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Time spent wasted is not a wasted time?

upon hearing that tagline, i could immediately relate. i want to believe that. that the two years i spent wasting (if that is really wasting) is not a wasted time. to tell you a little background about my so called wasted time/ life maybe, i am here at home with my family, particularly with my dear mother. i don’t go to work often, don’t socialize anymore, in short - i don’t live a much exciting life anymore. could i be blamed? should i be blamed? i love my mother dearly, and the time i spent with her is really priceless. beyond compare. she is the only parent i’ve got. and she is 70. but then again, i feel that i could have done more. i should have not live a recluse/ couch potato/ lazy life (because that is really my life now.) i don’t know what is holding me back. fear, unpredictability, lack of goal thing in life, or simply cowardness or laziness. or a little of everything. i am not depressed. that is clear. i am not sad. that is clear too. i am like a ship in the middle of sea. with a dead engine, floating and floating with nowhere to go. that’s it. so in sum. i isolated myself to a whole lot of world. and thank god the ship (me) has not sank yet. i am just ranting, but psychological/ psychiatric help (in terms of replies/ comments) will be very much appreciated. cause i don’t have enough money to ask for professional help. since i don’t go out anymore, so i have no money. answers that i should go out and see the world is quite obvious. i know that. my mother and family have bombarded me with words of encouragement/wisdom. but i feel like i am just an addict to sloth (lust, gluttony, pride included) that i need a rehab to go to, but where, what? it is hard to be an addict for something. posted this anon cause i am not much proud of the state i am currently in. state that i don’t want to be anymore. so please help me. and oh btw, i don’t like to wake up early in the morning. all i want to do is lie in bed and sleep looong. like round the clock sleep for 10-12 hours a day.

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Time spent wasted is not a wasted time?! upon hearing that tagline, i could immediately relate. i want to believe that. that the two years i spent wasting (if that is really wasting) is not a wasted time. to tell you a little background about my so called wasted time/ life maybe, i am here at home with my family, particularly with my dear mother. i don’t go to work often, don’t socialize anymore, in short - i don’t live a much exciting life anymore. could i be blamed? should i be blamed? i love my mother dearly, and the time i spent with her is really priceless. beyond compare. she is the only parent i’ve got. and she is 70. but then again, i feel that i could have done more. i should have not live a recluse/ couch potato/ lazy life (because that is really my life now.) i don’t know what is holding me back. fear, unpredictability, lack of goal thing in life, or simply cowardness or laziness. or a little of everything. i am not depressed. that is clear. i am not sad. that is clear too. i am like a ship in the middle of sea. with a dead engine, floating and floating with nowhere to go. that’s it. so in sum. i isolated myself to a whole lot of world. and thank god the ship (me) has not sank yet. i am just ranting, but psychologigal/ psychiatric help (in terms of replies/ comments) will be very much appreciated. cause i don’t have enough money to ask for professional help. since i don’t go out, so i have no money. answers that i should go out and see the world is quite obvious. i know that. my mother and family have bombarded me with words of encouragement/wisdom. i feel like i am just an addict to sloth (lust, gluttony, pride included) that i need a rehab to go to, but where, what? posted this anon cause i am not much proud of the state i am currently in. state that i don’t want to be anymore. so please help me.

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Barbyman offline Verified User (2 years, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 4 weeks ago (35 minutes after post)

well okei i guess I’m talking to a Men.here it is my site i loved my Mother very,very much but i could not face her if i would be a lazy Couch Bum.I always tried to make it in Life.Make my Mother proud.she would help me anyway she could ,but she would never allow me just sitting and eating and sleeping.Sad that she never seen me succeed in what i always wanted to and that was to make it in Music.I have done My first CD last Year hope in April- May releasing my second CD being busy like never before and would have made my Mother proud .So get up of your A$$$ and do make your Mother proud.barbyman.com.By the way i need an Agent in the Philippines to sell my CD s

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 4 weeks ago (56 minutes after post)

Since this post has no reply, let me just try this one. Hhmmnn, well your problem basically is you’re a lazy pig sloth. Well pigs are suppose to be sloth, couch potato, in short - lazy! Which you are too! But you are not a pig, you are a human. So you cannot just expect others to just feed you and eventually kill you in the long run for meat. You have to work your way to have something to eat (for the very least.) You cannot rely for others to feed you and deliver your needs, you have to remove your butt away from bed, sofa, chair or whatever you are lying/ sitting to, and start to really work and earn a living. I hope you are little enlightened. Not unless you believe in cannibalism.

