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I’m not sure if I can make it another day..

I want to get it over with..tell someone, but this weight is pressing down on me, and I know it would be so hard to get help..
I hurt so much..Emotionally, and physically. I’m drained, and cut.
cuts, everywhere on my legs..Burning so much. I feel my heart beat in them.
How do I go on?
the blood, it’s everywhere, on my walls, my clothes, how do I hide that?
I can’t help myself..
I don’t want them to figure it out, but I’m scared I won’t be able to handle it..
And I hate hating myself, I hate hurting myself, I hate crying, I hate wishing there was some way I could tell them.
I don’t know if I can do this..All by myself.
No matter who’s there to talk with me, I’m still so alone.

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dimmingstar1376 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (4 minutes after post)

you will make it i know you probably hate hearing it and are probably thinking how do you know and what do you know but you will make it just breathe ..please

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morethenagirl offline Verified User (12 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (5 minutes after post)

Whats goin on dear, to make you want to hurt yourself? Talking sometimes relieves some tension thats been hiding. I’m here if you want to talk about it. I know how addicting cutting yourself can be first hand soo I won’t judge you:)

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dimmingstar1376 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (6 minutes after post)

trust me when i say this i know exactly how you feel and so much more ..

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dyingtobethin1 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (10 minutes after post)

I don’t know why..Something must be wrong with me. Something inside me. Deep inside. No can can see it..I’m sorry if you ever had to go through this, I’m sorry I’m so weak..It was probably so bad, and I’m making such a big deal out of this. I hate this so much, my body aches with it…I really am so sorry. I know a lot of people have better things to do than pat me on the back and say, it’ll be okay. I’m really sorry for everything. For posting on here, for telling you everything, for being so whiny. I feel so guilty just for that. I’m sorry.

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dimmingstar1376 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (11 minutes after post)

as to this ..”the blood, it’s everywhere, on my walls, my clothes, how do I hide that?” try some shout for walls and fabric you dont want blood to stain your clothes its not worth it and the stains are just a reminder making it worse making you want to cut more.

you can help yourself call your friend/sister in the picture or someone else and just talk to them

you aren’t doing anything wrong and you aren’t being whiny

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morethenagirl offline Verified User (12 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (12 minutes after post)

dyingtobethin1 wrote:
I don’t know why..Something must be wrong with me. Something inside me. Deep inside. No can can see it..I’m sorry if you ever had to go through this, I’m sorry I’m so weak..It was probably so bad, and I’m making such a big deal out of this. I hate this so much, my body aches with it…I really am so sorry. I know a lot of people have better things to do than pat me on the back and say, it’ll be okay. I’m really sorry for everything. For posting on here, for telling you everything, for being so whiny. I feel so guilty just for that. I’m sorry.

Hey don’t be sorry! We chose to talk to you remember! Just let it out maybe that will make you feel a little better. Don’t worry about being whiny becasue you aren’t!:) Whats goin on anyway?

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dimmingstar1376 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (13 minutes after post)

honey your not weak.. honestly your hurting and in pain but you can’t grasp it so you cut to block it to override it

sprinkle and i are here

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dyingtobethin1 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (16 minutes after post)

I never really thought of it like that..yeah..
I just feel so weak..I’m not even sure anymore.
Thank you..It’s nice to know I can talk to someone, even if they aren’t really talking to me..hehe.
I’m not sure what I’m going to do. I mean, everything is okay, right now, I’m not going hungry, I’m not living on the street, I have friends, all that.
I’m not sure I even have the right to feel this way.

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dimmingstar1376 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (20 minutes after post)

it not a right its personal to everyone dont feel bad for feeling a way people would critisice you for you are your own self and feel your own ways they have no say

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dimmingstar1376 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (21 minutes after post)

what time is it where you are

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morethenagirl offline Verified User (12 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (22 minutes after post)

dyingtobethin1 wrote:
I never really thought of it like that..yeah..
I just feel so weak..I’m not even sure anymore.
Thank you..It’s nice to know I can talk to someone, even if they aren’t really talking to me..hehe.
I’m not sure what I’m going to do. I mean, everything is okay, right now, I’m not going hungry, I’m not living on the street, I have friends, all that.
I’m not sure I even have the right to feel this way.

