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addicting?! Why do I want to cut myself? Why do I like to watch myself bleed? Why am I always thinking about killing myself even tho I don’t think i’d actually do it? What draws me to the bottle of pills in my purse? Why is it soooo tempting to take the entire bottle? Why do I never want to wake up again? I must be just that f’ed up huh?

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 minute after post)

Humans are on self destruct in my opinion. We’ve had our go and we failed.

Despite that you should just stay alive and have as much fun as possible.

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (4 minutes after post)

Well you seem to have self hatred, do you hate yourself? If so why?

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girl-statica offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (6 minutes after post)

I guess you could say that. I don’t care about myself at all really. Its hard to say why i don’t. Its like nothing I do matters. Like not if I live/die/fight/cry/laugh nothing. I dunno does that make sence?

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (9 minutes after post)

how old are you if you dont mind?

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (9 minutes after post)

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (10 minutes after post)

do you live with anyone? Family or loved one? Are you in school? Or do you work?

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girl-statica offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (12 minutes after post)

Yeah I recently had to move back in with my mom and them, I’m not in school right now next semester I start and yeah I have a job

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (16 minutes after post)

Ok so you have a life outside your house, you have a family, what do you think the appeal is that takes you to that dark place?

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girl-statica offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (46 minutes after post)

I don’t know its complicated. I guess when it comes down to it I’m not happy. I’ve been tryin to ask myself what would make me happy and frankly I have no idea! nothing does anymore. Nothing makes sence it’s like I”m living in a dream and watching everyone around me living but for some reason I can’t myself…i dunno.

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (49 minutes after post)

I feel you should see your doctor, and explain what you just did to me. I am pretty sure you have some depression, there is meds that will stabilize the chemical imbalance. It does work, please speak to your doc about your dark feelings.

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (52 minutes after post)

I have been. I’ve been talking to a therapist and taking medication for this. Sometimes everything ok not fine but ok. Today isn’t one of those days however. I feel like nothings helping. Maybe I’m beyond help,thats the way it feels anyway.

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (55 minutes after post)

Chemicals flucuate you may be in a down swing. This happens to everyone. Most of us are able to regulate naturaly and feel better in a week or two. Feeling like that for more is real depression.

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (57 minutes after post)

Please be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars. In the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (59 minutes after post)

I’ve been like that for like 8 months or so. The past few have been the worst tho. More thoughts of bad things, more hurtful actions to myself…I’m sorry

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 3 minutes after post)

You must know that you are here because of love in the first place. We all were made from love. All of us have despare, pain and hurt. 8 months is a long time to feel like you do. Please change doctors, second opinion. Life is worth a second opinion

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 7 minutes after post)

I have invited a few friends, that may have some insight to help

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 9 minutes after post)

libragirl12 wrote:
You must know that you are here because of love in the first place. We all were made from love. All of us have despare, pain and hurt. 8 months is a long time to feel like you do. Please change doctors, second opinion. Life is worth a second opinion

You might be right. I don’t know what to do. How to go about it. Ahhhh I’m just fed up with feeling this way and it’s taken away basically all my energy from me. I’m not the person I use to be. I know that. I want to cut myself right now again….I’m sorry

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 12 minutes after post)

That will do nothing, and you know it. That is something people do because they don’t know what else to do. You should not hurt your physical self because your emotional self is disconected.

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 13 minutes after post)

Do something else, walk away, take a walk. Do anything that will take your focus away from yourself.

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 14 minutes after post)

I can’t everything is goin down here and I can’t get away from the hell that is here. I’m soooooooooo fed up with everything. I want to kill myself right now! I’m sorry this is probably really dramatic but I’m I can’t take it anymore:/ ahhhhhhhhh

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 16 minutes after post)

The worst thing you can do is look for ways to self destruct. You should look for other avenues to distract yourself from cutting.

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 18 minutes after post)

Hurting yourself with pills or sharp objects is never going to amount to anything good. I hate to state the obvious.

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 19 minutes after post)

I know that. It helps tho

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 19 minutes after post)

I bet there is something you like in life that is positive. I am sure your family is in the dark about your feelings. Talk to your family, they know you and I am sure they do love you

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 19 minutes after post)

15 years ago when I was at the edge of the abyss ready to jump I thought that it would be the best thing for everybody if I was not here any more. I am still here making silly jokes and being plain annoying to everybody.

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 20 minutes after post)

Maybe you need to get away from the things and people who make you feel like that?

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 21 minutes after post)

libragirl12 wrote:
I bet there is something you like in life that is positive. I am sure your family is in the dark about your feelings. Talk to your family, they know you and I am sure they do love you

They probably do. I dunno maybe…

littlenick wrote:
Maybe you need to get away from the things and people who make you feel like that?

