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I’m scared of myself.

I’m depressed for too long, i cut and feel bad ALL THE TIME. I just don’t know what to do. Nothing helps. Not meds, not shrinks, not relaxing…nothing. I’m scared that i’ll accidentally will kill myself when i cut (again). Plz i need help

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gypsy-corner offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 45 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (11 minutes after post)

Awww hun why are you cutting in the first place? If you are afraid that this is getting out of control you need to tell someone close to you. Maybe your doctor needs to switch your medication. I know how it feels to cut for I do it as well. It get to be addicting but its only a temporary relief dear. I’m here if you need to talk, k?

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elysium offline Verified User (1 year, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 23 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (29 minutes after post)

Even if you think that talking to people doesn’t help, it is always good if you do. At least then, someone knows the stress you are going through and can try to take care of you. Plus, if you don’t talk to people, the emotional stress can build up inside you, which isn’t good.

Do you have any idea on what is making you feel depressed?

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~*Bleeding_Heart*~ offline Verified User (1 year, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 18 minutes after post)

I’m talking to someone once a week, asked to change meds (though nothing happens there yet) and it just doesnt help. I feel like crying but i cant, but i can also feel happy, intensely. i just dunno anymore. I can feel thrilled 1 sec and then suddenly i’m cutting. Already got horrible scars by now and been to the emergency room far too much. I’m also keep all stuff to myself unintentially. Even my shrink didn’t knew how f*cked up i was till he saw me having a huge breakdown infront of him. My depression is there for so long that i dunno anymore how or why its there.

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lostinatoodarkpark offline Verified User (10 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 19 minutes after post)

do you know what caused your depression?
maybe you need to find a better counsellor or psychiatrist?
try to do something you like, talk to a friend

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elysium offline Verified User (1 year, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 23 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 28 minutes after post)

Is there something specific that is stressing you out? Family problems, school/job issues, friends etc. If you can find the source of what is bothering you then you can battle the problem.

Why don’t you try something fun that you haven’t done before. Take your mind of the stresses of life.

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webjeff200 offline Verified User (2 years) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Chicago, IL, US | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (7 hours, 7 minutes after post)

You still have dreams and goal to fulfill do not kill yourself:
http://www.lesbrown.com/million_dolla…

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bookworm16 offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (3 days, 1 hour after post)

Your shrink is there to help you find out how and why you have depression. Just hold on, things will get better :) x

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~*Bleeding_Heart*~ offline Verified User (1 year, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (5 days after post)

Still feel horrible. Dont enjoy enything and hardly leave the house. Rather be in bed all day or watch a movie. Though even that doesnt satisfy any of my needs. Before i aleast had my boyfriend to talk to but he left me just before christmas… I dont have friends so im all alone. Feel like im being punished.

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bookworm16 offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (5 days after post)

You’re not all alone, you have us, and I’m sure that if you went out you’d find people where you live too.
Punished for what exactly?

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