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Don’t give up! I know this time of the year is so hard but Shie, whatever it is you will get through it. You always do because you are one hell of a strong woman. What’s going on? Talk to us.
Don’t you make me walk all the freakin way to your house lady, it’s bloody cold out there and quite frankly I don’t like the cold so spit it out! C’mon now, what’s going on? You help so many others here, me included, lean on us.
miss_enigma wrote: Don’t give up! I know this time of the year is so hard but Shie, whatever it is you will get through it. You always do because you are one hell of a strong woman. What’s going on? Talk to us.
i will never get over this… EVER!!!
i just got an email from my daughter keisha telling me that she friggin hates me.. that i never tried hard enough for her
miss_enigma wrote: Don’t give up! I know this time of the year is so hard but Shie, whatever it is you will get through it. You always do because you are one hell of a strong woman. What’s going on? Talk to us.
i will never get over this… EVER!!!
i just got an email from my daughter keisha telling me that she friggin hates me.. that i never tried hard enough for her
Just take a few deep breaths ok. She doesn’t know the whole story and she is a teenage girl who misses her Mom. Let’s just put this into perspective here. I know that must hurt but she doesn’t mean it Shie, she’s a young girl and she’s hurt. She doesn’t hate you she’s just angry and sad and doesn’t know who to blame.
well.. jason.. shes not my friend shes my mother.. im not passing judgement.. im pissed.. she could have ******* done anything to try.. but her ******* “written to the white house, senators, congressman, talk shows, attorneys all over the world, just trying to get you guys home.” as you say… it sint getting her anywheres and she ******* nos that too.. if she really actually did care then she wouldnt be out in ******* god nos were “*******” god nos who.
signmycast wrote: If she genuinely hated you she wouldn’t be that upset. The fact that she is so upset just proves she wants to be with you because she loves you
she just responded and told me to go kill myself..
i have tried so hard over these last five years… doing everything in my power to get them home…
and then to hear that she hates me and wants me to just kill myself… maybe she has the right idea..
Your daughter does not have the emotional maturity to articulate her feelings. It is kinda like my 5 year old when he gets so mad or frustrated he has bitten his opponent. She is frustrated, and misses you, so she lashes out. She will come to know the truth.
signmycast wrote: It’s just temporary. Her father has been feeding her lies and maybe she just found it easier to blame you then the system.
you are right… but this is not fair… not fair to me or her…
libragirl12 wrote: Your daughter does not have the emotional maturity to articulate her feelings. It is kinda like my 5 year old when he gets so mad or frustrated he has bitten his opponent. She is frustrated, and misses you, so she lashes out. She will come to know the truth.
by the time she learns the truth.. i may be dead.. the drs are now believing the tumor is in my brain.. i have scans wednesday
It isn’t fair but it will work out eventually. You can’t take what she says to heart. You know she loves you and she wants to know the truth or else she wouldn’t be so upset. She wants you to grovel a bit would be my bet.
You can’t give up. Someday she will understand the truth and she will love you that much more for your struggles and you need to be there for her.
She will know the truth. In her heart she already does and she doesn’t mean what she is saying right now.
thank you guys… although im dying right now inside.. and i know you all mean well.. i just cant stop crying… my chest is tight.. tears are flooding my eyes and i cant breathe… this is the worse thought that i could have ever thought of… and it came true…
No, your girls are just in pain like you are, the truth will come to pass, you have to know that they will know and they do love you, if they did not they would not be angry
You just have to keep the hope. Even the smallest bit of hope, being suffocated with all of the bad, if it’s kept strong will grow and push away all of the bad.
when will it pass though libra?? my tumor may have spread to my friggin brain. its already taking over my body.. i am afraid to even walk outside by myself because i lose my balance and fall… my arms dont even work right.. no reflexes..
im literally dying slowly… what if its too late by the time they realize the truth?
signmycast wrote: You just have to keep the hope. Even the smallest bit of hope, being suffocated with all of the bad, if it’s kept strong will grow and push away all of the bad.
my whole life has been horrible.. never having good in it.. since the age of 3..
Pope John XXIII
Consult not your fears but your hopes and dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what is still possible for you to do.
libragirl12 wrote: Pope John XXIIIConsult not your fears but your hopes and dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what is still possible for you to do.
but i have tried everything in my power to get my babies home… everything!! :(
Hi Shie, is it possible your ex has been filling her head full of Cr*p, it sounds like it to me, send her an email and tell her you have written PROOF of all you’ve done to get them back.
signmycast wrote: You just have to keep the hope. Even the smallest bit of hope, being suffocated with all of the bad, if it’s kept strong will grow and push away all of the bad.
my whole life has been horrible.. never having good in it.. since the age of 3..
