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somedays i just feel depressed…

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i dont know what to do.
and i keep putting pressure on myself until i crack, because i want to escape this school i go to and go to a private school. hopefully i can get it, i cant take it at my high school anymore (btw im 15). im in all honors classes and i was planning to study hard and get good grades but this first quarter they ranged from a C+ to A+ and those bad grades bring me way down both academically and esteem-wise.
i cant write a good essay for my freakin life. ive never had a boyfriend. im STILL hung up on a crush from a year ago lol maybe he just broke my heart because i feel as if he liked me back, he sure acted like it. im losing friends and i HATE it but i dont know what to do. i feel as if im being left behind, or just forgotten..

life suckss.

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morethenagirl offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (7 minutes after post)

I’m sorry hun maybe you should take a step back for a while. Try to NOT try so hard lol Sometimes we get so caught up in trying to do something we do the opposite. Why do you want to leave yours school so bad?

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kc335 offline Verified User (2 years, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Boston, MA, US | 12 months ago (12 minutes after post)

but i dont even try that hard because i get discouraged.

why? well its a public school, regional, few thousand kids, and i feel like im being dumbed down. idk. it drives me crazy how we mostly have 3rd rate teachers though some are good dont get me wrong. i have friends but i dont feel that close to any of them. i tend to hide inside myself (?) but i can be outgoing and make others laugh and……. haha idk im just a whole big mess of everything

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morethenagirl offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (29 minutes after post)

LOL no your not. It sounds like your a smart girl and want to learn! Thats awesome use that brain! :) YOu have the potential to do it so try harder. I know how hiding might seem like the right thing to do but maybe thats whats holding you back. Be yourself and let other people see it then maybe things will turn around for you! GOod luck hun! xoxo

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kc335 offline Verified User (2 years, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Boston, MA, US | 12 months ago (32 minutes after post)

well of course i know hiding isnt the way to get noticed =] but i dont really WANT to be myself because im always sulking on the inside about something but i try not to show it ever. & that just makes me go more crazy.
is it weird that when i feel really sad its as if sorrow is being dumped into my heart & bloodstream? because it literally feels that way ha its weird though

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An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (38 minutes after post)

I can relate with depression, but don’t get hung up on grades. you can always go to a community college and transfer to a better one later.
As for the depression, i have been there. Losing friends, hiding, it sucks. I still struggle with that.

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kc335 offline Verified User (2 years, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Boston, MA, US | 12 months ago (43 minutes after post)

community college???? im really sorry but i NEVER plan to go to one. sure its cheap but, no. im not thatt bad in school or anything.

so how old are you then? doesnt it ever go away? =[

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An Unknown Location | 12 months ago (52 minutes after post)

16, but i’ve had it since elementary school. i can’t talk to my parents to get counseling because my depression stems from bisexuality and many other complicated things like my recent homeschooling. (my parents hate homosexuals)
if you do community college during the summer (its usually free for juniors and seniors) it will really help on applications.

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