I’m having trouble getting over this.

AshleyAnemia. (:

I’m having trouble getting over this.

A few weeks ago, I was talking to John. We play this one game where you ask each other questions and you have to answer and tell the truth. =P He said that he was thinking of asking me out on Friday.. (Ie. Yesterday). But of course, that changed and he goes out with Kelsey. I’m fine with that. I even told him that I thought about asking him out on that day too. =o So, that was wow. But, I was afraid to ask him out. Because.. yeah. well. you know how it goes… THREE TIMES. T_T

Wednesday of this week rolls around and by now, I knew like likes my best friend as well. I didn’t care about that. He can like who-ever he wants.. So he asked her out.

I kept thinking about that yesterday, which kept making me upset. We start to talk and he told me he was having second thoughts about him & Kelsey, but I convinced him to stay together and think about it. He’s giving it a week or so. So, that’s good. If she can be happy, and he can smile without a painful past. I’m fine with that…

Or so I say I am.

What’s wrong with me?
I’m tearing up all the time with memories.
=/
UGH.

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I’m having trouble getting over this.

A few weeks ago, I was talking to John. We play this one game where you ask each other questions and you have oa snwer and tell the truth. He said that he was thinking of asking me out on Friday.. (Ie. Yesterday). But of course, that changed and he goes out with Kelsey. I’m fine with that. I even told him that I thought about asking him out on that day too. =o So, that was wow. But, I was afraid to ask him out. Because.. yeah. well. you know how it goes… THREE TIMES. T_T

Wednesday of this week rolls around and by now, I knew like likes my best friend as well. I didn’t care about that. He can like who-ever he wants.. So he asked her out.

I kept thinking about that yesterday, which kept making me upset. We start to talk and he told me he was having second thoughts about him & Kelsey, but I convinced him to stay together and think about it. He’s giving it a week or so. So, that’s good. If she can be happy, and he can smile without a painful past. I’m fine with that…

Or so I say I am.

What’s wrong with me?
I’m tearing up all the time with memories.
=/
UGH.

Help me with: So, I haven’t been on in ages.

Fusion ZX 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (4 minutes after post)

Maybe you feel dissappointed that you wanted to spend time with a friend but he instead went with another person.

AshleyAnemia. (: 2 #
US | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (7 minutes after post)

I posted this on some other topic. o_O
Just thought I could make things easier and let your eyes get tired.. ;D

I love him & he loves me.
But, something goes wrong with me and I panic. And I freak out and make impulsive decisions and my anxiety doesn’t help. Then I end up breaking it off after a long period of actually going out. =/
And I’ve hurt him… We’ve gone out 3 times.

This is what he’s recently told me when we got into an argument.

“Because…ha…let’s face it. I love you. I care about you. I can’t deny. I could try to, but where would that get me?
I’d sacrifice my very existence to get you to keep on living.”

The fact that I still love him and he loves me makes me over joyed.
But, I assume he wants to try to move on?

He’s dating my best friend. I’m fine with that. Really.
He’s even told me he “REALLY likes her” but he has such low confidence and has had a troubled past, he has no faith in himself. So, he was beginning to panic like I once did (I’m assuming); and he doesn’t know what he wants right now.
He was telling me he would like to break up with her because he thinks being alone is all he wants. To not cause any trouble for anyone.
=/

Yesterday, I was extremely upset.
Because a week or so they started going out. We play a sort of “truth game” and he told me he was going to ask me out on the 13th just for the hell of it, because he still liked me and didn’t want the feeling of being alone on Valentines Day.
Oddly enough, I PLANNED THE SAME THING, ON THE SAME DAY.
But, of course, that never happened. They started going out Wednesday.

He knew I was upset about something.
But he apparently forgot what he had one planned for it.
=/
So…
Yeah…

Fusion ZX wrote:
Maybe you feel dissappointed that you wanted to spend time with a friend but he instead went with another person.

^points to above^
But, I know we like each other..
It’s just asdfghjkl. really confusing.

Help me with: So, I haven’t been on in ages.