Sasha101 wrote: Hi Shie, is it possible your ex has been filling her head full of Cr*p, it sounds like it to me, send her an email and tell her you have written PROOF of all you’ve done to get them back.
i have.. i actually had a kid , jason who lives with rog and i.. email her… (i wrote it all to her.. letting her know how i was there in court every time.. i did everything and have dated proof… but they keep lying in court…
and that they are lying to her about everything to make her hate me..
she replied.. she is done with the he said, she said crap.. and then told me to kill myself..
I dont think she meant that Shie for a minute, this has been going on for you all for so long hon, she is frustrated and wants to be with you. If only you could meet person to person, its an awful situation for you all.
I can truly imagine hon, is rog there with you ? )))))))))))))hugs x If your son is emailing her he must know where she is right ? Id have to find a way to meet with her courts or not this is so wrong hon. :-(
i have a migraine starting.. im going to go take a pain killer and lay down.. cry myself to sleep..
i just cant handle this anymore… ill be back later.
thank you everyone for listening to my pity party..
signmycast wrote: As much as it hurts now is as good it will feel when she takes it all back
but that is the thing.. i know that even if things did change.. and she and the others were to come home.. when they get mad or something.. i know im going to hear it all the time.. causing me to lose it all over again, remembering everything..
Sasha101 wrote: Give her the link for this site, if she has computer access, show her the posts you’ve put on here, Gosh we all know what its been like for you.
i gave it to her a while ago.. and she never showed.
Shie i will say the payer for you and your kids tonight, please get some rest, we love you.
Heavenly father, as in times past,
I come, with heart in hands,
Offering love and worship;
Seeking insight to your plans.
Every day, dear lord,
Missing children are brought to mind;
So many taken, by one parent or the other.
But, many others we just can’t find.
Though, i know, my father,
You have them in your sight.
They are never lost to you.
Please help them in their fright.
Sweet little faces,
With smiles that melt our heart,
Taken, maybe by someone close.
That tears our soul apart.
God, such wrenching pain ~
Almost more than we can bare.
We, as mortals, can cope no more.
So, we give them to you in prayer.
Some, my lord, i’m sure, have passed
From our earthly house to yours.
They have crossed the chilly waters
And come to heavens shores.
Others, though we still have hope,
Will return to arms of motherly love,
Here, on earth; still abiding,
Not time for them to go above.
God, be a comforter
For those who wait and mourn.
The grieving parents you gave them,
The child that they had born.
Though unseen to us, my god,
You know just where they are, today.
Those gathered home to you, now, safe;
It’s for the missing that we pray.
Please hold them, god.
Protect them from the pain.
Tend them all and mercy keep,
And send them home to ther mothers love, again.
All these things we ask of you.
Please, let us hope, for now.
Return them home father.
To you we leave the how.
We lift each wee one, o lord;
Teenager and those in-between ~
Out of sight from us, my lord.
But, to you they are not unseen.
The search will never end.
For, some have gone astray.
Father, watch over them
And send some home, today.
Bless the little children, lord.
Wipe away each frightened tear;
For those who made it home with you
And for those who still linger here.
Whether we find them, jesus,
Either here, on earth, or over there;
God tell them, every one,
How very much we care.
The never ending search goes on
’til we meet at jesus’ feet.
’twill be reunited, there,
And all things, in you, are, now, complete.
So, father of mercy, who knows all things,
Hear us as we pray for every one.
May all things be as you have planned
And for the children, may thy will be done.
libragirl12 wrote: shie i will say the payer for you and your kids tonight, please get some rest, we love you.
Heavenly father, as in times past,
I come, with heart in hands,
Offering love and worship;
Seeking insight to your plans.
Every day, dear lord,
Missing children are brought to mind;
So many taken, by one parent or the other.
But, many others we just can’t find.
Though, i know, my father,
You have them in your sight.
They are never lost to you.
Please help them in their fright.
Sweet little faces,
With smiles that melt our heart,
Taken, maybe by someone close.
That tears our soul apart.
God, such wrenching pain ~
Almost more than we can bare.
We, as mortals, can cope no more.
So, we give them to you in prayer.
Some, my lord, i’m sure, have passed
From our earthly house to yours.
They have crossed the chilly waters
And come to heavens shores.