Next, your mother. Your mother and your life are not intertwined, not synonymous. Yes you did came from her, but then again you and her are totally different people. That’s why I cannot basically refer you and her as theirs/ them/ they. Or on the other hand, maybe you are just using her as an excuse for whatever it is that you suppose to do. You only have one life to live. Others believe in reincarnation, but basically what we have now proven and tested is that we only have one life to live. So if you spent your one life sleeping, eating and resting, that would be a one sure wasted life! A pig’s life is even more worthy cause in the long run we humans can eat its meat.

Why don’t you assess everything in yourself. Your goals, dreams, priorities, personalities, things you want to achieve, your achievements and accomplishments too. A real life-assessment would help you know your life. Knowing others life is really not necessary/ can be gleaned as superfluous. But knowing one’s life is essential. In life they say, know what you want and where you want to go, for you to be able to get/ achieve it. And for you to be able to reach it.

I have heard/read somewhere that an act done three weeks straight will be formed into a habit. So why not try to do good for three weeks straight and see what it will do to you. Go to bed early, say before 11 pm. Wake up at around before 7 am. Go to work. Motivate yourself to work properly. Achieve targets/ expectations. Exceed yourself in the long run. As for your fears or whatever hindrance you are thinking, those are crap! Be brave and adult enough to face the consequences of your actions, both good and bad. The time you spent sloth-ing is a time really spent wasting. That is for sure. For the temporary rest/ sleep you had, you exchanged golden opportunities in your life. So persevere still. Be patient. Work hard cause reality is, life is really hard.

So long that somebody else had replied! :p

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 9 minutes after post)

Barbyman wrote:
well okei i guess I’m talking to a Men.here it is my site i loved my Mother very,very much but i could not face her if i would be a lazy Couch Bum.I always tried to make it in Life.Make my Mother proud.she would help me anyway she could ,but she would never allow me just sitting and eating and sleeping.Sad that she never seen me succeed in what i always wanted to and that was to make it in Music.I have done My first CD last Year hope in April- May releasing my second CD being busy like never before and would have made my Mother proud .So get up of your A$$$ and do make your Mother proud.barbyman.com.By the way i need an Agent in the Philippines to sell my CD s

what cd’s are you a singer?

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An Unknown Location | 10 months, 4 weeks ago (2 hours, 7 minutes after post)

okei go to barbyman.com

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 4 weeks ago (2 hours, 32 minutes after post)

Barbyman wrote:
okei go to barbyman.com

okei!

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Fritwell, K2, GB | 10 months, 4 weeks ago (2 hours, 39 minutes after post)

Start small, just step out side your house today and look around take in some of the things you may be missing then think about the things beyond your street that you may be missing, so tomorrow walk to the end of your street and keep doing that untill you have walked around the block, this will also give you time to think about your life and the way you want it to go.
Your mother that you admire so much would not have given birth to you wanting you to do this with your life she would have had dreams for you so while you are walking think about what dreams she may have had for you and what dreams you had for yourself when you were younger if you don’t know how to make that happen give me a shout or write another post and we could all work it our together

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 4 weeks ago (5 hours, 43 minutes after post)

Okay, here is the game plan Anon! First, set one goal, make is easy to obtain. Like, walk three days in a row for 20 minutes. After accomplishing that goal, set another one. Make them easy to obtain.

What will this do? It will make you realize how much fun it is to set goals and accomplish them. And by doing this, you get back your self-esteem.

