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I’m sorry…

The other day I said I was leaving all together. I know I haven’t been on here for very long but…IDK. I tried to kill myself that day and just really need to get some things off my chest. I”m still a mess but its complicated…

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Bogdan (Gone) offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (2 minutes after post)

What’s up? I am listening.

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (6 minutes after post)

I don’t even know where to begin…everything now is soooo much more complicated then before!

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Bogdan (Gone) offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (8 minutes after post)

Start at the beginning, I have all night.

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (10 minutes after post)

Well, the other day just got way to overwhelming. I don’t even know what happened myself that day. It’s all a blurr now…I just couldn’t take things, the way anything was turning out so I decided that today was the day I guess and thats when it happened.

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Bogdan (Gone) offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (12 minutes after post)

I understand. I was close to killing myself this morning because of an overload of things.

Was it large things not turning out, or all the little things?

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (13 minutes after post)

I’m sorry. I can relate to the feeling.

Just everything. Couldn’t take it anymore.

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Bogdan (Gone) offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (14 minutes after post)

I totally understand. Are things getting better now, worse, or about the same?

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Neutra offline Verified User (1 year, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 19 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (15 minutes after post)

Maybe all you needed was just to say what was on your mind to help you feel better.

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (15 minutes after post)

Much worse…

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (17 minutes after post)

Neutra wrote:
Maybe all you needed was just to say what was on your mind to help you feel better.

Right now I’m just a mess. My sister absolutely hates me now. She wont even talk to me. My parents are a ****** up mess always getting really quiet when I come around and being super nice to me. I know they are being fake with me. I dunno…why couldn’t it of worked!?!?!

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Bogdan (Gone) offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (19 minutes after post)

*hug*
You are here for a reason, of that there is no doubt. There is always someone to whom you mean the world.

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aliciastrou offline Verified User (11 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (21 minutes after post)

rember one thing you have value you have real value, and no matter what in your life seems like a mess you need to relax and not worry about the things you can change cause you can chage them and dont worry about the things you cant because you cant… also when ever your being attacted emotionall rember there is light after dark.. the sun rises after it falls.. there is always somthing to look forward to.. search within yourself only you can heal you, hopefully ive helped a lil.. i speak from experince and had i ended life i would have missed out on some really amazing things.. so relax and dont stress

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (21 minutes after post)

I still doubt it. Now I have to have my medication locked up and they’re hidding all the sharp objects from me. I’m like a prisoner now under lock and key. Someone has to be with me at all times. That was the deal to get me out of the hospital early…..why!

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (23 minutes after post)

aliciastrou wrote:
rember one thing you have value you have real value, and no matter what in your life seems like a mess you need to relax and not worry about the things you can change cause you can chage them and dont worry about the things you cant because you cant… also when ever your being attacted emotionall rember there is light after dark.. the sun rises after it falls.. there is always somthing to look forward to.. search within yourself only you can heal you, hopefully ive helped a lil.. i speak from experince and had i ended life i would have missed out on some really amazing things.. so relax and dont stress

Thank you:) you have helped

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Neutra offline Verified User (1 year, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 19 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (24 minutes after post)

Just work your situations out one at a time, tackle the ones that seem more important. Try to find solutions and find several different solutions to solve them.

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (25 minutes after post)

I don’t even know where to start! I just got out of the hospital today and things are just totally kicking my butt. If things keep up this way I don’t think..idunno

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (26 minutes after post)

im sending warm thoughts and hugs your way…

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (26 minutes after post)

Thanks xox

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (30 minutes after post)

I’m just reminded alway of what I did…it hurts even worse now then it did before. My family is falling apart because of me…it sucks to know that.

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aliciastrou offline Verified User (11 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (32 minutes after post)

your so welcome.. :0)

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (36 minutes after post)

What the hekc am I gunna do?!?!?!?! I want to scream and yell and cut my wrists and grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

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Bogdan (Gone) offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (37 minutes after post)

Please don’t hurt yourself. You are going to have to sort this out.

If you know the root causes, tell us so we can help mend them for you.

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (44 minutes after post)

Thats just it. Its all burried deep down now. I need my sister to be here for me the most. How can i get her to talk to me? SHe hates my guts.

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Bogdan (Gone) offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (45 minutes after post)

Ask her to talk to you. Tell her you need to talk to her and that you need her help to get better.

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (46 minutes after post)

She won’t even be in the same room as I am…with out her I have nothing really. My friends aren’t allowed to come over yet and I don’t know what I”m gunna do about school yet either :/

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Bogdan (Gone) offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (47 minutes after post)

Leave her a note if you can, or ask her parents to ask her for you.

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (48 minutes after post)

I could try that. I doubt if she’d even read it knowing it came from me tho. Why did this happen?!?

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Bogdan (Gone) offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (51 minutes after post)

Things happen, and sometimes we cant tell why. All we can do is try our hardest to overcome what we have been dealt with.

So what about asking your parents to ask her to talk to you? Could that work?

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (52 minutes after post)

Doubtful, the way they act they don’t want her near me either. They don’t want her to catch the “crazy” it seems. Shes the older dream child. They have completley given up on me.

