Love help: I’ve been very depressed recently, I haven’t gone out the house since Tuesday (also as I’ve been ill with the flu). - Help.com

I’ve been very depressed recently, I haven’t gone out the house since Tuesday (also as I’ve been ill with the flu).

I have clinical depression and my boyfriend has always been very supportive as I met him in treatment and understand eachother in that way. We have been together for a long time and I thought our love for eachother was indisputable, he’s 26 and he told me I was the one - and after an accident and a negative pregnancy test he was disappointed and we decided we wanted to have a child in a year or two. All his words ever were was ‘you’re the one, I love you to the core’.

Yesterday I woke up next to him and he said ‘I want a week apart, no talking - I love you and want to be with you but I need some time to myself’ we live together but technically its his flat so I had to go, I was confused and upset and annoyed it was such short notice and had to find somewhere to go. I was perhaps not as gracious in going as I could have been and he just went ‘I don’t think we should be together, I love you so much but I don’t think we should be together’ We’ve argued obviously in the past but our love is so strong, he has never said anything like that before. But as soon as he said it he said he didn’t mean it and that he just needed this week apart. Even though he only threatened it for a second, he has never done it before.

I agreed as there wasn’t a lot else I could do. But was very confused and I feel very vunerable. We then made love as he wanted to show me how much ‘he’s in love with me and is willing to make the relationship work’. I’m now at my aunts so confused, paranoid that he’ll decide he doesn’t want to be with me anymore. I feel so much pain, I’ve supported him so much - he’s an alcholic with an anxiety disorder and depression and I accepted and loved all of him, I want him to have my children someday, he says not to worry and at the end of the week he’ll have missed me like hell and he just wants tosee the woods from the trees.

He text me last night saying how special I am to him, and that it’s me and him and we make sense, we just need to work a it, but he’s dedicated to trying. I would usually feel secure with that, but he threatened leaving me, even if it was for a second. I’m so paranoid by the end of the week he’ll have decided he doesn’t want to be with me anymore - even though he says there’s no way it’s going to happen. But I feel sick with pain lonliness and fear.

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