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Ok first off is there any reason you want to cut yourself, is it because of some trouble or is it simply because you want to cut yourself?
frankly.. i think the therapist will know more about this stuff than i do.. but what’s on your mind when you are doing it… the best thing for you to do is try to be honest about your feelings, about what you’re thinking… otherwise we won’t be able to help… and we want to help..
Well, honestly it’s either A or B. Either there is something outragous goin on at home with yelling and fighting or B. there isn’t anything in my head at all. Thats what happened tonight my cat scratched me and then all a sudden I had to do it again, and again. It sounds insain but I don’t really know who else to talk to about this, ya know?
So you had to do it again and again, like is it compulsive? And it doesn’t sound insane, I used to cut a lot and I even tried to take my own life once and I am over it and a rational being, you can get over it too.
I’ve talked to a few people who cut themselves before, but I don’t think I can really say I understand it myself. Could be that the times when nothing is happening and you are cutting yourself it’s just the residual affects of times when things are happening?
In which case you need to talk about the times you know what the reason is for your cutting
The times when I do cut is when I get really emotional and people are yelling or I just feel soo hopeless I can’t go on anymore! Its times like that which make me want to do something more drastic…I don’t think I would but who knows sometimes it’s like these impulses get way out of my control and it makes things way to hard to handle. I don’t know what to do!
what do you feel when you’ve done it?
It sounds like you need to seek help that we can not provide.
tumble weed wrote:
what do you feel when you’ve done it?
relief mainly, I guess a little satisfaction…..
Bret wrote:
It sounds like you need to seek help that we can not provide.
I might be right. I just don’t know what else to do right about now.
do you feel like you need to punish yourself, that by punishing yourself you feel better or that somehow this forgives you for something?
Well, hopefully you have enough courage to confide in someone close to you and have them help you along the way, now this path maybe a councilor or a psychologist or a psychiatrist. You see I am not any of these but I will help as much as i am capable of.
I’m not trying to blame you for anything… i’m just trying to understand
I’m just trying to understand
I’m wondering if you are blaming yourself for something
I know its ok, its like I need to do it so I can feel anything besides numb. I feel numb yet feel everything. When I feel this way it’s a way of letting out things that I can’t. IT’s a way to relieve myself of the monster with in. Thats where the relief come in. I feel better knowing that I’m the one hurting myself so no one else can. They’ll find a way but if I”m all ready hurt they can’t make that big of impact….does that explain it alittle better?
a little better… does it help you talking about it?
what kind of things do you want to let out?
I wish I could stay longer to help but I really must be off to bed. I wish the best of luck for you and reassure you that if you try this will all work itself out in the end.
I want to fix things. My family, my brother, my mom. I guess to an extent I do blame myself for the way they act. If I wasn’t such a screw up things would be better, if I could just do things on my own they wouldn’t be like that, I’m a bother to most people. I really don’t care about myself I guess thats kind of obvious by the behavior thos huh?
tumble weed wrote:
a little better… does it help you talking about it?
absolulty it does at least a little!
Bret wrote:
I wish I could stay longer to help but I really must be off to bed. I wish the best of luck for you and reassure you that if you try this will all work itself out in the end.
Ok thank you! good night :)!
tumble weed wrote:
what kind of things do you want to let out?
mainly just emotions I guess. anger, frustration, pain, guilt, sorrow. I dunoo it soudns stupid to say it outloud but the more pain I feel the more I feel it actually made a difference……..wow, i must sound like a huge freak….sorry ;/
actually… this is more common than you think… don’t think of yourself as a freak
The world is messed up and people rely on a lot of things to keep them up, to keep them from exploding
we have different crutches
have you talked to your mum about these things?
SOrry it’s taken so long to respond my computer keeps messin up. It shoudl be ok now.
NO, I haven’t becasue she would freak out she has enough problems with out me puttin this on her. She thinks things are goin ok, which they are the majority of the time but right now they really aren’t. Its 2am now and I can’t wake her up to talk to her about it that would be silly. I dunno thanks for talkin with me.
how do you think you screw up?
it sounds like you need someone to talk to on a regular basis just to get things out, to bounce your thoughts off. Do you have any friends who you can freely talk to. I’d be more than happy to help you, but it might be better if you had someone to talk to face to face.
instead of cutting maybe you should find something less harmful like listing to music or doing a sport or something , that will shift ur head from cutting, or maybe going to the gym, like something you will enjoy doing…
everybody has issues but everybody see’s a break point different some cut some listen to music , some just cry , i think you need to find urself more healthy ways… you can come to this site if you want ^_^ this could be another break point which most ppl use here , when things get’s yoo much it’s always nice to talk about it and stuff , so next time you feel like cutting just come in and have chit chat :D …
tumble weed wrote:
it sounds like you need someone to talk to on a regular basis just to get things out, to bounce your thoughts off. Do you have any friends who you can freely talk to. I’d be more than happy to help you, but it might be better if you had someone to talk to face to face.
Yeah sometimes, theya re busy with there own stuff tho so it makes it hard to really get someone to talk to about these things ya know? Plus right now it’s so late everyone woudl be sleeping…kinda rude to wake them up :)
I appreciate you helping me too…thank you!
tricky wrote:
instead of cutting maybe you should find something less harmful like listing to music or doing a sport or something , that will shift ur head from cutting, or maybe going to the gym, like something you will enjoy doing…
everybody has issues but everybody see’s a break point different some cut some listen to music , some just cry , i think you need to find urself more healthy ways… you can come to this site if you want ^_^ this could be another break point which most ppl use here , when things get’s yoo much it’s always nice to talk about it and stuff , so next time you feel like cutting just come in and have chit chat :D …
I know I’ve tried difffernt things but talking right now is the only thing I think that can take my mind off of it. The urges are to strong right now.
it’s all in ur head , you are in control, you can trick ur body just like you are doing now you just have to find this constant trick to keep tricking your body, the body is really dum :D lol
I added you as a friend. I have to go now since i have a helicopter to catch… :P but please keep talking… I wish i could stay… I’ll write back to you soon. Know that I’ll be thinking about what you said. Write down anything that comes to your head and I’ll try and sort throught it. :D Cheer up though. You have friends here.
i have to go as well :( i have a bus to catch ^_^ no helicopters here :P
tumble weed wrote:
I added you as a friend. I have to go now since i have a helicopter to catch… :P but please keep talking… I wish i could stay… I’ll write back to you soon. Know that I’ll be thinking about what you said. Write down anything that comes to your head and I’ll try and sort throught it. :D Cheer up though. You have friends here.
Ok thanks! Talk to ya later1 ;)
tricky wrote:
i have to go as well :( i have a bus to catch ^_^ no helicopters here :P
HAHAHAH thanks later! :)
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