I can’t take it anymore.
The constant bull **** thats plaging my mind set me off. I can’t contol anything anymore. Maybe thats why I keep cutting myself. I want to die. I never thought I would ever truely think about it until I formed a plan. I can see myself doing it. This has to end…how can it? I have no idea..
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I need help!
I can’t take it anymore. The constant bull **** thats plaging my mind set me off. I can’t contol anything anymore. Maybe thats why I keep cutting myself. I want to die. I never thought I would ever truely think about it until I formed a plan. I can see myself doing it. This has to end…how can it? I have no idea..
you must tell someone its the only escape
Do not take the easy way out.
You can do it if you really try. I know that sounds cheesy, but it’s true.
Be brave, seek help and do your best to change the course of your life.
We all want great lives but it’s upto us to make that happen.
Everyone wants a happy ending in their life. Make a happy ending for your life. A kind of ending where you feel content, happy and know that you’ve lived life to the fullest.
You were born to live life. Don’t cut it short.
Leslie63 wrote:
you must tell someone its the only escape
I don’t know who to tell. I’ve talked to a therapist but she doesn’t understand it all. No one does. I cant do it anymore…I’m done.
mahal7_ wrote:
Do not take the easy way out.
You can do it if you really try. I know that sounds cheesy, but it’s true.Be brave, seek help and do your best to change the course of your life.
We all want great lives but it’s upto us to make that happen.
Everyone wants a happy ending in their life. Make a happy ending for your life. A kind of ending where you feel content, happy and know that you’ve lived life to the fullest.
You were born to live life. Don’t cut it short.
I don’t know how to be happy I know I should but I don’t know what the heck to do about it. I’m so confused right now I don’t know anything.
Everyone goes through hardships in their lives, some worse than others.
These hardships come into your life to help make you into a better and stronger person.
Don’t give up, there’s a lot of people who care about you.
Maybe you need a vacation right now. To get away from things. It doesn’t have to be an expensive trip to the caribbean or something, but just take a break from your life so you can relax and refresh your mind. You’re feeling overwhelmed right now. I’ve felt the same way hundreds of times.
i can understand how a therapist might not understand do you have a close friend you can confide in i have one friend that is amazing i cant live without her shes my backbone
Leslie63 wrote:
i can understand how a therapist might not understand do you have a close friend you can confide in i have one friend that is amazing i cant live without her shes my backbone
yes, that’s important too.
You don’t have to have someone who truly understands you, just someone who will listen. It makes a big difference to let it out. Don’t keep it in - it’ll be bad for you and your health
mahal7_ wrote:
Everyone goes through hardships in their lives, some worse than others.
These hardships come into your life to help make you into a better and stronger person.
Don’t give up, there’s a lot of people who care about you.Maybe you need a vacation right now. To get away from things. It doesn’t have to be an expensive trip to the caribbean or something, but just take a break from your life so you can relax and refresh your mind. You’re feeling overwhelmed right now. I’ve felt the same way hundreds of times.
Its the constant overwhelming feelings that are my problem the come to me in the blink of an eye but never leave that quickly. I would love to go on a vacation, a friend and I were going to go to Canada but I don’t see that happening in the near future any time soon..
Leslie63 wrote:
i can understand how a therapist might not understand do you have a close friend you can confide in i have one friend that is amazing i cant live without her shes my backbone
I told a friend about it and she kinda freaked. She’s mad at me for doing it but understands more so then the therapist actually. I don’t want to bother her with this because the way I’m feeling I need someone around me like 24/7. Things just get that out of control I can’t deal with it anymore and want to do something extream….I don’t know if I’ll ever be ok again. I’m not the same person I was and I hate that idea.
morethenagirl wrote:
mahal7_ wrote:Its the constant overwhelming feelings that are my problem the come to me in the blink of an eye but never leave that quickly. I would love to go on a vacation, a friend and I were going to go to Canada but I don’t see that happening in the near future any time soon..
