happy valentine’s day to those of you who have someone with to share this red, romantic day… i did not.

ALLReddd

happy valentine’s day to those of you who have someone with to share this red, romantic day…

i did not. instead, i went for a long ride with none other than my 11 yr old companion, a miniature dachshaund “maitai”.

i feel instanly guilty because i know that there are people in the world with exponentially larger problems than this.. but, the emptiness remains. why is it so hard to find love??? we find jobs. we find that right dress, or shoes. we find the exact sandwich or pastry we crave.. and it’s been reduced !!! we even find that right little dog. so why ? why can i not find love. i don’t need marriage. i see that is over rated, although i wouldn’t completely write it off.. i don’t need children, unless it’s something that we decide would be prudent. i don’t really even need to co-habitate with the object of my affections. but is it really too much to ask to have those butterflies when “he” calls.. or to lose these “few extra pounds” — AGAIN.. ??? i need to feel alive again, interested and interesting! love makes ME feel good about ME. it’s validating. as a child, we get this from our mother. as a woman, we need it from a significant other - for me, that would be a man….

is it too much to ask for my face to hurt from “smiling too much” after dinner with him? what kind of woman do i need to evolve to in order to get those “i was just thinking about you” calls ?? to get “xxxooo’s” text messages??? good grief.. i have faith, but this is REALLY testing it.

i am so isolated, here in oceania, as they call it. so far away from the rest of the world because of my misjudgement of someone else’s intentions… this place solicits and praises the seven deadly sins, mainly gluttony and sloth.. i have succumbed to both. i have a plan to leave here, but what am i going home to ??? i don’t know how much longer i can hold on.

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Jules22871 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 3 weeks ago (4 minutes after post)

I can understand what you mean. I didnt get lucky until I was 38. I wish I could offer more advice on this but all I can say is hang in there. There really is someone just for you, you all just haven’t found each other yet.

Help me with: This was written for me and my husband after our motorcycle accident and was published in a couple for biker magazines.

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An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (2 weeks, 1 day after post)

my old friend Julie….its been a long time since we spoke and I am sorry to hear that you are so isolated, unlike those days in southern Florida a few years ago. I hope you will drop me a note and say hello …..

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An Undisclosed Location | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (3 months after post)

Hi Julie,ALL REDD, This is divesh.sharma86.
Thans for your reply on my post. I have extended your reply by adding some of my comments and questions again.lease advise there people If you can as I really need some help befor i loose out on someone good.

Now coming to your situation, I am myself surrounded of worl of problems when it comes to love. I have been very unlucky here and hence I am clearly not a right person to advise you but i will just say that life is tough and you seem like a beautiful person who cares about others so much. Always remember thinking of yourself first. Please do not put your life on hold for other since i have realised that we loose big things which we could have gained since world is very selfish. One needs to be part of all new social gatherings and meet new people to get a move on in life since that is what helps and the other person should know that noone can take you for granted. All the best and do reply to me as well on my query ahead. Sometimes i feel that i should have some magical powers.Thanking you.Looking forward for your reply.

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