Others, though we still have hope,
Will return to arms of motherly love,
Here, on earth; still abiding,
Not time for them to go above.
God, be a comforter
For those who wait and mourn.
The grieving parents you gave them,
The child that they had born.
Though unseen to us, my god,
You know just where they are, today.
Those gathered home to you, now, safe;
It’s for the missing that we pray.
Please hold them, god.
Protect them from the pain.
Tend them all and mercy keep,
And send them home to ther mothers love, again.
All these things we ask of you.
Please, let us hope, for now.
Return them home father.
To you we leave the how.
We lift each wee one, o lord;
Teenager and those in-between ~
Out of sight from us, my lord.
But, to you they are not unseen.
The search will never end.
For, some have gone astray.
Father, watch over them
And send some home, today.
Bless the little children, lord.
Wipe away each frightened tear;
For those who made it home with you
And for those who still linger here.
Whether we find them, jesus,
Either here, on earth, or over there;
God tell them, every one,
How very much we care.
The never ending search goes on
’til we meet at jesus’ feet.
’twill be reunited, there,
And all things, in you, are, now, complete.
So, father of mercy, who knows all things,
Hear us as we pray for every one.
May all things be as you have planned
And for the children, may thy will be done.
i have written to keisha myself.. letting her know:
Today, I heard those words that i have been fearing of hearing. Words from my child that she hates me, that she wishes i would die and that she wants nothing to do with me.
the following is copied and pasted from her email sent to a friend of mine…
“well.. jason.. shes not my friend shes my mother.. im not passing judgement.. im pissed.. she could have ******* done anything to try.. but her ******* “written to the white house, senators, congressman, talk shows, attorneys all over the world, just trying to get you guys home.” as you say… it sint getting her anywheres and she ******* nos that too.. if she really actually did care then she wouldnt be out in ******* god nos were “*******” god nos who”
little does she know i have been to the courts, i have been here and there, searching for help for 5 long years trying to get my babies home. but being told by her father that i never showed up to court, never doing the things that i was suppose to do such as a domestic violence course which i did and have dated proof from 2004, mental evaluation in which i passed in 2005, this and that, that the court keeps making rules for me to do.. i have done.. and her father tells her that i havent done any of them, that i dont show for court.. in which i do every time..
so now, my baby girl hates me.. those words i have always dreaded hearing, always wondering and found out today that it is reality.
im so heart broken. i have tried with all my might to get my babies home. i would give my life for my children that is how much they mean to me.
but as she asked, to leave her be… as hard as it is, i will grant her wishes.
my tumor in my back has possibly spread to my brain, and who knows, maybe keisha will get her wish… maybe its all over for me anyways.
although keisha hates me, i have to say.. i love you oh so much. and you have totally killed me tonight just by saying those 3 little words that i have dreaded for oh so long.
all i can say is that im so very sorry keisha. im so very sorry. i cant do anything to change the past and i have fought so **** hard these last 5 years to get you home, only to be lied about in court and to you for you to hate me.
you are my child keisha, i will always love you, stephanie and buddie. it is the three of you who keep me breathing each and every day, fighting this tumor and fighting for life.
may one day, whether im here or in heaven, you find the truth.. and realize that i never stopped fighting for you. i promised you that i would never give up and that is a promise that i kept. im just so sorry that it was myself in the war fighting the enemies alone with all their lies.
i love you guys with all my heart and soul and hopefully one day, you will realize that you guys are my world, my life, my motivation to keep going each and everyday. and for that, i thank you for letting me love you.
Oh Shie, just rest, it is out of your hands, I will ask others to pray with me for you and your kids, Sleep tonight, let others handle your burden if just for tonight.
Sorry Shie, I didnt know that you had posted this. Thats why I shouted you that.. And By The Way, why you didnt invite me???????????? You like to share your happiness with us but dont like to share your sorrows??? thats not fair!!!
Anyway, I have come to know Shie, that God examines His people.. He puts tests in His people’s life.. He wants to know who can face the problems and who cannot… But sometimes He makes the tests very hard for a few people to test them.. Do you know why He gives hard tests to those few people?? Thats because they are His most loved ones and He wants to know how much the ones He loves, love Him..
Dearest Shie, I know what you have passed through and I know that all that was a test… You struggled very hard in all of your tests to pass them and got nice results too.. If you have struggled so hard for 33 years.. how can you give up now? You are a special person of God… God sent you in this world and only He cant take you back.. You cant end up your life like this.. This taking of tests is called LIFE… Without these tests, life is MEANINGLESS!! I would like to say, we shouldn’t forget God and should not blame Him for all what happens to us.. We should be thankful for Him for whatever He has given us.. I know its hard to understand. I took much time for this..