Can’t no where else to go

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 22 minutes after post)

You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (2 hours, 6 minutes after post)

I can’t ****** take it anymore! I want to kill myself in fact I’ve all ready cut myself multiple times nothing bad but enough to help myself a little I know…

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (2 hours, 14 minutes after post)

I only know that you know that you have not helped yourself. You know what you need to do. self hurt is taking you nowhere. Please read the above replies and get help for your beautiful brused soul

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (2 hours, 22 minutes after post)

Believe Mas and the rest . . . when you stop cutting yourself, it will be like the guy who was hitting himself in the head with a hammer–because it felt so good when he stopped!

You need a solution . . . and not to make the problems you have worse.

By the way, we ALL have problems. Life is tough. The best way to get through life is with friends. You’ve already made some here!

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (2 hours, 28 minutes after post)

Libragirl has given you really good insight into your problem I would hope you listen , God Bless You.

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (2 hours, 45 minutes after post)

HI, you came here for help,that took courage and humility.Thats a good start.To keep up the cutting while trying to open your mind to possibilities is defeating.NOt failing ,just keeping yourself stuck where you are.No-one can keep you from reaching for the knife but YOU.Its about your decisions. Just like every time you cut your hurting yourself, everytime you dont do it you are becoming healthier.And when you expect too much of yourself you will only see it as failure and end up with guilt going round and round in the same circle.Like a dog chasing his own tail,it serves no purpose. If you want results you have to do the work.The answers to these question can only be found in you.you do the things you do for your own reasons and if you keep searching you will find them.I admire anyone who seeks self-knowledge it brings a happiness that cant be found from outside sources,it is your truth.Something no-one can take away from us.But these words are going to be useless to you if dont break the habits you have associated with the cutting. this involves thought habits.When you find yourself saying things like ‘i have to,i will feel better’;KNOW this is a lie b/c it is nothing more than temporary and it sounds like you want something permanent, your ready to put this to a stop once and for all. Great things come from desire,want.So ask yourself just how much do you want to beat this thing, ignore the thoughts that have been ruling you,controlling you and YOU take control .Be your own hero and save yourself ,be a overcomer,triumph, take a stand..I think you get my drift.

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (2 hours, 50 minutes after post)

I don’t think I’m capable of doing that. I’m sorry. If its up to me then I know I’m doomed. I’m just really fogged right now I don’t know…

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (2 hours, 51 minutes after post)

Thanks for all your advice guys a lot of what you said really makes me think about things a little differetnly:)

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (3 hours, 2 minutes after post)

Thanks:) I know your right Im just, I guess, still trying to figure it all out.

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Felicity offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (3 hours, 7 minutes after post)

Mas is right, I just left that part out,thats all.I apologize for just assuming you know how important support is and the wonders it can do.I for one can testify if it werent for the support of others I too would be stuck,to say the least.

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (3 hours, 10 minutes after post)

Mas 1st wrote:
It’s hard to think straight when you are as down as you sound. When are you next due to see a Therapist or Doctor? - Mas

Monday

{Felicity} wrote:
Mas is right, I just left that part out,thats all.I apologize for just assuming you know how important support is and the wonders it can do.I for one can testify if it werent for the support of others I too would be stuck,to say the least.

I really don’t have anyone tho. I told my friend and she freaked and so there are only like 3 people who truely know whats goin on with me. They seem like when I talk to them about this they are 100% zoned on anything and everything else besides what I’m sayin. I know it must be hard having me as a friend and all but I DONT have anyone to talk to….the only person that will truely listen to me I have to pay for..it just doesn’t seem right.

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (3 hours, 22 minutes after post)

No I haven’t what are they I might want to check them out! Thanks:)

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Felicity offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (3 hours, 34 minutes after post)

Dailystrength is one.Im there as kimkriss if your interested.I’m not in that group but we could still be friends. And speaking of friends,When people avoid the subject of cutting it is not directed to you so dont take it personally. They are just uninformed ,scared and dont know what to say so most will just avoid it all together.But it makes me wonder if part of that is your negative thinking.When someone is down all the time it brings others down.We live in a world where we should lift each other up and encourage each other and when your not happy its hard to do that,be there for others as the main requirement for relationships. I hope that makes sense. This doesnt mean we should not talk and keep reaching out for help etc,.. not at all, its a fact that people need people to lean on,share etc…

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (3 hours, 41 minutes after post)

Thanks Felicity I’ll check that out! I don’t want to bring anyone else down with me and I do see that happening. I don’t wish this on anyone it hurts so bad. I don’t want to see people hurting, yaknow? Thank you:)

Thanks Mas too I’m checking those sites out now! Thanks!:)

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 4 weeks ago (4 hours, 6 minutes after post)

Another thing is the hardest feeling to deal with is anger .Find it ,face it,use physical activity and journaling to deal with it, and control it.

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