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Hello, I’ve been self injuring myself for some years now.

I started with banging my head on the wall, then punching myself, and now i’ve been cutting myself for a year now. To me that works best. I finally confessed to my sister a month ago, she is the first person I ever told. I tried to stop because its really hurting my sister. Its hard to. I went without cutting myself for about two weeks and 2 days ago i cut myself several time. I feel like doing it now, but im trying to resist the urge. It’s hard to deal with. I want to find the neccesary help for myself, but get discouraged like people won’t understand. I don’t want to be judged by it. It would hurt me if my mom finds out. So I only cut myself around my waist area only so no one finds out, I use to do it around upper arm. I don’t do it for the pain. It’s the only way I feel I can relieve myself. I cut myself really bad only once and that was because I couldnt feel the pain while I was cutting. I felt totally numb. I decided to start seeking help little by little by posting here. If you have and ideas that won’t lead me to the hospital ward or mental institute let me know.

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11 months ago (15 minutes after post)

I know what draws you, I just cut a star into both of my shoulders. Listen it doesn’t really hurt anyone as long as they don’t find out so just keep it to yourself.

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hope02 offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months ago (17 minutes after post)

why? i dont understand why ppl cut themselfs i banged my head off a wall when there is nothing eles to do but i dont undestand pain seekers, im not jugeing you i just dont get it. if u tell ur doctor they wont lock u up they will help u.

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Jasmyn offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months ago (20 hours, 39 minutes after post)

I dn’t do it for the pain.

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Jasmyn offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months ago (20 hours, 41 minutes after post)

They don’t do it for the pain itself. They need help.

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CrackHacky offline Verified User (2 years, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Mill Hall, PA, US | 11 months ago (22 hours, 2 minutes after post)

Cutting, I am afraid, will be with you forever. I cut for over a year, then stopped or over a year, then recently started up again. Its an addiction like anything else. When I stop, it is the hardest thing in the world.

Good Luck.

If you want to stop you will need a new coping strategy. Unfortunately all of mine are bad so i have no suggestions. I don’t want to lead you down other wrong paths.

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11 months ago (2 days after post)

crackHacky: Thats not what I want. I want to change to make a difference

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CrackHacky offline Verified User (2 years, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Mill Hall, PA, US | 11 months ago (5 days, 23 hours after post)

you want to stop. I understand. you need to find a new outlet. I chose pills,drugs, and extreme dieting. I cut a lot less, however, am i better? No. I will always be a SIer. you need to find a new productive outlet. what interests you?

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webjeff200 offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Chicago, IL, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 week, 4 days after post)

I have some links on my post below that may help you, let me know if it does or not.

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Spangle offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (2 weeks after post)

The reason I think and believe people cut themselves is to release the pain that they are feeling inside - either that or they want to escape the reality so cutting themselves stops them thinking about the current issues in their lives.

You have to ask why you are cutting yourself? What started this off, how were you feeling when you first did this? Did it help release the pain you felt inside when you did this? If so then it is understandable why it can become an addiction. The mental pain you feel due to current issues in your life can become unbearable so you find a solution, cutting yourself because it releases the pain. The thing is as you know and want to seek help for, it is dangerous and it is only a temporary solution which doesn’t work in the long term. There are other ways of getting the pain out, such as screaming, listening to music that matches your mood, writing all your thoughts down in a journal amongst many other less harmful ways. Next time you feel like cutting, you should stop.. get an elastic band and flick it against your wrist quite hard so it hurts but also an alternative way of getting rid of the mental pain you feel but less harmful. Try this a few times or alternatively hold an ice cube on your wrist for a few seconds. Although both these methods cause immediate pain - it is a less harmful way of dealing with self harm. There may be people you can talk to about why you feel so low in your life that you have to hurt yourself. Also there are ways of getting to the root of the problem and helping you rid of your mental anguish which would in turn - hopefully stop you harming yourself physically. I am providing a link below which I have provided to others here on the site and I think it will be of benefit for you (and possibly others who are reading this and have experienced the same also). Please let me know how you get on. Maybe next time you feel really hurt come on help.com and have a major rant and then get some of the anger and mental pain out of you and then get the ice cube and hold it on your wrist and generally try these methods until you feel the release of the pain has happened but without harming. I suggest also getting your sister to hide all sharp items from your reach… I know that sounds daunting because your addiction will not want to let you hide anything that would stop it but it is important so that you can start to get better. Please don’t give up and try the methods I’ve suggested or in the link below xx

http://www.wikihow.com/Stop-Cutting-Y…

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ambular398 offline Verified User (10 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 2 weeks ago (2 weeks, 6 days after post)

my older brother has been a cutter for a good portion of his life he’s 26. what helped him was finally going to the dr. and telling them what he was doing. they didnt lock him up the ward or the hospital because he did not want to “kill” himself. Inflicting pain on yourself is totally different than someone trying to commit suicide. If self help or advice from people doesnt help then you should really seek professional help. They do want to help you, you just have to be honest and go get the professionals help.

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Jasmyn offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months ago (2 months after post)

I think have some improvements with cutiing myself. Two days ago i was going to give a positive update, but today i cut my wrist. Its been a month and a half. I believe that is some improvement, but this is the first time i cut my write, i normally do it on my waist. I work in a hospital and i had to try to cover up and pretend I just hurt my wrist. I feel like im fallung back into that void I tried so desperetly to get out off.

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ambular398 offline Verified User (10 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months ago (2 months after post)

That is very positive that you went soo long without cutting… did something happen that made you want to do this or did you just get the urge? Sometimes knowing the trigger can help to not pull it

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Jasmyn offline Verified User (11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months ago (2 months after post)

I got extremly lonely. I tried to talk to someone but no one was avaiable. I was feeling very depress for the past few days. I started crying and couldn’t control the emotional pain. I tried to think myself through it but it didn’t work. I was about to head to work and I needed a quick way to relieve the emotional pain. I didn’t want to be late to work and drive with a blurry vison. So cut myself and it work after a few minutes. I got thinks under control. I only did three slices but yesterday i did it again on my waist. I feel like Im falling back.

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