Everyone has to fill worthy. And, you accomplish this by setting goals and achieving them. DO NOT set your goals too high. AGAIN, DO NOT set your goals too high.

Eventually, before you realize it, you are happy and productive again!

Please, please, keep us posted.

We love you and we are pulling for you my friend!

Cotton

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (8 hours, 27 minutes after post)

Yeah Okei, sent out request on this one also…this poster is sincere with their problems.

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (8 hours, 29 minutes after post)

I see you have a lot of the symptoms of depression. Although you do not have the sadness, I still believe you can have depression. You want to sleep a lot, you have lost a desire for social interaction, You have no motivation and you are not happy with yourself.

I have depression and do not always have the sadness. I have more of a numbness of emotions. I get to where I do not really feel anything. I call it being blaaa.

I am going to look for a depression test that I use to keep track of my depression. Once I find it I will give you the link so you can try it.

I just feel you are in a mild depression. That is lasting a long time. There is a term for it, it is dysthymia.

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Rotech927 offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 7 #
An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (8 hours, 32 minutes after post)

Yeah Babacup, can relate with your comments, especially in the winter time. Never been a good winter boy!

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (8 hours, 32 minutes after post)

http://www.eomniform.com/servlet/Fill…

Here is the link. It has three different check list. The one I am talking about is the first one. Let us know what you score.

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (8 hours, 36 minutes after post)

RamblingMan wrote:
Yeah Babacup, can relate with your comments, especially in the winter time. Never been a good winter boy!

Yeh, it has hit me pretty hard this winter. Working on pulling my self out of it. I have a rule that if it last more then two weeks I go see a doctor, this time I did not follow that rule and I got worse then I usually do. But I am doing much better now, but not back to 100%.

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (8 hours, 42 minutes after post)

http://www.eomniform.com/servlet/Fill…

I like this test better. The scoring gives you a better range of where you are at.

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (8 hours, 43 minutes after post)

Although I have been invited by two other members, it looks like a worthles venture to try to help.
It looks like the poster has just put this here fore the heck of it. Or perhaps he has got that lazy, he forgot it is here.
Perhaps he is that fed up of life as he lives it, makes him not care at all about anything.
This is depression. He sleeps for 10 to 12 hours a day, that is caused by depression, it looks like.
Many of us have been where you are, some of us have fought it and won. Some of us are still fighting it. we still battle on. the only ones who dont win in the end, are those that dont want to.
We are probably a good bet to be able to help you. So come and talk to us about it.

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Fritwell, K2, GB | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (8 hours, 47 minutes after post)

Some people may post and read the answers without actually joining the site, you can’t answer if you are not a member, I done that before I realised that I need to join the site, just because they are now answering does not mean they are not reading

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (9 hours, 4 minutes after post)

Well you cant make a post untill you register. you then have 24 hours to use the website, for making posts. If you dont confirm the e-mail sent to you from here, within that twenty four hour period, your account is closed. So the person can reply.

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (9 hours, 5 minutes after post)

Unverified users do it all of the time.

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (9 hours, 6 minutes after post)

And if you can make a post, you are able to answer peoples replies.

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (9 hours, 7 minutes after post)

I like your analogy to the ship in the water. I often use the same analogy, except that my ship is not a motor boat. My ship is a great sailing vessel. And our life is like such a ship. The great sailing vessels of old needed two things to navigate safely across ‘the ocean of life’; wind and a rudder. In our lives, our wind is passion, and the helmsman is reason. Without wind (passion) our ships cannot move forward. They will, as you say, simply flounder on the sea, going where ever the currents carry them. On the other hand if you have passion, yet you have no helmsman (reason) you will soar along in a straight line until you come crashing against the reef. You MUST have both passion and reason to navigate the ocean of life.

Dear poster… you lack passion. So I ask you now, what are you passionate about? What is it that will draw you off the couch and into life? What will pull you forward. “The only difference between a rut and a grave, are the dimensions” (anon)

Bright blessings ~ Richard
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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (9 hours, 7 minutes after post)

Babacup, my score was okay..no depression…just bored out of mind…

Thep, confused…did not recieve an email…

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (9 hours, 8 minutes after post)

Oh, you guys are taking about the poster…gotcha!

