Person help: I feel so alone.

echoed sunlight

I feel so alone.

I began slaughtering my skin today, the first time in awhile. I’ve told one person… and I am so sorry that I told him. I burden him. I feel like I have no where to go, no one to talk to. Misery, along with self-pity, has completely consumed me. I don’t think. I want to cry out, in pain, but my emotions are congested.
Where can I turn to for help?

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morethenagirl 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (3 minutes after post)

Whats goin on to make you hurt yourself again? I’m here if you need to talk about it.

Help me with: I feel so down all the time I just want to disapear!

echoed sunlight 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (5 minutes after post)

I don’t know. I’ve just turned completely miserable the past few weeks.

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morethenagirl 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (8 minutes after post)

Something happen to make you feel this way? I don’t think your a burden. You need to tell someone about whats goin on with you. You did the right thing. Why do you think you burdened him?

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echoed sunlight 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (12 minutes after post)

I don’t think anything specific happened. I totally burdened him because I opened my mouth a bit too wide and spilled too much information. I am so sorry I did that.

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morethenagirl 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (19 minutes after post)

What exactly did you tell him, if you don’t mind my asking. The first time I told someone about cutting myself I felt the same way. Like I was pushing all these wild horrible feelings on them. That they were going to think of me differently and it was really hard but in the end they didn’t think that way at all. It was my own self making me feel that way. Sometimes the person we tell these little secrets to doesn’t really know how to handle them. I think it’s becasue they care so much about you they don’t know where to begin to help. Don’t be sorry either. You reached out for help and thats a Great step!

Help me with: I feel so down all the time I just want to disapear!

echoed sunlight 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (27 minutes after post)

I have opened up to him in the past, but this time I shared too many details, about how there was blood seeping through my pants. I told him about the x-acto blade I carry around in my wallet at all times. Sometimes, like now, I think that he just wants me to hurt myself. He doesn’t know how to handle it. No one wants to help. I feel as if I am stuck inside of a shell right now.

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morethenagirl 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (32 minutes after post)

I’m sorry that happened. Try not to blame him to much. He probalby acted that way becasue he cares about you. It’s a little overwhelming to find out this kind of information just as much as it is for telling it. I’m sure he wants to help he’s just not sure how to. And I KNOW he doesn’t want you to hurt yourself!! Please don’t. BUt I want to help you, if I can, I would love to!

Have you tried other methods instead of cutting? Like holding an ice cube or wearing a rubber band around your wrist and flicking it when you want to cut, or journaling, running anything like that?

Help me with: I feel so down all the time I just want to disapear!

echoed sunlight 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (36 minutes after post)

While I know that he may not want me to hurt myself, I know that there are many, many others who do. There are so many who hate me, and I cannot even begin to fathom why… so I might as well join in and harm myself.

I have tried those methods, but they require a great deal more energy, more than I have. To sound rather childish, it’s just not the same.

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morethenagirl 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (47 minutes after post)

No, you are worth more then that! By hurting yourself you are hurting him too. Try and forget those jerks who are making you feel this way!! Try and resist the temptation to hurt yourself. Call someone up and chat you don’t have to tell them whats goin on just small talk. Have you told anyone else about this yet?

Help me with: I feel so down all the time I just want to disapear!

echoed sunlight 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (52 minutes after post)

I could try that. I’m limited in the number of people I can call, especially at night when my urges flare up, but I’ll try. My family has known for about a year now. I’ve gone through a couple of treatment facilities.

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morethenagirl 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (57 minutes after post)

Good, it sounds like you have some to talk to :) You can always come on here too and talk. Its a good distraction :p Also, try and give your friend some time too he may just need some time to get what you told him through his head, ya know? I hope things work out for you let me know would ya how your doin? Is it ok if I add you as a friend?

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echoed sunlight 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (1 hour, 4 minutes after post)

Yeah, I know to leave him be for awhile. Hopefully things will clear up a bit, in general.
Of course, you are absolutely welcome to add me as a friend.

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morethenagirl 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (1 hour, 11 minutes after post)

Ok hun, try not to dwell on this it will only make it harder! Let me know how things are goin would ya? I’ll be thinking about you! Good night xoxox

Help me with: I feel so down all the time I just want to disapear!

echoed sunlight 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (1 hour, 22 minutes after post)

Sure, thanks. Night to you, too.

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