And about your daughter, after reading all of the comments, I can say that she REALLY LOVES you.. she is kinda upset and this all is just because of your ex-mate.. He is making her to think like this.. the message you saw wasnt from your daughter. It was from your ex.. She was speaking his words… Sometimes, I wonder why there are such Human Devils in this world? Arent the Real Devils enough? I’ll say to stay calm and forget it.. Just forget it!!
Have you heard the story of Good and Evil? In this story, there was a fight between Good and Evil… Evil always tried to beat Good by unfair means and Good never did that because HE was Good… The fight continued and the Good had to face many troubles and hurdles to win the battle.. Sometimes, Good lost but HE never gave up.. HE continued and in the End, HE won the battle.. I know this is a common story but it really means here…
You are Good and you are gonna win this battle.. If not today, then tomorrow.. But I am sure, you are gonna win this battle… Just Dont Give Up!!!
All the Best & Take A Very good care. We all need you, Shie..
אָ QaSh אָ wrote: Sorry Shie, I didnt know that you had posted this. Thats why I shouted you that.. And By The Way, why you didnt invite me???????????? You like to share your happiness with us but dont like to share your sorrows??? thats not fair!!!
Anyway, I have come to know Shie, that God examines His people.. He puts tests in His people’s life.. He wants to know who can face the problems and who cannot… But sometimes He makes the tests very hard for a few people to test them.. Do you know why He gives hard tests to those few people?? Thats because they are His most loved ones and He wants to know how much the ones He loves, love Him..
Dearest Shie, I know what you have passed through and I know that all that was a test… You struggled very hard in all of your tests to pass them and got nice results too.. If you have struggled so hard for 33 years.. how can you give up now? You are a special person of God… God sent you in this world and only He cant take you back.. You cant end up your life like this.. This taking of tests is called LIFE… Without these tests, life is MEANINGLESS!! I would like to say, we shouldn’t forget God and should not blame Him for all what happens to us.. We should be thankful for Him for whatever He has given us.. I know its hard to understand. I took much time for this..
And about your daughter, after reading all of the comments, I can say that she REALLY LOVES you.. she is kinda upset and this all is just because of your ex-mate.. He is making her to think like this.. the message you saw wasnt from your daughter. It was from your ex.. She was speaking his words… Sometimes, I wonder why there are such Human Devils in this world? Arent the Real Devils enough? I’ll say to stay calm and forget it.. Just forget it!!
Have you heard the story of Good and Evil? In this story, there was a fight between Good and Evil… Evil always tried to beat Good by unfair means and Good never did that because HE was Good… The fight continued and the Good had to face many troubles and hurdles to win the battle.. Sometimes, Good lost but HE never gave up.. HE continued and in the End, HE won the battle.. I know this is a common story but it really means here…
You are Good and you are gonna win this battle.. If not today, then tomorrow.. But I am sure, you are gonna win this battle… Just Dont Give Up!!!
All the Best & Take A Very good care. We all need you, Shie..
sorry qash.. i didnt invite anyone.. just wanted to rant, cry, vent.. but didnt want to worry anyone.. im finally learning how to reach out to people with my real issues.. something that i have never been able to do… and i know that once this holiday stuff is over, my life will resume back to how its been… fighting for what is right with my kids and not being so darn down.
i totally agree with you about all these tests of life.. and i so wouldnt have a problem with any of it if it didnt deal with the very issues that made me the happiest… my children. the thing that bothers me about that is.. he blessed me with them… so why take them from me? that is just plain ol’ cruel..
and then there is the thing about testing us to let us learn and survive… but i have been going through tests (crap) since i was 3… cant i just have a small break? even for a little while to see what its like to have no worries? just a small one? and you are right.. in a weird kind of way, im so happy that my parents treated me like crap.. because it made me a great mom.. other things in my life that have happened, made me the kind hearted person i am today… and for that i am thankful as well.. but my children… i was given the blessing to love and raise them.. only for them to be taken away… i just dont understand what kind of lesson can be in that… and i know that is the purpose of these tests… to figure out what that is… but 5 years.. 5 L O N G years…. ???
