Do you want to try telling us your secret so we can help a bit more?
Well..I cut my legs a lot. And it’s been getting worse..Like I ruined a whole towel, because there was too much blood. It sucks. I know I shouldn’t, but it’s like I can’t stop..I love it. And I hate it.
Well..I’m not sure exactly. I guess it’s because I feel like I deserve it, you know? I know I’m not a bad person, but I feel like anything small is always my fault. That’s one thing, one issue..but there’s more. Like, whenever I feel like crying, I cut instead, and it distracts me, and I go all empty, and I don’t cry. I like to look at the blood, and feel like I’m doing something..I know it’s really screwed up, but that’s me. Screwed up.
it’s the people that think they’re ‘normal’ that are the most messed up (in my oppinion:P)
you’re not alone, many people deal with stress/ anger in this way.
what do you feel makes you a bad person? it’s the reasons behind self harm, that are usually more scary then the act it’s self. *hugs* i know it’s a really scarry thing to get caught up in.
do you want to stop?
dollyx♥x
You should talk to your counselor, if you want help that is. They wont lock you away, shouldn’t search your room or take away your razor but I can’t tell you how everyone will react to it. I’ve done the same thing as you and when I told people alot of them just wanted to help, to talk, true some of them now act suspicious when I cover my body or act depressed but that’s only because they don’t want to see me hurt again, which is what you’re friends/family will think. But like I said start with your counselor if you feel comfortable with it because by law they have to keep your secrets just that-secret. I hope the best for you as you sound like a really nice if somewhat depressed person.
I think it might be a good idea to talk to your counsellor again - counsellors have to keep things confidential unless it’s a situation where they think you’re going to be in danger if they don’t do something. So you shouldn’t be scared, they will be supportive.
Also you should find alternative ways of letting your emotions out..cutting is really bad for you even if it does make you feel a bit better.
Writing is a really good way to do this…just writing everything down to get it out of your head, then it can help to look over it and figure things out for yourself, or some people like to burn it once it’s out…kinda symbolises getting rid of your problems and stuff I guess.
Talking to people of course… If you don’t feel comfortable with your counsellor yet then take some time to get to know him/her or maybe talking to a close friend whenever you get upset?
my friend went through something similar, and i told her she NEEDED to tell someone other than me. so we went to her guidance counselor. so i would tell you to find a close friend to support you becuase it will be VERY hard at first, and go to your counselor. If it doesnt get better immediately, it will in time. The only way you can help yourself is by confiding in someone like your counselor.
I’ve been through the exact same thing, and one of my friends too. When she told me, obviously i felt less weird and less alone, and when she told other people they were freaked out, sad, but mostly worried. Adults that she told were really concerned but understanding. I never told anyone, but my older brother saw my scars once and he was mad and scared he probably told my parents because they were walking on eggshells around me. She got through all this with counseling and she’s a lot happier and can express herself much better. I got through this mostly alone by sheer will power. I feel way better too. It’s a really difficult habit to break out of but you can do it if you want to. Theres always help if you need it. Message me if you want to talk. Good Luck. Don’t give up. It’s really worth it to stop.
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I cut my leg once and now I have a huge scar there. I tell people its from a 4-wheeling accident because Im ashamed now. You will get through this, try always keeping a rubber band on your wrist and when you feel like cutting snap it on your wrist instead of cutting.
You will think thoughts that you know are bad. Don’t do them. You dont have to confess everything or feel bad about who you are no matter what has happened. Your in control of what you think about, remember that. Just know that you make tomorrow happen. Whatever you do is up to you. dont give up when there is always so much joy ahead. It isnt all good but know that you can survive anything that doesnt kill you. Dont tempt fate, learn to love doing different things. You will always feel like your the only one that sees your life because that is true.
I’m not even sure that I want to stop. It makes everything so traumatic and when I get embarrassed at school, I just tell myself they don’t know the truth..Fuckked up? you bet. I don’t know..I like it. But it’s bad, I know that it’s fuckking up my relationships, and giving me worse self esteem..idk.
this is your way of copeing, you know it’s not the ‘best’ way. some people cope by smoking, and it’s okay for them to not want to quit. i know what you mean by hateing it, at the same time as loving it
safe and strongness
dollyxXx
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