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Is it possible for you to go to any doctor (ie family doctor)? They could give you a referral.
If I were to go to a family doctor my parents would know. My mom is in charge of all the medical stuff because she’s the one that works at a hospital.
He doesn’t want his parents to find out though. A doctor may be an option, but not the family doctor, if he wants it to be private.
If you don’t have much money for a counselor, then I’m afraid there aren’t that many options. The only option you really have is the school counselor.
Unless you are willing to post more up here. I’ll help you if you can be a little more specific. I understand if you don’t want therapy over the internet - too impersonal - but your options may be limited.
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I’m a she, lol. I wouldn’t mind taking help over the internet, thats perfectly fine with me. I don’t want to go to my school counsler because my school is so large, they would have my parents intervien.
Sorry, I didn’t know you were a girl. :P
Yes, that is the trouble with school counselors - nothing is kept personal. I wouldn’t use them for my life. But I’m all about privacy. Things don’t work when there’s no trust …
So, if you’re willing to accept help here, give me some minor details. I know you’re a girl, early years in high school, and have had suicidal thoughts.
Now let’s get what I don’t know. How long have you had these thoughts? Do they appear without reason? Are you bullied at school? Do you think they come from depression or any kind of insecurities? Do you believe in any kind of God?
We’ll go from there.
I’ve had the thoughts since my Freshman year, yeah I know the freshmen year the hardest but they were really brought upon by my parents, they went away last year and things were good. My dad moved away and then moved back and now things have all gone to hell. I’m not bullied at school, I like to think I’m well known but not for being the brainiac or the ****, but just for being me and getting along with people. I have many inseurities, and I think that I may have depression, but I don’t know.
Okay, how often do these thoughts occur? Do you think your dad returning sent things to hell, or did it simply start after he returned? When you meet up with friends, are you normally the one to start the conversations, or do you mostly listen and reply? What sort of insecurities do you have? Do you ever have times where you simply can’t get out of bed?
They occur when Im around my parents, as if I’m not good enough for them. When he was here things were bad and I mean really bad, when he was gone they were good, me my sister and my brother all told him not to come home but he insisted. Most of the time we’ll all just start random conversations, school is my getaway especially now that I’m iin high school. I’m always afraid that people wont like me, I try to please other people instead of my self. Yes there are days when I just want to lay in bed, but I can’t.
So it sounds like you are having trouble with your father, is he treating you well?
How do you feel about your mum? What things does your dad do that make you not want to see him? So do you just listen and try to get along with people, or start up the conversations?
Do you think 63 is a big number? What about 87? Do you prefer cats or dogs? Why? Where do you feel safest, alone or with a group of people? Why?
My dad is an *******, out of the three kids I’m the one he chooses to pick on. My mom was good, but recently since my sister turned 18 like 5 days ago every responsability has fallen on me, I had no warning at all. I’m an animal lover so I prefer both. 63 is big number but 87 is even bigger. Sometimes I feel safest in my room with music playing and a good book, I love to get lost in books and hope my life will turn out like that but knowing it never will. When I’m with my friends I’m in heaven my friends are a second family to me.
You still haven’t answered my question about starting the conversations, and that is very important.
When you lose yourself in books, do you see yourself as one of the existing characters, another character in the story, or just see it as is written?
I start conversations, I used to be very shy but slowly broke out. I picture myself as a character in the book. Recently I read a book called “How To Be Popular” by Meg Cabot, and the girl wanted to be popular for the guy but ended up falling for her bestfriend.
Okay, what character do you normally see yourself as in the books? The main character? The friend?
The main character, in my family my sister is the fav, being the oldest and all. The only people I know that treated us equally were my grandparents but they no longer live in the same state. All my life Ive had to do certain things to get attention, I was always the wild child.
Hmm … okay. Do you feel that you need to do things to get attention, as attention is normally focused on your siblings? Or just because you are not noticed as much as you think you should to be fair?
Well i don’t really know, I mainly fade into the background at home, but at school i’m good i’m me and thats good enough but at home its like its not good enough
Does your dad ever hurt you, or do you just don’t get along?
There has been only one time when he physically hurt me. I was in the sevethgrade. He does mental crap, always calling my stupid and telling me that i need to get my head out of my a$$ and that i’m a dumb sh!t
Hmm … which do you consider the best day, and the worst day, of your life?
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What do you mean which do I consider?
I mean what two days of your life do you think were your best and your worst, respectively, and why?
Well so far I love the day that my dad moved to Colorado, and the worst was a fight him and my mom got into on my birthday, he almost hit her.
Do you feel your dad has a certain control over your life?
Yes my dad is very controlling, after he left fro Colorado my mom started doing things with her friends and going out, and now that hes back he wants her to drop everything and do what ever he wants and when she wont do it he went after my older sister trying to make ehr do what he wanted before she turned 18 but its too late for that her birthday was the fourth. Now its going to be tuned onto me.
What do you believe therapy can do for you in your situation now?
What set you on to wanting it in your situation?
I just want someone to talk to that wont tell me that I need to do this or I need to do that. I just want someone to talk to that doesnt know my family, that has never even heard of them, so i can just get out what I feel without having to feel bad that it will get to them.
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