i am really tempted to stop eating again.
for several months last year, i restricted myself to 300 calories or less, usually favoring a few saltines and a multivitamin. i am 4′11′’, nearly 5′0′’, and i weighed 90 pounds. by some, that’s underweight, by others, it’s not. whatever. but now, i am pushing 120 pounds.
it freaks me out because there doesn’t seem to be much i can do about it. i exercise, and i eat healthy. it’s my medication, lithium, and it has been messing with my thyroid for months. it’s a safety issue to stop taking it. i have tried many, many different medications, and this is the only one that works. my parents are against me trying other ones in the same class because they apparently cause more severe problems to the body. so i guess i should be grateful, but it’s hard.
it is quite depressing for me to deal with this weight gain. most of it i gained back in the past two or three months. i don’t want to add this to the platter of things i am required to work in therapy. i don’t know how to cope with this situation. there seems to be no way out. it really kills me.
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