Everyone goes through hardships in their lives, some worse than others.These hardships come into your life to help make you into a better and stronger person.Don’t give up, there’s a lot of people who care about you.Maybe you need a vacation right now. To get away from things. It doesn’t have to be an expensive trip to the caribbean or something, but just take a break from your life so you can relax and refresh your mind. You’re feeling overwhelmed right now. I’ve felt the same way hundreds of times.
Then set this as a goal for yourself. Actually, set life goals and aspirations for yourself - it’ll help give you a sense of direction and want. It’ll also help push you to be stronger and persevere through hard times.
Write a life goal list for yourself, such as (going to Europe, adopting an underprivileged child, getting a dog, etc.)
morethenagirl wrote:
Leslie63 wrote:I told a friend about it and she kinda freaked. She’s mad at me for doing it but understands more so then the therapist actually. I don’t want to bother her with this because the way I’m feeling I need someone around me like 24/7. Things just get that out of control I can’t deal with it anymore and want to do something extream….I don’t know if I’ll ever be ok again. I’m not the same person I was and I hate that idea.
i can understand how a therapist might not understand do you have a close friend you can confide in i have one friend that is amazing i cant live without her shes my backbone
Actually, this is quite normal. You are NOT supposed to be the same person.
Life gives us all kinds of situations that teach us and change us. It’s upto us if we want to change for the better or for the worse.
No one stays the same because a person who never changes never learns anything.
I could do that but honestly I don’t know if that will help me. My therapist says the same thing to set goals. I set them but that doesn’t get me through the day. What gets me through the day is cutting myself. Sounds super lame but thats the way it is I guess. I have a list of goals but right now the things on it WERE important to me but nothing really is anymore. Now the list is just a list with numbers…I dunno I don’t mean to be so negative I’m sorry.
You can take this difficult situation you’re in, and fight it. Fight for your happiness. Happiness is not something that is just given to you. You have to work for it.
I believe you can do it.
I’m not the same person becasue the old me was happy. I’m not. I know life throw us curves but I feel I’m done with life for now.
mahal7_ wrote:
You can take this difficult situation you’re in, and fight it. Fight for your happiness. Happiness is not something that is just given to you. You have to work for it.I believe you can do it.
I hope your right…
morethenagirl wrote:
I could do that but honestly I don’t know if that will help me. My therapist says the same thing to set goals. I set them but that doesn’t get me through the day. What gets me through the day is cutting myself. Sounds super lame but thats the way it is I guess. I have a list of goals but right now the things on it WERE important to me but nothing really is anymore. Now the list is just a list with numbers…I dunno I don’t mean to be so negative I’m sorry.
I understand. Don’t be sorry. I know what you’re going through because I too, have slashed myself when I attempted suicide.
But what will you gain from cutting yourself? You should ask if what you’re doing is helping you in a positive way. You do not want to feel like this forever, I’m sure, so you need to take steps to change it. Just take some little steps.
dont worry you havent changed you have just lost yourself temporarliy the real you is down there deep down buried underneath all your pain and once you can get your life back on track she will come back she will just be stronger then she was before.
Whenever you feel depressed or overwhelmed, get out of the house. Take a walk. Call your friend. Watch a funny movie. Occupy yourself. You have to fight that feeling because if you don’t, it will swallow you up and destroy you, emotionally and physically.
I believe you can do it because I believe anyone can do it. Help yourself. No one can help you but you alone. There will always be people, even strangers like me, who care for you.
Good luck and Godspeed
mahal7_ wrote:
morethenagirl wrote:
I could do that but honestly I don’t know if that will help me. My therapist says the same thing to set goals. I set them but that doesn’t get me through the day. What gets me through the day is cutting myself. Sounds super lame but thats the way it is I guess. I have a list of goals but right now the things on it WERE important to me but nothing really is anymore. Now the list is just a list with numbers…I dunno I don’t mean to be so negative I’m sorry.I understand. Don’t be sorry. I know what you’re going through because I too, have slashed myself when I attempted suicide.
But what will you gain from cutting yourself? You should ask if what you’re doing is helping you in a positive way. You do not want to feel like this forever, I’m sure, so you need to take steps to change it. Just take some little steps.