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (9 hours, 15 minutes after post)

Sounds like you are stuck in the duldrums, just as most have said. You can pick yourself up out of it if you apply yourself. Only you can kick yourself in the ars effectively lol. Otherwise I would suggest seeing a doc about depression, that would be last resort though in my opinion, then you’ll get stuck on meds and that’s only a bandaid.

Has anything happened that would significantly put you into this mindset? Examine yourself, your past, your thoughts and try to gain insight into why you are feeling this way. These are powerful tools to getting out of a rut. Seek out positives, set goals and reward yourself. You can do anything you set your mind to and don’t feel guilty, we all have our struggles from time to time, who are we to judge?

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An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (9 hours, 20 minutes after post)

I haven’t read all the posts but here’s my take:

Time spent with your mother is not wasted. Too many people these days do not honor their parents as they should. After all, who carried us for 9 months before birth, then cared for us when we were helpless? (I know there are exceptions to that.)

At the same time, you do need your own social life. Find a balance between spending time with your mother and having time for yourself. Try to step out slowly. Find something you are comfortable with and try to go a little farther each time. Make some new friends. Broader horizons always makes life more interesting.

Best wishes!

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10 months, 3 weeks ago (9 hours, 27 minutes after post)

“posted this anon cause i am not much proud of the state i am currently in. state that i don’t want to be anymore. so please help me.”

i am still here. i am a verified member here for goodness sake, it’s just that i am so ashamed of who i am now, and the state i am currently in that i don’t want to tell you who i am. i know the answers i suppose, it is just i am no longer happy/ is fearful to act upon it.

and yes, i am reading all your posts, thank you very much. on the onset, i thought that nobody could actually help me, but special thanks to those who continually invite others to somehow reply/comment here and help me. you may find me weird too.

idk. tomorrow is another day. i have to get up and work. i have to simply get up, get my *** off the bed and couch and really, really work. yet, i have failed for the last six months. idk if i will succeed tomorrow.

depressed? maybe. though i struggle to ward off that nagging feeling of depression, i could actually be just depressed. i want to think that i am ok. that i will be ok. but then again, when you feel that all else is gone, and don’t know how/ where to start anymore, and fear starts to creep in and you don’t want to move/ act anymore.

i really want to have a good cry. to let it out. to let out the pain/ disappointment/ nagging feeling of unworthiness and un-accomplished life. but even that i cannot do. eyes may get teary, yes, but still i cannot simply let a good cry. and idk why. i just let it all passed. i just let my time. my life passed. and yes this is pitiful.

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Richard Cor de Lyon offline Verified User (2 years, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 20 #
An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (9 hours, 35 minutes after post)

courage is not always the man that rushes into a burning building to rescue someone… sometimes courage is the soft voice that says with sigh, “I’ll try again tomorrow”.

Your value is much more than you realize. You can rediscover a passion, you can move forward. If what you’re doing now is not working for you… do something different.

Remember; Most things are easier said than done…. but NOTHING is done if not first said.

Bright blessings ~ Richard

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (9 hours, 37 minutes after post)

Well it looks like you are trying your best to get out of the situation, that has managed to suround you.
If you can make any effort to get yourself out of it, that is the best way to fight it.
Forcing yourself to do the things you used to do is not easy at all. It will take time and much effort to do it.
Do it a bit at a time though, dont push yourself to hard. You realize you have a problem. You must realize you dont have to keep it with you.
You are not pitiful, you are much stronger than that, you seek help, that took effort on your part. You are here talking to us, that took courage and even more effort.
That is fighting it, not being pitiful.

