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I know its been said before but I feel dead inside.

I don’t know why. I know I’m suppost to find happyness but I stopped believing its real. I don’t know if I’ll ever find what makes me happy. I feel like I’m going through life mindlessly and hoping for something to make me feel alive. but its not there.
I’m 20 years old, I have had 3 open heart surgerys, I move form california to oklahoma. I have gone to school for computer repair and have a job in it but I hate it. I hate my career choice. so I want to change it, but to what I don’t know.

I have thought about joining the army, I’ve been told I can join, but I don’t know if thats the right place for me. or if there is a right place. I mean i listen to alot of anti war music which is the irony. I feel like I would be traitor to the music I listen too.
My Friend plays guitar and wants me to play drums in his band but we can never practice due the work and school and he wants me to wait until summer when he gets a house and we can play anytime. I want to but I don’t know if its going to work. I want it to work though.

what should I do? wait for the band or join the army?

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hannahx12 offline Verified User (10 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (12 minutes after post)

u should do wat yrr gut tells u to do or wat yrr instincts tell u to do. part of life is experimenting. joing a band sounds like fun it’s worth a shot if u dont like it join the army see if u like that better or even if u change yrr mind

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An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (14 minutes after post)

To me, it sounds like you want to figure yourself out - what you want, what you like, what is it that will capture your mind - happiness in other words. I would have to say to wait for the band. I know a few months might sound like a lot, but committing two to six years of your life to the armed forces…? I’m not saying that I oppose the military - in fact, I hold them in great esteem because they are willing to do the things I am not - It’s just that you won’t have the freedom being in the Army. Unless your heart is set on it. Besides, if the band doesn’t work out, you can still go where ever you want…

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An Unknown Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (3 weeks, 3 days after post)

u should look at the armys different job titles and pick one that u think is best for u after analyzing it

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