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yeah sure whats bothering u?

talk away my friend. I’m listening

whats a uppa wit chuuu

I don’t know whats really going on with me. My head is just goin a million miles an hour and I can’t do anything right. I want to stop hurting myself I know its not good for me but can’t. I cut myself so deep today I didn’t think it would ever stop bleeding. Sorry to bother everyone. I don’t know what to do. My family is my biggest problem there are so much stuff goin on here its hard to handle anything…

I’ve felt that way before too. Please stop cutting yourself I know its a hard thing to do but it won’t help you in the long run. Whats goin on to make you want to do cut yourself?

rotfl penguin boy? hehe funny, anyway
dude cutting wont help, all ur doin harming ur body and others see it too and they run away cuz (i would know) depression spreads. family problems are really important but u need to explain it bit more.

We aren’t bothered luv,

We’re here for the same or similar reasons you are. We want to be here, and we want to hear what you have to say.

gypsy-corner wrote:
I’ve felt that way before too. Please stop cutting yourself I know its a hard thing to do but it won’t help you in the long run. Whats goin on to make you want to do cut yourself?

I dunno everything anymore makes me want to hurt myself. It’s like I’m not worth it anymore…I dunno

Caleo X_X wrote:
rotfl penguin boy? hehe funny, anyway
dude cutting wont help, all ur doin harming ur body and others see it too and they run away cuz (i would know) depression spreads. family problems are really important but u need to explain it bit more.

My mom and my step dad. I hate him sooo much. He is a manipulative jerk who only solution to anything is to call the f’in police on everyone. He called them last night again for the gazillionth time trying to say that I hit him when in reality it was him who was hitting on everyone else. He was drunk so was my mom. SOo frustrating I can’t take much more of it. He blames me for everything! I try to stay out of everyones way and that just seems to make things worse. For everyone I want to just disapear!

I just want to cut myself so deep that no one can save me that I just completely explode and then no one will have to bother with me…:( ahhhh

Well, to be honest, I don’t think that will help.

I mean, bothering with others is what makes someone’s life worthwhile. I firmly believe that alone is a very boring place to be.

I don’t know you, obviously… but even I can tell you that you are worth so much more than that, just based on the fact that you’re alive. Do you want to talk about why you feel that way?

hey when i saw i need someone to talk to really bad!!!
i was like kinky lol………

but can i ask………what do you feel when you cut yourself ?

sublimelysuk wrote:
Well, to be honest, I don’t think that will help.

I mean, bothering with others is what makes someone’s life worthwhile. I firmly believe that alone is a very boring place to be.

Not when its thins kind of bothering…

oh and how are you today? apart from angry and depressed……….
did you have a good day ?

thatredheadedgirl wrote:
I don’t know you, obviously… but even I can tell you that you are worth so much more than that, just based on the fact that you’re alive. Do you want to talk about why you feel that way?

It’s hard to explain I can’t get out of this rut. I know things here are really hard and there ARE people who have it harder. I know that. I just can’t get it together and the only thing I know that would make me feel better is to either A. cut myself. or B. kill myself. Nothing else has worked for me in the past…I dunno..

DoubleGin19 wrote:
hey when i saw i need someone to talk to really bad!!! i was like kinky lol………but can i ask………what do you feel when you cut yourself ?

relief, free, satisfyed, accomplished…things like that after I’ve done it before its like I”m all edgy until I do it. I get all tensed up feel worthless, invailuable.

Niether is working now for you hun or you wouldn’t be this upset..

If you had to list the top two things that upset you the most what are they?

I guess

do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend? some one who understands, and you can trust?

It is this kind of bothering.

think about it, what defines us as the type of person we are is that we bother with others. The amount of compassion you have in you is what makes you a better person, ne?

and, not to kill your buzz, but the feelings when you cut are the same if you were to finish a good workout. ^_^ Its an endorphin rush trying to numb the pain.

barely wrote:
If you had to list the top two things that upset you the most what are they?

I have a boyfriend. He’s never around anymore much. He works a lot and has a band and no time for me anymore really. Honestly I just bother him. Like I bother everyone else. NO one understands, not anyone close to me anyway…

What do they not understand?

Make us understand it, please..

So… Barely will know… I have posted this before and I also think it’s appropriate in this situation. What has worked for me is trying as hard as you can to find that light, that positive… I’m not saying it’s a magical fix, but the one thing you always have control over is your own mind. Mind over matter really works… so here’s my suggestion.

Here’s what I do: instead of thinking of reasons why I should die, black out, end it and be done, I think of reasons I shouldn’t… or reasons to live. I made a list once, it went on forever… these are 20 of them.

1. They don’t play Metallica in cemeteries.
2. Funerals are no fun.
3. CHOCOLATE.
4. Sunshine.
5. Seeing the way flower petals sparkle…
6. I still want to go skydiving.
7. I still want to go parasailing.
8. I still want to try authentic Mexican food.
9. I do not want to get any closer to powering someone’s car.
10. I could still help someone in the future.
11. I could help someone now.
12. I could invent something that makes the world better.
13. There may not be an afterlife.
14. I’m still kind of scared of the dark, and I’m twenty.
15. I’d hate to turn into mulch.
16. I’m pretty sure my mom loves me.
17. My crazy friends could not survive without me, I know it.
18. I like the way paper smells after it comes out of a copier.
19. I hate being cold.
20. Sweet tea.

Don’t give up… even if they are small things, they add up. You have a life that is worth living. You are worth every ounce of oxygen you use. Also…

sublimelysuk wrote:
It is this kind of bothering. think about it, what defines us as the type of person we are is that we bother with others. The amount of compassion you have in you is what makes you a better person, ne?and, not to kill your buzz, but the feelings when you cut are the same if you were to finish a good workout. ^_^ Its an endorphin rush trying to numb the pain.

Workouts work with the endorphin rush. It’s an excellent thing. For the boyfriend and the people you know… talk to them. Give them a chance to understand. Give us a chance… we want to help.

Thanks! I may have neeeded that :) LOL

barely wrote:
What do they not understand?

They don’t understand the way it hurts the pain that can’t come out with just talking the pain that is still inside when I cut. THere is no relise there is no relief from the thoughts inside my head. They say they want to save me but how the heck can they when it’s myself that is the demon inside my head?! I can’t be saved from myself…or can i?

Of course you can. You can save yourself… you have that power in you. And the other people who want to help you can save you as well, if you let them. They love you… and isn’t that the most saving power of all?

Yes you can, and it’s all in how you think

thatredheadedgirl wrote:
Of course you can. You can save yourself… you have that power in you. And the other people who want to help you can save you as well, if you let them. They love you… and isn’t that the most saving power of all?

I guess but I don’t fee like they do, ya know?

I’m sorry I have to go now. Things are gettin a little harry around her agin thanks for talking with me everyone….things I guess will be ok> Thanks:)

Tell yourself that someone cares for you, enough to talk and help you..

Please keep in touch, if you need us we are here…

Thank you:) I’ll probably be back on later tonight or tomorrow. THanks for all your help soory I have to go tho:( Thanks tho