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10 months, 3 weeks ago (9 hours, 49 minutes after post)

“I’ll try again tomorrow”.
You are not pitiful, you are much stronger than that, you seek help, that took effort on your part. You are here talking to us, that took courage and even more effort.

those words had actually brought tears to my eyes. thank you very much. i wish i could do justice to ur kind words/ advice. i really, really hope that i could do justice on that and not waste your time/ care. idk where to start. i am so down, i’ve done so many mistakes idk if i can still do something abt it. i could be jobless, i could be obese soon. i am losing hair, losing motivation, losing myself slowly. i’ve lost my friends, they got tired of waiting. i lost my could be romances. i don’t know if i decided a matter rightly. i went back to school 2002. graduated 2007. but now when i have sufficient time to be w/ them. the people i left w/ are no longer there. some married, some gone abroad, some had their own life to live. and me, wat had it brought me. yah i had d degree, yah i passed the exams. yet wat now, wat then, wat will happen now. idk. idk. i have so many regrets in the past that i don’t want to look into anymore. idk where that leaves me. many thanks to all of you. i truly appreciate help.com now more than ever. i might go to sleep now cause it is one a.m. here. thank you all of you. you sure had helped me realized it all. the one thing i don’t want to do is to think of it again, and at least, tears are starting to shed now.

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (9 hours, 52 minutes after post)

Yes tomorrow is another day, make the most of it. Get up early say between eight and nine.
Clean the house do somthing in the garden for half an hour, even if its just to get some outdoor air anything to start making your days different and more rewarding. I know and so do you. You can make it different.

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (9 hours, 57 minutes after post)

I’d like to share my book with you. A little easy thing to read, to help remind us of our perspective and choices. You can find out more about it by going here: http://www.greenmancoaching.com/FreeB…

Bright blessings ~ Richard

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Fritwell, K2, GB | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (10 hours, 2 minutes after post)

thep wrote:
And if you can make a post, you are able to answer peoples replies.

When I first came across the site, a while ago, I posted and I wasn’t a member stuck in my e mail address and people started answering my post I couldn’t answer them back and they were accusing me of lying so I registered to stick up for myself so i have assumed all this time that people do that, woops maybe it’s changed

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (11 hours, 18 minutes after post)

You have low self Esteem Id say and depression, when you lay in bed 12hrs a day and think you have nothing to get out for then its depression.
The brain is a powerful tool Anon, Ive said it many times on here, you have to use it in a positive fashion, its like a computer, what you put into it is what it will spew out.
Put it this way, if you plant a lemon seed, you wont get a watermelon will you ? you have to set your mind to being somebody worthwhile, “I’m going to get a job” “I’m going to make the effort to meet People” “I’m going to change my life for the better!” I hate to think you are staying with your 70yr old mother and she is supporting you ? if it were me, that is something I wouldn’t feel proud about.Your mothers job of looking after you was over when you reached Adulthood, In the real world, we go out get jobs and become mature adults,we have homes of our own and claim our own dependency. Take a moment to imagine how your Mother feels ? yes she loves you of course she does, it comes with the territory of the word “Mother” but don’t you think she would like to go to her grave knowing she has a son that can support himself and make it in the world ? Im sorry if I shoot from the hip here, but if your mother is 70, you are possibly a man in his 40s or 50s at least ?
Basically your a man that is becoming obese thanks to the funding and financial security of a 70yr old mother, who is in her twilight years and trying to manage on very little income.
I guess if you dont want to change this and feel proud then that’s the way its going to be, Me? Id get off my fat A rse and help support the woman that has enabled me this lazy life for years, before she heads to her grave. Sorry to be direct, but you need to change this, and only you can make the changes.

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (11 hours, 41 minutes after post)

You are at a turning point right now. You have reached out and talked about your problems. That is hard to do and you did it. You see there is a problem and that is good. You first have to be aware there is a problem before you can fix it.

I agree with the advise of the others - take small steps. Make one small goal a day. Then work yourself to accomplishing more things in a day. This did not happen to you over night and it will take sometime to get back.

Keep talking to us here. Let us support you in any way we can.

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An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (12 hours, 4 minutes after post)

Hello Anon. Has the mortality of your mother been playing on your mind lately? I have an idea that it has. Is this in turn made you think about your life.
You are showing classic symptoms of depression with in your writing. If you don’t wish to visit your Dr might I suggest that you try to tweak your diet to see if new foods have a positive effect on you.

