suicide help: You know, I’ve started cutting again.

dyingtobethin1

You know, I’ve started cutting again.

Not that I stopped. Well..For a small period of time, because my razor (I’m too attached to it to throw it out) broke into 3 pieces. But my friend Quinn (who is not the best influence on me, btw. She drinks, smokes pot and ciggeretts, steals, and loves sex..even tho she’s only 14.) spent the night over the weekend. I was getting really irritated because she wanted me to steal my mom’s ciggerettes, my dad’s beer..Yeah. Then in the morning we went outside because it was warmer than it had been in awhile, plus..she wanted to smoke. Anyways, we were walking down the road, when the hardware store appeared. We went inside because as we walked, we realized it was colder than we thought. As we were walking around, making fun of the various objects we saw, she spotted a 100 pack of razors. I had already seen it, but chose to keep walking because I didn’t want to be tempted. Quinn, however, thinks cutting is awesome, because it gets attention. She bought the pack, and we went back to my house. I never really say anything about her crazy impulses, so I didn’t this time either. She handed me 5 razors before she left. I couldn’t say no, so..Yeah. My legs are too scarred to cut up, the bumps and ridges in my skin make it more painful when I cut. So this time I tried my wrist, which I avoid because I can see my vains, plus it’s too easy to spot. Anyways I made some small cuts, and now I can’t stop. Spring, and summer, are right around the corner. I’ll try to stop, but I need some tips for covering up when I’m lounging around the house, or just mainly wandering with my friends.

For example, Today, I had to wear a heavy coat I don’t even wear outside, because I didn’t want my parents seeing my arm.

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Llama790 3 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (1 minute after post)

i love drinking, im drinking right, theres my face, and theres the rum =D. Im still reading what u wrote.

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Llama790 3 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (4 minutes after post)

cover up! why would u want to cut yourself?

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dyingtobethin1 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (8 minutes after post)

It’s hard to explain. Kind of like..If I can see the cut, and watch it heal, I can describe the pain in that, but not the pain I already feel. Or, I feel like when I watch my blood drip, it’s like all my hate and anger kind of flows out with it. I know it sounds crazy, but that’s me.

Help me with: I’ve started dating this guy on Saturday.

beautifulday 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (8 minutes after post)

dont go along with your friends impulses, if anything, try to stop them. its not healthy for either of you.
and i never understood cutting? yeah, it replaces emotional pain with physical pain for a little bit but i just dont get it?
it definitely doesnt help anything. and you’re allowed to talk to the guidance counselor for help without anyone knowing. try that, and try to stopp.

p.s. the name? “dying-to-be-thin”?
want to elaborate at all…?

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dyingtobethin1 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (11 minutes after post)

Okay, I have some body issues..but not enough to hurt myself over that.
Plus, if you don’t understand cutters..you’ve got the general idea. I did get help. I’m still getting help. But that’s the thing. They don’t know when or if I cut. Their fake smiles and concerned eyes. It’s nothing compared to the tragic feeling I get when I see my blood. I know I’m ****** up. =[

Help me with: I’ve started dating this guy on Saturday.

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Llama790 3 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (15 minutes after post)

ohhhh i know cutters, i was never a cutter but i slashed my wrists right open twice down to the arteries and blook was spewing all over the freaking place, seriously. And i got 2 giant scars but i did that to commit suicide. Cutting and everythings a cry for help and u just need to find that person that is willing to understand you and accept you regardless. Kind of like that unconditional love, that you can talk to about anything and there always more than willing to listen and show some empathy.

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Llama790 3 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (23 minutes after post)

Holy **** your giving me the finger in that pic! And if its any consolidation your a pretty girl, just put down the finger ;( and smile.

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dyingtobethin1 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (27 minutes after post)

Llama790 wrote:
Holy **** your giving me the finger in that pic! And if its any consolidation your a pretty girl, just put down the finger ;( and smile.

lmao, thanks. It’s an old picture, when my friend hated this guy, and she took a pic of me telling him to **** off. I do look a tad bit hilarious, tho, don’t I? =P

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beautifulday 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (42 minutes after post)

yeaah i gotta say its not classyy…funny, but not classy :) haha (the picture, i mean)

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dyingtobethin1 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (51 minutes after post)

Yeah, I know. How did we go from *looking up* drinking, to cutting, to a picture of me telling some dude to fuuck off?

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beautifulday 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (53 minutes after post)

hahahahaha i think its hilarious when these things get so off topic.
p.s. im changing my avatar ! hahaha

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Llama790 3 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (58 minutes after post)

i know ive gone through the same ordeal. I used to be a real goodie good when it came to drinking and smoking and drugs but things went downhill and now i drink like right now and i smoke, like right and i used smoke a reaaaaaly lot of pot. Lifes just like that.

Help me with: I have a Acer aspire one and it will only run on ac power.

Llama790 3 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (58 minutes after post)

real***

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beautifulday 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (1 hour, 2 minutes after post)

i have a good group of friends and a popular group but theyre like the jocks not the kids who think theyre popular cuz they do ****. so i dont know how to respond because all my friends are good kids…i cant relate. i think its stupid that you rely on something thats really unhealthy for you to make you feel better, even when its technically making you mucchhh worse.

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