I told my counselor today that I’ve been cutting my legs, and it was kind of a relief to tell someone, now my mom and everyone knows.
the problem is I still want to cut, so bad. Maybe if I cut my thighs or something, no one will notice. Just once. But I’m scared, because I know inside I’m lying to myself, that I’ll do it more. What if they know, or find out?? I don’t know what to do. I want to so bad.
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why is it so important to do it onemore time is it fun to you?
did your mom tell everyone? ouch. Ask her to respect your privacy. MAybe then you could have talked to her in the first place.
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why is it so important to do it onemore time is it fun to you?
No, it’s not. I’m not so sure why. It’s kind of like I feel..
Idk.
It’s so addicting.
I don’t know!
I have many scars On my left arm now and they never fade don’t make more you haveto live with them till you die
No, I kinda exxagerated. Not everyone knows. In fact, only 4 ppl know. my mom, who barely knows the details, but doesn’t care much. three friends, who don’t really care about it ((and it’s just bc they don’t know what to do)) and my nurse, and my counslor, ok that’s more like 6. But not my dad or brother.
But my nurse looked at my legs, and kinda made sure that when I see her tomorrow, there will be no new cuts. I don’t know what to do. I’m so..
Idk.
but it’s so bad, Like I need to!
It’s all I can think about. Please.
While I dont have any experience with any sort of addiction my advice would be to find a club or activity group or something for as many nights as possible to keep yourself busy constantly with something fun. Thats my two cents good luck, remember were all here for you.
justchecking74 wrote:
I have many scars On my left arm now and they never fade don’t make more you haveto live with them till you die
that is a good point a cutter is pretty easy to spot when you are aware of the problem. You don’t want to have to have the conversation about the scars with everyone you get close to in your life.
Yeah you would be suprised how many people notice… and how they think your crazy but my scars are old
You don’t really need to do this. It’s a compulsion. And the people you told do care and will find out if you do it again.
Try to find something that gives you a similar feeling but isn’t harmful, like running or playing guitar. Both of those cause a sort of pain (your fret hand gets callouses with guitar) but are positive activities.
But good for you for telling them. That’s a big step.
Try to keep yourself occupied … try to think of the times when you weren’t thinking about cutting.
Were you doing an acitivty? Do that activity.
Were you talking to your friends? Talk to your friends.
I had an addiction to cutting as well .. when I was younger, and I noticed that when I was at school and talking to my friends that not ONCE did cutting ever cross my mind. So I talked to my friends more and more and eventually my habit became not a daily thing .. but a weekly thing, then it went from weeks to months. And when I least expected it .. I had stopped completely.
It takes a lot of will power and a heck of a lot of time. There are times when temptation comes knocking at my door but I fight it. I still have the scars on my arms, but they were my motivation to stop.
I managed to stop, I know for a fact that you can too :)
Your counselor shouldn’t have told your mom unless you were at immediate threat to your life. However it is probably a good thing in a round a bout way. It really should have been you, when you were ready.. Listen to what your counselor tells you and things will get easier eventually.
justchecking74 wrote:
I have many scars On my left arm now and they never fade don’t make more you haveto live with them till you die
Great news for you. It’s not til you die. Ten years, less if you get good treatments for them.
dude everytime u feel like cutting ur self pick up a pen and paper and mark down how many times u want u cut ur self and then when the day the through look at the paper and see how many scars u would have had..that thing is not nice it is ugly so draw a line on a paper and look at it…dont keep doin it u can end up in a mento house is u keep doin that ur parents can turn u in for that….just please do what i said to do…see if it helps u…
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