Right now yeah I FEEL it’s being positve even thought I KNOW its not. In the long run I know it will never help me fully. Right now its the only thing I have.
Leslie63 wrote:
dont worry you havent changed you have just lost yourself temporarliy the real you is down there deep down buried underneath all your pain and once you can get your life back on track she will come back she will just be stronger then she was before.
Thanks. I hope so:)
mahal7_ wrote:
Whenever you feel depressed or overwhelmed, get out of the house. Take a walk. Call your friend. Watch a funny movie. Occupy yourself. You have to fight that feeling because if you don’t, it will swallow you up and destroy you, emotionally and physically.I believe you can do it because I believe anyone can do it. Help yourself. No one can help you but you alone. There will always be people, even strangers like me, who care for you.Good luck and Godspeed
Thats what I’m afraid of…no one can help me. I can’t do this alone becasue I’m not that type of person. I’m not strong, I’m not motivated, I am letting this destroy me and can’t do a single thiing about it. Just sit back and let it go. It’s like I’m paralyzed and can’t get away from it.
morethenagirl wrote:
Thats what I’m afraid of…no one can help me. I can’t do this alone becasue I’m not that type of person. I’m not strong, I’m not motivated, I am letting this destroy me and can’t do a single thiing about it. Just sit back and let it go. It’s like I’m paralyzed and can’t get away from it.
YES YOU CAN.
You are not paralyzed or helpless. You can lift yourself up and fight.
I know some people who have gone through absolutely horrible times, suffered, fell apart but got through it. And they came out stronger, wiser and more fulfilled.
You can do it too.
Don’t say that. Believe you can. Have faith in yourself. Build yourself up.
You’re stronger than you think. And think of all the things you’ll miss if you’re dead!
You might find your soulmate next year! Get married and have kids! You might win the lottery! You might tour the world! Life is wonderful. Go out and enjoy it.
I feel the same way, I thought I knew what depression was but I just lost a beautful girlfreind my job and am struggling with my education. I too am alone no one to love. I tell you if you let that pain continue it gets stuck in your heart, I stayed in an abusive relationship just to fill the gap of isolation and in the process I have a permanate cutting feeling in my chest weather I think about sad things or not. I try not to loss hope I think that life can still be beutiful, and thats about all that holds me toghter hope. Maybe we can hope toghter
That’s a very good attitude, Scottriley.
Yes, hope is what can push us to be stronger.
Hope for a better situation….
Never lose hope.
Scottriley wrote:
I feel the same way, I thought I knew what depression was but I just lost a beautful girlfreind my job and am struggling with my education. I too am alone no one to love. I tell you if you let that pain continue it gets stuck in your heart, I stayed in an abusive relationship just to fill the gap of isolation and in the process I have a permanate cutting feeling in my chest weather I think about sad things or not. I try not to loss hope I think that life can still be beutiful, and thats about all that holds me toghter hope. Maybe we can hope toghter
I’m sorry all that happened scott thanks for sharing that with me. :)
mahal7_ wrote:
That’s a very good attitude, Scottriley.Yes, hope is what can push us to be stronger.Hope for a better situation….Never lose hope.
I haven’t lost it completley but is sure is hard to see
There is a buddism practise that used to help me. It teachs to breath in all your distress and hurt (heavy and dark) but breath it in not just for you but for all the people in the world that suffers as you suffer and breath out relief calmness think light blue white light. Have you tried meditation?
I used to date a cutter three or four years ago I think she used that to escape or to call out I loved her dearly. I’m not sure where she is now but she left me for another and she became happy. Don’t give up, she to had suicidal feelings I thank god she didn’t go through with it because I would have never had her in my life.
Thank you:) I’ll try. I guess right now I”m just gunna wait it out..I dunno. Thanks for everything! Maybe tomorrow will be different..:)
My thoughts are with you, thanks for hearing me out to. Be strong, I send to you what love I have, goodnight.
i know how you feel. i have drawn out my death before, made a plan, and the only thing that kept me alive was ‘what if everything got better? what if i end up happy after years of crap?’ i still deal with cutting and depression, but i am still holding out for that day.
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