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I feel depressed alot latly and i dont know why.

if youve read any of my other posts ive tried to hang myself. i skip school and i dont like my family. i have lost my aunt on the 5th of december, which doesn’t help coz every year at christmas someone in my family seems to die and we end up having a sad christmas. i havent celebrated christmas happily in a long while and looking at those decorations just makes me sick. I don’t like school and i dont even kno why, i know what most of you are gonna say, that everyone hates school. i know that, but everyone doesnt seem to care. i feel depressed and i dont talk to my family. me and my mum dont have a very good realationship. i thought of a way for me to get schooling and not go to school, i was hapy about it and told my mum, but as soon as she heard the idea she said no without even lookin me in the eye. when i got annoyed because once again she couldnt care less. so i asked her to leave my room, since its the only pplace i get to clear my thoughts. then she started yelling at me saying that she was gonna go to jail. i knew that alread and i know i shouldn’t have said it but i said i didnt care. then she turned around and when she closed the door she mumbled ‘well i’ll tell nanna then,’ and that meant that she was gonna tell my nanna that i dont care about my aunt dying. when i do. i always stick up for my family. i havent cryed in a while just because when my family found out that my aunt had cancer and they couldnt fight it everyone was crying. and they came to me to cry on. and i havent been able to cry. even when im in bed on my own i cant seem to cry. i have a voice in my head, i know you gonna think this is crazy but, she talks to me and keeps me awake i’ve never told anyone about her, because i know they wont do anything about it. i have been thinking about taking my life alot more latly and i really think its my only opiton now.

someone plz help

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Zenn offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (9 minutes after post)

I’m here baby girl, keep talking. I’m not going to judge you, just keep talking.

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Zenn offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (14 minutes after post)

I think with all the depresion in your life the voice in your head was inevitable. Don’t be fearful of it, beleive me I’ve been there, the voice can be conquered. I think the voice is created by ourselves, we desire death so we create the “voice” function to justify or irrational thoughts: kind of like making an imaginary friend to put the blame on.

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231me231 offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (15 minutes after post)

but doesnt that make me weird?

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Zenn offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (16 minutes after post)

No its a self defence mechenism, you would be weird if you did not have it.

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231me231 offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (17 minutes after post)

is there anyway i can stop it?

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Zenn offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (19 minutes after post)

Read insprerational books before you go to bed, play uplifting music, whatch a comedy movie: dance to a cheesy musical nuber to high school musical, start exercising; prey, sing or meditate. The choice is yours.

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231me231 offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (20 minutes after post)

i listen to really loud music when im in bed but she still get through. and when i tried to tell my mum she just srugged it off and when back to talkin to her ‘oh so important and much better daughter’

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Zenn offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (23 minutes after post)

Listen to calming music, even classical music helps. Anything calm and soothing will work, in your state you need to stop yourself from getting premature high blood pressure. Oh and for the time being forget about your mum and sister for a while, this is your time: what do you need? Think about that quetion carefully.

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231me231 offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (24 minutes after post)

need? i dont need anything, i dont know

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Zenn offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (25 minutes after post)

You need something otherwise you wouldn’t be here.

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231me231 offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (26 minutes after post)

i dont want to kill myself or got insain. i guess…

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Zenn offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (27 minutes after post)

Bingo! Thats the mentality that voice is trying to get rid of. Thats the mentality you must maintain in yourself, to survive, which I truly beleive you can do :)

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231me231 offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (31 minutes after post)

one problem…. How am i to do that?

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Zenn offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (39 minutes after post)

OK, um lets keep with the music theme for awhile if you have an mp3 you know what kind of music to listen to, listen to that kind of music to school or on your walk home. Write yourself a speech that inspires you for better things (I recently wrote one for myself, it works), read it out loud to yorself twice a day. If your mum puts you down, counter her blow with a compliment. If your sister gets on your nerves tell her you love her, smile and walk away (it confuses the hell out of them). Start to learn to compliment yourself, even if you feel you don’t deserve it, thats the voice talking, and we are not to take notice of the voice are we?… Learn to make yourself happy, just like you were once deturmined to learn to ride a bike.

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231me231 offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (41 minutes after post)

wow… ur gd mate…. i’ll try but i cant promise anything. but i’ve never ridden a bike, no one taught me how.

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Zenn offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (43 minutes after post)

annyia wrote:
wow… ur gd mate…. i’ll try but i cant promise anything. but i’ve never ridden a bike, no one taught me how.

Then learn to ride a bike, it is possible to teach yourself. My mother didn’t learn until she was fourty :D

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (45 minutes after post)

lol THANKZ!

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Zenn offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (49 minutes after post)

Well it is late and I have got to get up early tomorow, As long as you attemp to work wonders in your soon to be fantastic life then I will have nothing but pride for you.
Heck I’m already proud of you: Go get ‘em kid!

Goodnight
Lots of love, Zenn (A.K.A that little blue buddah guy)

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BFree offline Verified User (1 year, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 7 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (55 minutes after post)

annyia, you have alot going for you. You are empathetic, caring, and you know how to reach out.

You can do this. Times are really really hard, but you can do this. Ask your voice to do something productive for once and tell you something good. Most of us have that voice and it seems to be really loud when things are really down. Zenn gave you good advice.

Be proud of yourself for what you are able to do. You don’t need to know how you are going to make it to adult hood, not now, you just need to focus on tomorrow then the next day focus on tomorrow. Pretty soon you can focus on your future. But get through tomorrow first.

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kmw123 offline Verified User (11 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 3 weeks ago (5 hours, 39 minutes after post)

Are you taking any type of medication if you are it may have some side effects like deppresion.

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