not fat or anything but i could lose some. Like now, i’m back home all i want to do is sleep. I don’t give a **** about work anymore, which i didn’t really either, until i crammed at the end of the year to prove to people i could do it. I got good grades, everyone thinks i’m some genius and the schools basically implied theyre expecting 4 As and oxbridge (Y). Great. I have no motivation anymore, i’m not really interested in my subjects and not confident either. This has led me to swap a subject, and now i want to do it again with another. I also want to move to a college(but i’m scared, i don’t know who i am, when i’m raelxed with my friends i am really weird and a bit freaky haha but we all find it funny, meeting nerw ppl i obv can’t do this and so worry what the real me is and ahh yes lol another story). I have these 2 decisions in my head and it’s really stressing me out. I know it seems like a small problem, and i know i am very lucky to be recieving an education because there are many out there who don’t, and i don’t doubt how fortunate i am for second. I guess i’m just writing this to get it off my chest and put it in words so it’s less bottled up.

I want to talk to my mum. and i can to an extent but shes really unhappy and has just started seeing a counseller which is good for her. me and my dad dont get on and hes a bit likie pervy weird we just dont get on at all. im thinking i should apply for college and weve been meaning to send a letter in (me and my mum) for weeks now but at the last minute i keep on saying, no , dont give it in. because im scared. even though im raelly unhappy where i am. should i give in the letter tomroow? would lots of new people help me? ive been in the school for 10 years i absolutely hate it i am alone in my lessons (just me in french, me and one boy who refuses to talk in english cos hes so ridiuclously shy etc). what do i do? thankyou anyone who reads this and spares time to give advice.

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