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a poem, does anyone else feel like this..

Cold hand

I had the will sucked from me at an early age
I feel the last chapter was written before the first page
abused, neglected, was this God’s plan
I reach out for him and feel a cold hand
I know he Loves me and he wants me to try
but I cant reconcile my passions, i just want to die
scarred and afraid
alone im not brave
I m scared to die but I hate this Life

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (7 minutes after post)

kind of same….it hurts.. i know god cares.. just wondering where is He in this moment..:(

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nirvana777666 offline Verified User (9 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (10 minutes after post)

its hard to reconcile how a Loving God can allow so much pain. Not just mine or yours but all the suffering and injustice that goes on every second.

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (11 minutes after post)

yeah.. i do know he is always near me.. but i wish he could make things a litle more clear

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Jennaaaxox offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 13 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (12 minutes after post)

I know the feeling of wanting to die but at the same time not wanting to :/ But yeah, I can relate :/

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (14 minutes after post)

i’m so afaraid of death… but i’m so lost here.. i’m sure i won’t commit suicide.. but i wish i could run away

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Jennaaaxox offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 13 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (15 minutes after post)

friendlyheart wrote:
i’m so afaraid of death… but i’m so lost here.. i’m sure i won’t commit suicide.. but i wish i could run away

Exactly the same here. Just want to run but there’s so many things hlding you back that you just cant ..:(

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (15 minutes after post)

yeah.. a lot of things.. just hoping and hoping.. but feeling that hope is fading away

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nirvana777666 offline Verified User (9 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (16 minutes after post)

its tormenting. i feel tormented because I do believe in God. I feel like if I didnt believe in him it would be easier, then I would just end this crap, but I fear him too much

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nirvana777666 offline Verified User (9 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (17 minutes after post)

I feel like everyday is exactly the same. im listening to that song right now. its by NIN. it feels like my Life

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Jennaaaxox offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 13 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (18 minutes after post)

I dont believe in God. I jsut can’t. Because if he is supposed to be benevolent he wouldnt want us to suffer and if he was omnipotent then why doesnt he just do something to stop it!? You know? I just cant believe in him. I do believe in heaven and hell though… everything else just not God or Jesus or anything…

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (20 minutes after post)

by the way.. God gave me a lot of strenght.. but now i feel that he left me, he gave me this situation and want’s me to handle it alone… so hard
by the way there is a nice song… simple plan - welcome to my life

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Jennaaaxox offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 13 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (21 minutes after post)

Im listening to Evanescence…so easy to realte to her pain

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (23 minutes after post)

i do like evanescence too…
by the way skilet is a christian rock band.. they have some nice songs.,. you might check them out :)
music is a way of consolation :)

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An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (24 minutes after post)

Ive only ever heard one skillet song and I love it… cant remember the name though but now I really want to hear it again :/

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (25 minutes after post)

it was about ?

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (25 minutes after post)

i know a few ones so maybe i could help you figure out :)

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Jennaaaxox offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 13 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (25 minutes after post)

I think it was called the last night or something like that now I think about it…

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (26 minutes after post)

yeah.. the last night.. that’s an amazing song.. here it is.. i love it so much
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ABeKHe…

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nirvana777666 offline Verified User (9 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (26 minutes after post)

remember Shirley Manson and the band Garbage…they wre great….”im only happy when it rains”..

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An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (27 minutes after post)

you could check out those nights from skillet :)

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An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (28 minutes after post)

friendlyheart wrote:
yeah.. the last night.. that’s an amazing song.. here it is.. i love it so muchhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ABeKHe1kDcU

Ooh! Thankies! :D

nirvana777666 wrote:
remember Shirley Manson and the band Garbage…they wre great….”im only happy when it rains”..

Dont think I’ve ever hearrd that one…

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (28 minutes after post)

me either nirvana … sorry :(

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (28 minutes after post)

probably they are oldies and goldies

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (29 minutes after post)

you are welcome tearsonthe-raindrops

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Jennaaaxox offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 13 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (29 minutes after post)

Wow I’ve got a nice list of songs to check out. I’ll youtube that one you mentioned in a bit nirvana :)

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An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (29 minutes after post)

Do skillet have any albums out btw?

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (30 minutes after post)

:) by the way what other songs you like guys?
yeah i guess they have an album.. just not sure the title.. i’ll check out, i’ll shout you

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An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (31 minutes after post)

Thanks :)
Hmm…Within Temptation….

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An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (31 minutes after post)

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Skillet_…
here are.. they have a lot :)

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An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (32 minutes after post)

that’s a good band.. i really like them.. esspecially angels :)

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (33 minutes after post)

i guess i like all their songs:P
bullet for my valentine?

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An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (33 minutes after post)

And Memories… And Destroyed :D

Ooh me seen them! lol… Funeral for a friend are high up… and nightwish

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An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (35 minutes after post)

heres the link for the Garbage song…I love it. shes got a few other good ones too http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zdodc1…

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (36 minutes after post)

memories… i like that too:) and i like all i need too :)

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An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (36 minutes after post)

I like all kinds of music…elliott smith, Nick drake, Nirvana, AIC, Garbage, Joy Division, Townes Van Zandt

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An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (38 minutes after post)

Its kinds weird but most of my fave mucisians have committed suicide. i dont admire them for it, it just so happens that the people I can relate with are dead…ouch! :)

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friendlyheart offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 33 #
An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (39 minutes after post)

thx for the song nirvana …it was nice.. i liked it :)
i like .. let’s see a lot..
mettalica, queen, aerosmith, scorpions, bullet for my valentine, crematory, skillet, within temptation, evanescence, simple plan, green day, avril, linkin park, europe.. such groups…

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An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (39 minutes after post)

Another band I like I yiruma… bit different from those above…

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An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (40 minutes after post)

metalica, queen, funeral for a friend, bullet for my valentine, nightwish, skillet, within temptation, evanescence, avril l, etc lol

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An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (41 minutes after post)

nirvana777666 wrote:
Its kinds weird but most of my fave mucisians have committed suicide. i dont admire them for it, it just so happens that the people I can relate with are dead…ouch! :)

It is easy to relate to people who have commited suicide… :/

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An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (41 minutes after post)

all good bands :) love them.. guys i got to go.. hopefully see ya tom. shout me :)
see ya
wish you both a nice day :)

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An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (42 minutes after post)

Ciao! I’ve added you!
Nirvana are you verified yet?

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An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (42 minutes after post)

ok :) bye guys

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An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (42 minutes after post)

metallica, greatest metal band ever..listening to them makes me have a manic episode(LOL), makes me need an extra valium

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An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (43 minutes after post)

how do I become verified?

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An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (45 minutes after post)

Go on your email and there should be a email from help.com. Click the link and it will verify your account :) If not your account closes in 24 hours or something like that.

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An Undisclosed Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (45 minutes after post)

okay, thankyou

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An Unknown Location | 9 months, 1 week ago (46 minutes after post)

I’ll add you as a friend when you verify :D

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