and you and everyone are all so right… its the anger talking, the misunderstanding of what is really happening and not knowing all that i have really done that has her talking this way… and im not mad at her one bit.. i totally understand.. and although i totally broke down yesterday, my eyes are half swollen shut today, my head is beating a million drums and i havent slept in 24 hours… i am feeling a little better after talking to everyone about this. im more understanding of the situation at hand… and im very thankful for that and you guys..
as for the good vs evil.. i have never tried to undermind anyone to get advantage.. always doing the right thing.. always.. it just doesnt make sense to me that.. those who are pure evil prevail while the good hearted souls suffer… i mean.. 34 years is a very long time.. wouldnt you agree?
as for giving up… in frustration… i just want to end it all.. but once i calm down, i realize what is important.. my children.
so i will never end my life or do something stupid like that… but at the moment.. im so tore that the thoughts do cross my mind… but once given time to calm down, i start on that road of fighting again… in which i plan on doing right after a long nap… as im so wore out that my eyes are just about swollen shut, my head is pounding and my body is literally twitching… partly due to being so drained and partly due to stress..
i have to go to my stupid retard class today.. and i plan on coming back and taking a nap…
i just want to thank you AND everyone else who was here for me in my moment of crisis…
the last few months have been especially hard for me as it always has been the last 5 years… and a lot runs through my mind at this time of year.. so i get myself down every time…
i am feeling a little bit of relief from all the help and caring that has poured out here and for that im very thankful… to each and every one of you!!
many hugs to you all.. you are all the best a friend could ever ask for…
love to you all…
and thank you qash for that extra special hug (picture)
This just breaks my heart, Shie. Please understand that such strong emotions can only come from a deep love. Your daughter truly does love you; just doesn’t know how to express the pain she is feeling. I’m new to help.com, but caught one of your replies that was so thoughtful and caring and so I read through some of your posts. You are in my thoughts and I hope so hard that everything works out for you. Huge hugs to you.
How old is your daughter to be so angry sounds alittle older maybe she can fight herself to be with you?If not then understand her pain and let her have the right to have it.
It’s really hard to hear that but even harder to hear she is so upset to have said it.
Let her show her pain no matter how upsetting.And confirm her its ok to be angry and you still love her no matter what.And if not now when she is older no one can tell her who she can be with.
It is hard now but time will get better just hang in there and keep showing love through all the pain.It will be better time makes everything better.Even though time is presious also.
God bless you ~+~ oxoxoxo
ok i know i’m a little late and hopefully you and your daughter have already worked this out. Maybe you and your daughter should go through some family counsiling but most importantly you should let God help you. Pray that God will soften your daughters heart towards this subjest and towards you and pray for understanding for both you and your daughter. Right now you are both hurt by each others actions and you need the Fathers love to heal your hearts. I hope this helps. I’m praying for you and your daughter.
Lots of love
-fishergirl
Shie :( so sorry to hear you feel this way, I hope you feel better shortly, as aforementioned by others she is just upset, she has missed you and is looking for someone to blame, and probably finds it easier to blame you, especially after she has being fed all the bull that she has been fed, and also you don’t know who that was, quite possibly it was someone that knows you that hacked into her account maybe the pig that is feeding her the bull
heidi.s wrote: This just breaks my heart, Shie. Please understand that such strong emotions can only come from a deep love. Your daughter truly does love you; just doesn’t know how to express the pain she is feeling. I’m new to help.com, but caught one of your replies that was so thoughtful and caring and so I read through some of your posts. You are in my thoughts and I hope so hard that everything works out for you. Huge hugs to you.
thank you.. and yes.. im totally understanding… just like this post yesterday.. the struggle and frustration that i felt was just so over whelming.. although i am still thinking of what she said.. and it bothers me.. i do understand.. and she has every right to be upset.. because she is being told what they want her to believe.. not the truth.. and may one day, she and my other babies know the truth.. and maybe one day be able to forgive me. i think the thing that bothers me the most is.. if i had just stayed with the abuser… i would still have my children today. often hating myself for the choices that i have made to get me and my children where we are today… but knowing that i had to make the decisions that i was forced to do… it was all totally out of my hands and control..
but i am feeling a little bit better today.. so thank you.
ill add you to my friends listing, for the most part… i try to post funny and silly things… i find that laughter helps us remember that we are still alive…
fem1p wrote: How old is your daughter to be so angry sounds alittle older maybe she can fight herself to be with you?If not then understand her pain and let her have the right to have it.
It’s really hard to hear that but even harder to hear she is so upset to have said it.
Let her show her pain no matter how upsetting.And confirm her its ok to be angry and you still love her no matter what.And if not now when she is older no one can tell her who she can be with.