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Bogdan (Gone) offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (54 minutes after post)

You can still try and tell your parents, cant you? Let them know that it would help you a lot to talk to her.

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (54 minutes after post)

They aren’t that supportive. Wouldn’t understand really.

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Bogdan (Gone) offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (56 minutes after post)

That is really tough. have they never been through something like this themselves?

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (57 minutes after post)

I don’t think so

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Bogdan (Gone) offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (57 minutes after post)

Want me to talk to them for you?

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (58 minutes after post)

hahaha no thats ok. They would flip out if they knew I was still talking to people online…..they think thats why I did it…and boy are they far off ahhahahha

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (58 minutes after post)

thanks for offering tho:)

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Bogdan (Gone) offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour after post)

No worries. If there is anything I can do for you, just ask.

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 1 minute after post)

OK, thanks I really appreciate it:) Things will be better. Maybe once My brother gets home things will be differtn i dunno….i gottat go tho thanks for talkin with me i’m goin to bed! good night xoxo

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Bogdan (Gone) offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 2 minutes after post)

Good night, sleep well, keep safe and have pleasant dreams.

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 6 minutes after post)

Thanks bogdan:) good night xoxoxoxox

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 7 minutes after post)

good night sweet girl… talk to you tomorrow

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 8 minutes after post)

OK, good night hun! sleep tight:)

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aliciastrou offline Verified User (11 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 9 minutes after post)

dont let the bed bugs bite… and if they do bite them back…lol….

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An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 9 minutes after post)

Hahah LMFAO will do!

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 11 minutes after post)

ha hahaha i better catch some zzz 2..lol…

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Chicago, IL, US | 11 months, 2 weeks ago (1 week, 2 days after post)

I hope this is not too late but, you have your dreams and goals to fulfill do not kill yourself:

http://www.lesbrown.com/million_dolla…

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An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 1 week after post)

wow, this like me in 2007! i couldnt take life any more and tried to kill my self 3 times but i didnt becuase i realised what it would do to my family and my friends! then i got help! if you wanted to kill youre self then you NEED to get HELP! its not good to hold things in trust me i held it it in for so long i stoped talking altogether! and im still not as good as i could have been if i got help sooner! getting help is the best solution! i dont know who to suggest becuse i live in a different country but tell your familly and im sure they will help you out some more!

i hope you feel better soon

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 2 weeks after post)

Hey! Thanks for responding. Things are sooo much better now then when I posted this. Things have definetly turned around there are still times where I”m a complete mess of a person but they are getting farther and farther inbetween. I am getting help I’m talking to a pscharist and a therapist AND a doctor LOL sooo things are getting there. Slowly but surely they are I guess :) Thanks again! :)

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Chicago, IL, US | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 2 weeks after post)

gypsy-corner wrote:
Hey! Thanks for responding. Things are sooo much better now then when I posted this. Things have definetly turned around there are still times where I”m a complete mess of a person but they are getting farther and farther inbetween. I am getting help I’m talking to a pscharist and a therapist AND a doctor LOL sooo things are getting there. Slowly but surely they are I guess :) Thanks again! :)

Ok that’s good.

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 2 weeks after post)

I know!!!! Thiings are turning around, i guess you could say…there are still some things I have to get through but things don’t seem that dismal as they did. Thanks:P

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An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 2 weeks after post)

wow im glad to hear that. i know it takes a while but its works out in the end.

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 2 weeks after post)

Yeah! I’m tryin to be positve….its workin a little bit still have my ups and downs but things are getting there. I just hope and pray they stay there.:) Thanks how are you?

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An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 2 weeks after post)

im fine. thanks. life at home kinda sucks at the moment. but i’ll get througgh it. nothing im not used to and this time i kinda know what to do and not to bottle things up. lilfe gets really hard sometimes and it feels as though its out to get me because i’ve deffinately had my fair share (and more) of hard times and im only 13! but yeah im other wise fine!

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 2 weeks after post)

awww hun I know how you feel a little too well I guess….wanna talk about anything? I’m here if you do!

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An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 2 weeks after post)

well at the moment me and my brother are going through a custody battle with our dad after 11 years at our mums! only the thing is that im the type of person that hates to upset people and i’ve really upset mum i feel really, really bad and to top it all off dad mi9ght not even get us and then we’ll have to go back to mum and things will be soooooo awkward!!! plus my mums deaf so she cant hear me and i have to go back to councilling which i hate!!!! ahhh srry i no its alot but i guess thats just life!

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 2 weeks after post)

ohhh wow hun thats a rough situation to be dealing with at such a young age! Who would you rather live with? Your mom or dad? And what is the counciliing for?

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An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 2 weeks after post)

i wanna live with dad cos me and my mum have a huge reputation for arguing and because of that i will go to school with red eyes from crying in the car! the councilling is becuase even though im better i still get depressed and when i am i completely block out every one! i just wish it was easier if u no what i mean!

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 2 weeks after post)

awww hun yeah i do know what ya mean but that not a good thing to do! Can’t you just live with your dad regardless of what you’re mom says. I don’t know much about custody and all that but your 13 doesn’t that count for you to have a say so as to where you live at?

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An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 2 weeks after post)

yeha i guess thanks

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