It’s ok honey to feel this way. Sometimes people get into slumps and need help to get out of them. Don’t beat yourself up about it things happen. Emotions happen. How old are you by the way? Could you talk to your parents about this?

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dyingtobethin1 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (28 minutes after post)

It’s 11:21 pm..I’m only 15.
I wish I could talk to my parent’s but..I’m so scared.
What if nothing changes?
Everyone will think things are changing but nothing will actuallt change.
What if that happens?
Every time I get up the courage to try to say something, I think about how stupid I am, how little my cuts are, like, Oh I can make it harder, deeper, and..
yeah I’m sorry.
I guess I’m one of those people who are really messed up and want attention.
Or maybe I’m the type of person who looks happy on the inside, but is dying on the inside..But the inside is rotting out, showing itself.
I appreciate the help, guys..
I’m going to head upstairs, try to forget everything I feel. Yeah, sleep.
The only peace most can get.
I’ll be back on as soon as possible, could you possibly want to talk then?
Thank you.

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dimmingstar1376 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (32 minutes after post)

i’ll do my best to be on when you come back but you can allways email me its this name at gmail.com do me a favor don’t cut before you go to bed drink some water and lie down abd your not messed up no where near peace

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morethenagirl offline Verified User (12 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (35 minutes after post)

Hun your not stupid your hurting and there is nothing stupid with hurting! ITs only stupid to let it go on when you can get some help. It is a scarry step to tell your parents or anyone as that matter but they would rather you tell them to see you hurting darling! I’ll try to be here when you get back if I’m not just leave me a shout and let me know how you are. Im on here all the time probalby so I’ll get back to you ASAP. Just please before you want to hurt yourself deap breath, try and think of something else, get an ice cube from the freezer and hold on to it as long as you can! Don’t cut yourself, please! Wish you peace hun! xoox

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dimmingstar1376 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (38 minutes after post)

dyingtobethin1 yeah i forgot about shouts definitely update me and sprinkles thank you you have a good night or day as well

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An Undisclosed Location | 12 months ago (44 minutes after post)

oh and dyingtobethin1 about username thin means nothing persons beauty is what one should want and since you already have it your there and i say this in all seriousness your to young to be thinking about being thin inner inner beauty health and self confident all thing everyone needs to work on and all things that trample being thin

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dyingtobethin1 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (14 hours, 54 minutes after post)

Hi, I’m not sure where you guys are, but just in case..
Well, I told my mom I’m sick, so I skipped on school today.
I cleaned up my leg, and I didn’t cut last night.
Thank you both for your support, it means so much to me right now!

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dyingtobethin1 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (14 hours, 57 minutes after post)

dimmingstar13768 wrote:
oh and dyingtobethin1 about username thin means nothing persons beauty is what one should want and since you already have it your there and i say this in all seriousness your to young to be thinking about being thin inner inner beauty health and self confident all thing everyone needs to work on and all things that trample being thin

Oh that was an old username, but I use it for a lot of things..
I guess I do have some issues about my body, but that’s not a big deal anymore.
I’m okay with myself now..

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morethenagirl offline Verified User (12 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (15 hours, 9 minutes after post)

Good I’m glad that everything worked out hun. Try and stay positive I know it seems impossible at times but in time things will change. If you ever need to talk or anything we’re here k?! xoxox

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dyingtobethin1 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (15 hours, 16 minutes after post)

Thanks. =]

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An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (1 day, 2 hours after post)

big thing here, you’re not alone. any time you feel alone, just remember, you have your friends, your family, and all these people here trying to help you on help.com. and btw, it’s alright to cry. you might not like it, but you have to accept it, or it’s just gonna hurt more.

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