It is hard now but time will get better just hang in there and keep showing love through all the pain.It will be better time makes everything better.Even though time is presious also.
God bless you ~+~ oxoxoxo
my oldest daughter, the one that i am talking about is 17. i have actually sent her an email 6 o’clock this morning (as i have been up for 30 hours now).. and i let her know a tiny bit of my side, showing her that i did everything that i was made to do in court.. i also told her that she has every right to be upset and even hate me, but it will never stop me from loving her and continuing on with my fight to get them home. that for her request of me not contacting her… i will do so.. and maybe one day, she will find it in her heart to realize that im telling the truth and contact me back.
thank you .. hugs
miss_enigma wrote: How are ya doing today Shie? I’ve been thinking about ya.
im doing better.. had my little tantrum fit and feeling a little better. although im quite sad and upset still, tired as all hell from not sleeping at all since 10 am yesterday morning besides a couple of hours late this after noon… my eyes were just about swollen shut when i looked in the mirror this morning, had to take some meds for this stupid nagging headache that wont go away.. im doing pretty ok other than that. i have come to realize that this is not my daughters fault.. but the fault of those who keep lies going to force her to have these opinions. and although it hurts me deeply inside for her to feel this way towards me… i totally understand her and why she does. so im doing ok..
i just hate this time of year from october through december , their birthdays, christmas.. it just brings me down anyways…
FISHERGIRL_1 wrote: ok i know i’m a little late and hopefully you and your daughter have already worked this out. Maybe you and your daughter should go through some family counsiling but most importantly you should let God help you. Pray that God will soften your daughters heart towards this subjest and towards you and pray for understanding for both you and your daughter. Right now you are both hurt by each others actions and you need the Fathers love to heal your hearts. I hope this helps. I’m praying for you and your daughter.
Lots of love
-fishergirl
sounds great and all.. however, i have not been able to see my children for 5 years now… www.myspace.com/missing_my_children is my full story..
Original on YouTube.com a video that i made a couple of years ago..
as for praying to god.. i have.. not only have i prayed to him for myself and this situation.. i have even prayed for those who have hurt us and done this to us… asking for forgiveness for them..
and yet here i sit, slowly dying with my health issues.. and no children..
Luck of the Irish wrote: Shie :( so sorry to hear you feel this way, I hope you feel better shortly, as aforementioned by others she is just upset, she has missed you and is looking for someone to blame, and probably finds it easier to blame you, especially after she has being fed all the bull that she has been fed, and also you don’t know who that was, quite possibly it was someone that knows you that hacked into her account maybe the pig that is feeding her the bull
you know what irish????? roger said the EXACT same thing to me lastnight.. “you dont know who that was, if it was really her or if it was someone else”.
i have come to understand that if it was indeed her.. which i do believe, i do understand why… and although im still hurt by it… im no way near the way i was yesterday by any means..
my friends here such as yourself and roger has helped me more than you guys know.. and for that i thank you all so very much!!!
Devil_on_Earth wrote: *hugs*
It is okay Shie! She is probably just upset and confused. As Luck of the Irish said, she is probably looking for somebody to blame. We love you here and don’t want to lose you, so don’t you dare give up! Help.com would be chaos without our Shie. Life is a rollercoaster ride and it has ups and downs. I bet that the rollercoaster is coming back up soon. :)
thank you devil..
and you and everyone else is right.. she is not to blame for this by any means..
and yes, im ok now after my little tantrum..
although i have said something about dying.. i can promise you and everyone else.. its not me to ever take that step to commit suicide.. i guess its my thoughts and actions at that very moment that im thinking about… but in reality, i could never do it.. my children are way too important to me.. and it would be very selfish of myself.. i guess i was just having a moment.. and im sorry that i scared you or anyone else..
yeah.. i feel like im on one of those roller coasters in which, there are these really hugggggeeeeeeeeeeeeeee drops.. and it has very small hills going back up..
babacup wrote: One day she will know the truth and she will understand. She will know your love and her world and your world will better.
im hoping so… and i know you are right… i just hope it comes before my time here on earth is over.. because i know my spirit would never rest if it didnt.
WELL EVERYONE..
i would like to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for being here for me when i absolutely needed someone..
it means the world to me.. and you have all helped me by showing me that its not my daughters fault.. and that she does have every reason to be upset and angry…
im going to close this post now.. because its just too much to keep reading over and over… i just want to forget about it for now..
many hugs to each and every one of you … my angels, my friends.. love shie.
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