I feel depressed alot latly and i dont know why.
if youve read any of my other posts ive tried to hang myself. i skip school and i dont like my family. i have lost my aunt on the 5th of december, which doesn’t help coz every year at christmas someone in my family seems to die and we end up having a sad christmas. i havent celebrated christmas happily in a long while and looking at those decorations just makes me sick. I don’t like school and i dont even kno why, i know what most of you are gonna say, that everyone hates school. i know that, but everyone doesnt seem to care. i feel depressed and i dont talk to my family. me and my mum dont have a very good realationship. i thought of a way for me to get schooling and not go to school, i was hapy about it and told my mum, but as soon as she heard the idea she said no without even lookin me in the eye. when i got annoyed because once again she couldnt care less. so i asked her to leave my room, since its the only pplace i get to clear my thoughts. then she started yelling at me saying that she was gonna go to jail. i knew that alread and i know i shouldn’t have said it but i said i didnt care. then she turned around and when she closed the door she mumbled ‘well i’ll tell nanna then,’ and that meant that she was gonna tell my nanna that i dont care about my aunt dying. when i do. i always stick up for my family. i havent cryed in a while just because when my family found out that my aunt had cancer and they couldnt fight it everyone was crying. and they came to me to cry on. and i havent been able to cry. even when im in bed on my own i cant seem to cry. i have a voice in my head, i know you gonna think this is crazy but, she talks to me and keeps me awake i’ve never told anyone about her, because i know they wont do anything about it. i have been thinking about taking my life alot more latly and i really think its my only opiton now.
someone plz help
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