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I just did it again, Why?

I just cut myself. I’m ashamed of myself. I tried to resist but that didn’t happen. This time it was worse then it ever has been before! Why am I like this?! I wish I’d just fade away..

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I just did it, Why?
I just cut myself. I’m ashamed of myself. I tried to resist but that didn’t happen. This time it was worse then it ever has been before! Why am I like this?! I wish I’d just fade away..

Neutra offline Verified User (4 years, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 5 months ago (1 minute after post)

Instead of slicing yourself, damaging your body which won’t help you improve, why don’t you work in the areas that you feel you can do better, which uses your time wisely.

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Leslie63 offline Verified User (5 years, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Weston, MA, US | 4 years, 5 months ago (3 minutes after post)

you need to try a little harder its hard but here look at this website its helped me http://www.selfinjury.org/docs/factsh…

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4 years, 5 months ago (6 minutes after post)

Thanks leslie, I know that I need to try harder. I’m just so frustrated with myself because everything was ok earlier and then I couldn’t fight it anymore. I want to stop but I can’t. No one knows about this. They can’t know. It would hurt them I know it would. Its something that makes me feel better and right now its the only thing that does i dunno…

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Leslie63 offline Verified User (5 years, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Weston, MA, US | 4 years, 5 months ago (10 minutes after post)

but then it rips you apart. is it worth feeling better for a minute or two if itsjust going to cause you pain and regret later. you need to break out of this addictive cycle of feeling bad, cutting, feeling guilty and ashamed, hating youself, cutting again, and repeat. tell someone you can trust and love. how old are you?

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4 years, 5 months ago (13 minutes after post)

I don’t know I guess it’s better then feeling like crap my entire life. I do want to kill myself sometime, I wish I could at times but I’m to scared. I’d probably mess it up and fail at that too…later I do regret it but I’m beyond that now. I guess I”m numb

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Leslie63 offline Verified User (5 years, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Weston, MA, US | 4 years, 5 months ago (23 minutes after post)

cutting numbs you thats why. i didnt realize i was numb till after i stopped. i thought i was just angry and sad all the time but i really was numb its even hard to remember those last two years its all blurryness.

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Frogger offline Verified User (4 years, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 6 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 4 months ago (4 weeks after post)

I cut myself a couple of years ago.
I wanted to be able to feel the physcial pain instead of the real pain inside me. It felt better and more numbing than anything else. It felt like it did good.
But it really didn’t.
Things that feel good doesn’t have to be good.
I didn’t want to have to depend on cutting myself to feel consolation.
It shouldn’t have to be like that.
Think about being in control of yourself instead.
You will be much stronger if you resist, even if it feels like cutting is the only thing you want. You CAN resist it.
There are so many other ways to take control of your life.
Try to understand why you feel like you have to cut yourself first.
Cutting doesn’t resolve ANYTHING. It only helps you feel better for a while. Like cigaretts. Totally unnecessary, just an addiction, a weakness you can’t resist.
It seems like you want to stop it since you feel really bad about it. So there is hope!! You just have to be a little stronger next time. Please try to be stronger!
Don’t hurt yourself.

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