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im dealing with the same thing, and i need someone too. is there anything in your life now you think might be making you feel this way?

Most definatly tons of things I couldn’t even name them all. My head is swirling every which way ahhh soo hard to deal with!

I’m sorry you feel this way too. It isn’t something good to feel like.

I,ve felt that way too… mine was a girl leaving. can you name one of yours

My family. I just had to make a statement to a cop. My step dad called the police on my younger brother. He said that my brother hit him which he totally didn’t! There is always bull crap goin on here and I can’t take it anymore!

me too. depression, bisexuality, and now homeschool because i got kicked out of my school for drugs, and can’t talk to my parents because my problems started with bisexuality and they hate homosexuals.

it sounds like the enviroment is what you need to get rid of not yourself

I’m sorry you have anyone else to talk to about that? Parents can be pretty mean some times.

justchecking74 wrote:
it sounds like the enviroment is what you need to get rid of not yourself

I have no where else to go! This was my last place to go and I can’t afford to leave. The money just isn’t here

i’m livin with the parents too. just got rid of a drug habit about eight months ago but still in debt. what’s your story

Good for you kickin a habit!:D

Well, long story in a nutshell. Was forced to move in with my mom, hate it, had to drop out of school, the only people around me that cared about me died and I’m seeing a therapist who wants me commited for being suicidal…

high school or college? You have a few friends lift right?

left instead of lift

collge. yeah I do have friends but theyd on’t understand whats goin on. they don’t want to hear abou it really

could you stay with one of them till you figure things out? you would have less distractions

not really. There really isn’t any room for me where they live

It is easy to think about ending everything because everything but death seems negative to people like us (who have depression) and it is hard to pull up and out from those thoughts and PUSH ourselves to face what we need to in order to banish those thoughts. It just feels better and easier to hide and death is a form of hiding and running away from it all.

Your right. Maybe thats why its so inticing

tomorrow, i am forcing myself to “show my face” back at school even though I am too embarassed to because of not having turned in a single assignment all quarter. I just decided that i do not want to be a coward and fail my class because of it. i mean, I may still fail the class (knock on wood), but at least I came, tried, and showed my face. I just no longer care what people think and have to go with doing my best. If it is not good for others or my parents, then F*** them! ya know?

Good do it for yourself not other people! Goooo jackie!:0)

JackieMa wrote:
tomorrow, i am forcing myself to “show my face” back at school even though I am too embarassed to because of not having turned in a single assignment all quarter. I just decided that i do not want to be a coward and fail my class because of it. i mean, I may still fail the class (knock on wood), but at least I came, tried, and showed my face. I just no longer care what people think and have to go with doing my best. If it is not good for others or my parents, then F*** them! ya know?

if you haven’t turned in an assignment how did you try?

Yea. I have been failing classes for a year or so at college. not because I do not like what i am doing, but because since 2006 I have been dealing with my mom and cancer. I was TOTALLY focused at the school and getting decent o good grades before the news of my mom’s cancer, but after that, it was just one thing after another with my mother, grandmother, loosing a best friend of 10 years for a really stupid reason…I just learnt to take care of my mom, and then others, and lost focus on me. It is taking me FOREVER to remember how it felt to be “selfish” and get what I need done you know?

Now, I may be too late in helping save myself, in the school respect. This is my last chance at the school to pass all my classes before they kick me out for good. Last quarter I was kicked out but my parents got involved in my situation and helped talk to the people at my school and said they could only give me one more shot at it.

JustCheckin…I have “tried” by not letting myself stop showing up to class and turning in nothing. I have stuff to turn in and will even though it is extremely late. I basically would rather try to salvage these last few weeks and make an attempt at getting by this quarter rather than just give up. That is what i mean by I have tried. Hopefully, that answers your question.

Annyomous…PLEASE…dont be so sad and do not be afraid to let yourself think positively! I know, i really truelly know hwo hard it is to do, because I have the same problem as you. But think about the one thing that makes you feel the way you do and think about how mad it makes you.

thats what i have done with this situation i am facing tomorrow. i am sooo mad that i let my feel or embarassment and shame keep me from teh one thing i LOVE! As well as FINISHING the work for the one thing I love, making clothes! It is an art and theraputic for me you know?! I WANT this! But I am so accustom to helping others and doing for others that I forgot what I need! What helps ME get through life. Helping so many others and not myself has put me into my depressive state.

Thanks Jakie good luck to you tomorrow! Do what you love and get it done right! :)