Stoli 2 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 38 minutes after post)

I think you should move on…. You are young and need to date as many guys you can get your hands on…. Figure out witch time you like best. You don’t know until you’ve tried them all.

Help me with: Flipped off.

Animal i have become 9 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (21 hours, 25 minutes after post)

hey how are youdoing now ashley?

Help me with: …

ChavyWasabi 3 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months, 2 weeks ago (2 days, 23 hours after post)

Just Stop wrote:
hey how are youdoing now ashley?

Yeah, what are you up to?

Help me with: BIG ENORMOUS THANX TO KANG YUI!

Vilén 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months ago (2 weeks after post)

You know, in times likes these, I just tell myself “f–k it all!” and move on. I know I’m better than they are.

If he/she/it is unsure, or if you are feeling unsure, just say no.

Help me with: I am SICK of love songs.

AshleyAnemia. (: 2 #
US | 9 months ago (2 weeks, 2 days after post)

Heyyyy there everybody.
*nervous glare and sweat drop* ^^;;;;

Uhm. WHELL.
…. ERM.

Be angry and shocked all you want.
But! He broke up with Kelsey.
Because all he kept thinking about was how much he loved me and missed me.
That he was miserable without me and he’s felt like he’s needed me.

So.
On the 28th. =o
I did something.
A year ago, on the 28th was the day John and I started going out. So.
^^
I’m pretty sure you can guess what I did on this 28th.
=o

I KNOW I KNOW.

But.
Honestly…
I’ve missed him more than words can describe and without him.
I don’t feel like myself. Because all I thought about was him.
SO.

Giving it another shot?
Yes.
Hm.

SO.
^^;;;;

ERM. Be mad? Sure. Haha. ^^

WHEW.

Help me with: So, I haven’t been on in ages.

ChavyWasabi 3 #
An Unknown Location | 8 months, 4 weeks ago (2 weeks, 3 days after post)

I’ts ok hun, just be very careful, emtions can be a really deceitful and tricky thing. Take care of your heart, you’ve given this guy a second chance, that’s great, but please take care of yourself. Hope to hear from you again ;)

Help me with: BIG ENORMOUS THANX TO KANG YUI!

Vilén 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 8 months, 4 weeks ago (2 weeks, 3 days after post)

Wow. Only you, Ashley, only you.

(1)

Help me with: I am SICK of love songs.

AshleyAnemia. (: 2 #
US | 8 months, 3 weeks ago (2 weeks, 6 days after post)

do ↔ don’t wrote:
Wow. Only you, Ashley, only you.

Bahaha. :D
I’m one of a kind, huh? ;D

Help me with: So, I haven’t been on in ages.

Vilén 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 8 months, 3 weeks ago (2 weeks, 6 days after post)

.ashley[INDIAN.BOB wrote:
]

do ↔ don’t wrote:
Wow. Only you, Ashley, only you.

Bahaha. :D
I’m one of a kind, huh? ;D

If that’s something in this case to be proud of, then yes.

Help me with: I am SICK of love songs.

AshleyAnemia. (: 2 #
US | 8 months, 3 weeks ago (2 weeks, 6 days after post)

do ↔ don’t wrote:

.ashley[INDIAN.BOB wrote:
]

do ↔ don’t wrote:
Wow. Only you, Ashley, only you.

Bahaha. :D
I’m one of a kind, huh? ;D

If that’s something in this case to be proud of, then yes.

o___o
*thinks*
……. Wait.

What are implying? *glares*

Help me with: So, I haven’t been on in ages.

Vilén 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 8 months, 3 weeks ago (2 weeks, 6 days after post)

.ashley[INDIAN.BOB wrote:
]

do ↔ don’t wrote:

.ashley[INDIAN.BOB wrote:
]

do ↔ don’t wrote:
Wow. Only you, Ashley, only you.

Bahaha. :D
I’m one of a kind, huh? ;D

If that’s something in this case to be proud of, then yes.

o___o
*thinks*
……. Wait.

What are implying? *glares*

absolutely nothing. :)

Help me with: I am SICK of love songs.

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