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (12 hours, 59 minutes after post)

Anon, please go back to my original post and try it…

Good luck and keep us posted…

And, never be ashamed of being in a “bad fix!” My friend, we have ALL been there…

Take care..and HUGS!!!!!!!!!! uh, assuming you are a lady, but if not, a good firm handshake….loll.

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (13 hours, 48 minutes after post)

Some people might call this a wasted time, but I call it time worth living:)

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10 months, 3 weeks ago (21 hours, 32 minutes after post)

Sasha101 wrote:
You have low self Esteem Id say and depression, when you lay in bed 12hrs a day and think you have nothing to get out for then its depression.
The brain is a powerful tool Anon, Ive said it many times on here, you have to use it in a positive fashion, its like a computer, what you put into it is what it will spew out.
Put it this way, if you plant a lemon seed, you wont get a watermelon will you ? you have to set your mind to being somebody worthwhile, “I’m going to get a job” “I’m going to make the effort to meet People” “I’m going to change my life for the better!” I hate to think you are staying with your 70yr old mother and she is supporting you ? if it were me, that is something I wouldn’t feel proud about.Your mothers job of looking after you was over when you reached Adulthood, In the real world, we go out get jobs and become mature adults,we have homes of our own and claim our own dependency. Take a moment to imagine how your Mother feels ? yes she loves you of course she does, it comes with the territory of the word “Mother” but don’t you think she would like to go to her grave knowing she has a son that can support himself and make it in the world ? Im sorry if I shoot from the hip here, but if your mother is 70, you are possibly a man in his 40s or 50s at least ?
Basically your a man that is becoming obese thanks to the funding and financial security of a 70yr old mother, who is in her twilight years and trying to manage on very little income.
I guess if you dont want to change this and feel proud then that’s the way its going to be, Me? Id get off my fat A rse and help support the woman that has enabled me this lazy life for years, before she heads to her grave. Sorry to be direct, but you need to change this, and only you can make the changes.

just to clear some things, i am in my 20’s. i am a menopause baby. i am her only daughter. next i have a job. been w/ my job for the last seven years. my mother is not supporting me. it is the other way around. but yes, right now i know, that she is not too proud of me. would it help if i tell u that i am a professional. i had passed two licensure exams. idk if i am tired, i lacked the goal thing in life, idk wat to do but it all summed up to bring me into this kind of pitiful state, w/c i truly, truly hate. i had a little savings too. enough for a maintenance for a year or two maybe. i was a working student before. i am not much of a help right now to her (save for the basic commodities at home.) but i am not much of a loser either. but if this depression/ low-self esteem might continue, whatever little i have now will eventually lose. idk. that’s why i am here. to seek help. these all started july last year. and now is another year. i am hopeful, yet i am also tired, knowing that i havent use wat God given talents and blessings i have. and i am in a cross road where idk wat to do. and the thing is id want to move either.

but i really appreciate all your kind words/ advices and encouragement. thank you very much for the time, effort, care, and help extended. thank you really.

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 7 hours after post)

looking at you last reply, It looks like you have a lot to be proud of. You have accomplished a lot in life already. I think the depression is making you view your situation as worse then it is. (that is what depression does) I am going to find one of my old replies that list the types of depression thinking. That way you can look and see if your thoughts are similar.

