suicidal help: trying to find info online isnt enough i would like to meet people with hypomania. - Help.com

6months ago i was instituted never had any prior history or diagnosis.. very tramadic.. I thought everything was fine till everyone said i was not myself and was hyper and now I cant stop replaying those few weeks leading up to being hospitalized. to the point of i moved back home and lost all motivation. even to talk to friends or leave the house..I wanted to be famous one day and now dont want to even look in the mirror..

if its the feel good disorder i must have more going on if i am now “too quiet” in everyones opinion.. and its true i dont talk to anyone anymore. this is my attempt at the outside world. hiding behind a screen afraid the world is rejecting me

at the time yea i was hypomania but i am sure i was misdiagnosed. i am probably bipolar. funny thing is i wish that i could go back to that feeling i had before the hospital i felt so confident that things would be ok. now i see darkness because of the doctor and everyone telling me it was wrong being put on medicine..i had the best time of my life then. i have never been shy but now i just feel wrong about everything i think, and do. I am just plain quiet i for the first time ever to the point of recluse. just trying to figure out why

you know i really wanted the same doc who diagonsed me to continue being my doc. but he said he was only my doc. in the institution. Of course i was in denial of having a problem so before my meds ran out i went to another doc. told him what the institution diagnosed me with and he agreed I didnt have hypomania and was overmedicated so I got off the meds. The overmedicated (zombified) feeling hasnt left. I am extremely down for 5 months now. Never ever did I think I could be here I was always such a happy go getter. Now its like all of me has stopped the world still revolves. i didnt think this could happen to me.

yeah thanks.. i know what i need to do.. i am gonna go back to the doctor and like an alcholholic admit that i have a problem.. thank you soo much you were very helpful

Thank you soo much for the info.. Very helpful. I just really hope that i can get the help i need. its just feels like no one can do it for me i have to do it for myself. But thats where the blank is drawn.. how.. i truley believe that when things hit bottom the only thing thats next is the top.