life help: Falling off a “Peak Experience.” - Help.com

It’s all about your choices. You can be the knight in tarnished armor if you choose. It’s your responsibility and your choice. “Perspective, use it or loose it”. Richard Bach wrote that, and it’s pretty true if you ask me. You have a wonderful ability to communicate - I wonder if you are teaching? It sounds to me that you have a great deal to share with others. When will you publish your story?

We are spiritual creatures in a physical form. We are all about the evolution of the spirit. If you’re not working on that, then you’ve come no where close to completing your purpose, or to Self Actualization.

Bright blessings ~ Richard

The story can’t be told - it’s not mine to tell. The sorrow of the family at that time, and the shame of the woman to have fallen into her situation is not something to be exploited - if anything, she would be best to communicate and teach others of the lessons she has learned.

I would counter your last statement, however, Richard; self is only the beginning, not an end or goal. We are worthless without use to others (at least from my POV).

As John Donne said, no man is an island - I spent many years (and a philosophy degree) working on defining myself, only to find true definition of myself in putting my life on the line for something that did not involve me. What are you willing to surrender - what are you willing to give away? What are you willing to die for? These questions, when framed in in a very concrete sense, are the masters degree in self actualization. It belies ego and and self delusion. Had this situation been a theoretical one, I could have told myself what I would do in most noble terms - only in facing it did I find out what I was truly capable of.

We all can tell our story, we all have a different story to tell. A different wisdom to teach or give to others. It sounds to me that you have more to be joyous about then perhaps you are telling. If you have pushed that envelope, and discovered your current edges of Self. There is more to you. Choose to push again.

I’d love to - it’s just that, short of putting on a pair of leotards and stalking the streets at night, I’m not likely to fall into the same Hitchcockian situation that brought me into the first fight. ~grin~

As i said, it was a peak experience; there was nothing comparable to the fight and the winning of it. If nothing else ever happens, I have made a dent in the cold, cruel existential world. I defied an army of well-wishing friends and family who told me there was nothing that could be done, that it wasn’t my problem, that I should just walk away. They were wrong. Clergy was wrong. Experts in the arena who said nothing could be done were wrong. Huge stuff. There’s a lot to be joyful about - except everything from here on out will be less than that.

I’d do this stuff for a living, in a New York minute, if I could find a way to get room and board. I could stand another heart attack - there are even far worse ways to die. The problem is, where do you push from here? Do I open an office - “Windmills Tilted And Conquered?” Put an ad in the paper, like The Goodies? ~grin~

At the moment, I have no idea how to proceed in any direction.

Well… surely you believe there is more than one ‘peak’ in yours or anyone’s life. Surely you know there is a new army of minions ready to lay siege to the new walls you have risen! Everything will be less? I do not doubt the magnitude of your prior tests, but I also have faith in the Universe’s ability to kick your @ss to places ‘where no man has gone before’!

I really like the name of your new business… I’d go with that.

Perhaps you are an “adrenaline junkie,” i.e., you need to have a lot of excitement in your life to feel fulfilled.

You may wish to consider working as an emergency medical technician, or fireman or policeman . . . but realize that all jobs will have dull and boring interludes.

As for myself, after a career in the military, boring interludes are rather welcome.

You say ‘if’ nothing else happens.
My own personal philospohy is that if we are still alive in the physical sense, then by that very premise there is something important still to do.
I agree with Richard.

Tell your story. And let me be very clear here.
I don’t mean tell HER story. That is different.
Tell YOUR story. YOUR experience.
What happens in your life is yours. Your experience of events is unique.

You can always use pseudonyms and aliases.
And publish under a pseudonym as well.

Nothing wrong with that if you ask me.

Good luck finding something.

Maybe what happened was a peak experience.
But there is a certain satisfaction and enjoyment that come from the trek back down the mountain.
Once you’ve come back down, you can see there other mountain tops in the mountain range.
But they don’t seem as insurmountable from the top, only from the bottom.

Does my analogy make sense?