I’m a little annoyed with the world lately (this is kind of a rant).
I go to a school that is middle and high school, but I’m not going here for High school. A lot of my friends are, so I’m sad I won’t have another 4 years of seeing them daily. On the other hand, the public high school I will be attending I know a LOT of people going to whom I went to elementary school/camp/etc with. The only thing about my friendships with these people is that I didn’t think I’d ever go to school with them, so I cut off my relationships with most of them. Now I am trying to reconnect so that when the 09-10 school year comes around, I will feel more included. This has been unsuccessful. I feel very alone.
When I’m at school with my friends, I am alone as well. I’ve never really completely ‘belonged’ with one group of people, I have friends in all different ‘cliques’, but now more than ever I feel stranded. I know I’m a loner, it’s painfully obvious, but I do have friends that love me and care about me. I just…don’t feel like they understand me at all sometimes.
I have two friends that DO really understand me, all the time, but they’re continuing at my school. I am nervous about high school to begin with (I’m still afraid of seniors!!) but this on top of everything freaks me out.
And of course I have math and mandarin finals to study for, things to do, people to listen to….
I’m just so confused and mad at life currently.
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