As an artist….I have this type of mood constantly. i just want to give up and think nothing is going to help, I’m not getting anywhere with this etc etc. Just please don’t start digging yourself that whole.
I recently quit college, and to be honest it wasn’t helping me in life. I took an arts course that amputated any creativity I had left. Its taken some time to recover my originality, but I was so depressed knowing that what I thought I would do in life was a complete waste of time and money. I couldn’t go back to my parents because I was so ashamed I let them down. I had no one to talk to etc etc… Then I panicked and said “omg, Im screwed for life”… “Why did I ruin this for myself”… “Why didnt I just suck it up and do whatever everybody else was doing”… I was only making myself depressed and didn’t realize how much opportunity I had left. they say, when one door shuts, another opens? Who’s to say I am ruined for life? Whos to say even if I live In a crappy apartment selling art I wont be happy? I might even go back, if i ever want to right? I have lots of time..Im not dead yet!
But this isn’t about me, this is about you. And you finding a way back out of the whole you dag for yourself. Just remember that things can always be worse. Your young, you have the world in your hands. I use to hang this article of a man who climbed a tall snowy mountain and ended up trapping himself there. He had to cut off his own hand for his survival. I use to read that when I was down and said I could be him lol. Things can always be worse. Try to outlet your frustration or depression. You need to find some type of release. Its natural to feel down after something bad happens and sometimes (like you and me) it just doesn’t hit us to later. Just remember there’s always tomo. You always are able to give yourself a fresh start, just do it when your comfortable and ready