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10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 7 hours after post)

thanks babacup! thanks so much for you empathy/ concern. being in a depressed state made me researched on what depression is all about. and i read that depression could also affect our thinking, our brain. that tragedies could really have a negative/ adverse effect on our brains. that might explain why sometimes, the feelings are recurring and talking/ writing it out seem not to solve it wholly. but i should do something about it. hopefully =)

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 8 hours after post)

Summery of the 8 types of thinking.
1. Always/never thinking : Thinking in words like always, never, no one, everyone, every time,
everything
2. Focusing on the negative: seeing only the bad in a situation
3. Fortune-telling: predicting the worst possible outcome to a situation
4. Mind reading: believing that you know what others are thinking , even though they haven’t told
you.
5. THinking with your feelings: believing negative feelings without ever questioning them
6. Guilt beating: thinking in words like should, must, ought, or have to
7. Labeling: attaching a negative label to yourself or to someone else
8. Personalizing: investing innocuous events with personal meaning.
9. Blaming: blaming someone else for your problems
If you catch these thoughts the moment they occur and correct them, you take away the power they have over you. It comes naturally for me now. I always think in the positive. If a negative thought crosses my mind I challenge it.
I understand that you mind and your feelings are not in sync right now. You are going to know things in your mind but your feelings are trying to tell you differently. With depression you need to listen to your mind.
The only time I listen to my feeling first is when I get the “this person is not safe” warning. They can be nice as can be and my mind sees no cause for alarm. But if my “gut” feeling is do not let this person around your children. Then I listen to the gut feeling. That one I trust.
Do you see that you use these types of thoughts alot? and if you do not understand any of them, I can explain them for you. To me it makes sense but it is not the first time I heard them. And I put the short versions.

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 8 hours after post)

sorry, it took a long time to find that, I probably could have found the book quicker and retyped it. If you have any question, feel free to ask.

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10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 8 hours after post)

thanks so much babacup! it’s not a long time. yah i have feelings similar to that plus i tend to be afraid/ fearful nowadays, and that i always tend to look past events in my life, that if i could have decided differently, maybe my destiny/ path could be a lot more different than what i have now. and i tend to compare myself with others, w/c is driving me really crazy and all. to sum it up, i have my fair share of losses that all i want to do is hide at home, stop socializing, and give up on whatever it is life has yet to offer me

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 8 hours after post)

Anonymous wrote:
i always tend to look past events in my life, that if i could have decided differently, maybe my destiny/ path could be a lot more different than what i have now.

You can’t change the past, only the present. So do not let you mind dwell on those thinks that you can do nothing about. Don’t give up on the future, you can create a wonderful life for yourself.

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10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 8 hours after post)

thanks babacup! i really hope so. i know it is futile, but most often than not i feel like i am on the verge of giving up. things are driving me crazy at times, especially when there is a lot of thinking to do. and yah, feelings and thinking don’t often jive. rational thinking tells me to fight and go for my life, my negative feelings let me wallow in self-pity, despair and lack of motivation/ goal in life, and let me just hide in my house, like in a cave. i wish in a snap i could be a better me, but i guess it really takes some time to find the good old me back, and back to my own two feet again. to really get out and see the world, cause there’s such a lot of world to see.

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 8 hours after post)

Here are some positive affirmations that I say to myself. Even during those times that I do not believe they are true.
I am confident.
I am beautiful inside an out.
I am strong.
I am love.
I am powerful.
I am worthy of happiness.
You can use the words “I am” and say what it is you want to be. loved, a good friend, happy,ect…
What ever feels right for you. Just do not let you thoughts make it something negative. (which it will try to do) You can learn to take control of the negative thoughts, it does take time and work.

I have to get off here right now, I have a lot to get done today. I will check back this evening.
You can really get through this. I will help all that I can, but learning about depression is a great start.

I look at it like this. If I was diabetic, I would have to learn how to live with it. (adjust my eating, take meds, see doctors ect…) I have depression and I have to learn how to live with it. (adjust my thinking, take med, see doctors ect…)

I look back on my life (before I knew about the depression) and see what a lost person I was. I was so blocked by the depression, that I did not even know who I was. Now I am happy and have a wonderful life. The depression does come on strong somethings and I have to struggles through it but it does not last long, because I know how do deal with it better.

You will get here too. Just don’t give up.

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10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 8 hours after post)

how did you cope with your depression. i don’t want to take up meds, but sometimes talking/ writing would not bring speedy help at all

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10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 8 hours after post)

when feelings are too strong, and lack of motivation in life is recurring/ persistent.
thank you babacup for everything. you sure know what you are talking about.

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 9 hours after post)

Let me tell you how my depression was described to me.

First picture a piece of lined writing paper.
Now draw a line across the middle of it. Left to right.
That line represent the normal emotional base line.
Every thing above that line is the realm of happy emotions. (joy, pleased, proud,excited, ect…)
Everything below that line is in the realm of unhappy emotions (sadness, fear, anger, ect..)

My emotional base line is about an inch below that of normal. So I am normaly in the realm of unhappy emotions. (this is due to the fact that my body(brain) does not produce the correct Chemicals)

So when something good happens, I move up to about normal. I do not feel those good emotions.
When something that bad happens that would make make most people drop to about an inch below normal, I drop to two inches below normal. Then because of my lack of chemicals, I get stuck there because there is not enough chemicals to bring me back to my normal (1inch below normal)

Does that make since to you? It is hard to explain without showing you on a piece of paper.

Any way the reason I told you all that is that with out me taking the meds. it would have been harder for me to firgure out how to deal with the depression with out them. I no longer take meds and use positive thinking and spirituality to keep me out of dropping so low.

I’ll write more in a minute.

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 9 hours after post)

I am searching for a web site that I saw before that has some things to help you cope during those real hard times.

For me it is hard to remember what I did in the beginning when I was dealing with the depression for the first time. Now I challenge all negative thoughts, say positive affirmations, list (in my thoughts) the things I am thankful for and say prayers. I do not know what you spiritual beliefs are, but that helps me.

Let me keep looking for that website for you. I am going to check one of my old post that I think I might of put a link to it on.

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 9 hours after post)

http://www.m-a-h.net/article-selfnurt…
http://www.m-a-h.net/article-healing….

These are links that are on a website for people dealing with healing from abuse. But The most of the suggestions are also helpful for depression.

Let me ask you, is there is abuse in you past that you may be needing to deal with?

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An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 9 hours after post)

Anonymous wrote:
how did you cope with your depression. i don’t want to take up meds, but sometimes talking/ writing would not bring speedy help at all

I control mine by eating a specialist diet. Foods that help to stave off depression.

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (2 days, 13 hours after post)

How are you today?

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10 months, 3 weeks ago (3 days, 11 hours after post)

hello babacup! thanks for asking, hmmmmm. quite ok today, i exercised, walk six times around our village (abt 2 hours) before that i cleaned our garden (my sort of warm up exercise :p) sweating is indeed wonderful. releases energy i thought long gone. it is my firm resolve now to set a goal in my “blessed” life, and the first thing is to really lose weight. i weigh 85 kilos now, 5′6″ in height. i guess i am now obese w/ that. could u (anybody reading this) suggest a healthy diet/ meal. all i can think of is oats, crackers, water and veggies/ fruits. i really love to eat rice (viand and all) i am thinking of other healthy alternative. next goal babacup is to learn to drive. also, i would just be more harworking at work. hopefully i can all do that. thanks for your patient and i really pray that i can do all that/ achieve more so at least i can give justice to your kind words/ advices (to all of u!) thanks again

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Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (3 days, 11 hours after post)

My goal right now is to eat healthier and exercise more. I am walking about every other day and then on the days between I am doing body firming exercises. I do not need to loose much weight, maybe 10lbs which is about 5 kilos. I just want to look my best, with having three children, I just need some firming up.

I am only changing my diet slightly. I am cutting out sweets that I love so much. And replacing those with healthier snacks like yogurt and granola bars. I am eating my other meals as normal. I eat pretty healthy as it is. Whole grain cereals or oat meal for breakfast. For lunch I usually eat a salad or what ever was left from dinner the night before. Dinners is usually a meat, vegetable, and either rice or potato. I eat a lot of rice too. I do not know what viand is.

You are definitely sounding good today. And you got out and did a lot yesterday. I think you are looking at having a great year. Keep it up.

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babacup offline Verified User (1 year, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 14 #
Indianapolis, IN, US | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (3 days, 12 hours after post)

Oh yeah, drink more water too.

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