a poem, does anyone else feel like this..
Cold hand
I had the will sucked from me at an early age
I feel the last chapter was written before the first page
abused, neglected, was this God’s plan
I reach out for him and feel a cold hand
I know he Loves me and he wants me to try
but I cant reconcile my passions, i just want to die
scarred and afraid
alone im not brave
I m scared to die but I hate this Life
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kind of same….it hurts.. i know god cares.. just wondering where is He in this moment..:(
its hard to reconcile how a Loving God can allow so much pain. Not just mine or yours but all the suffering and injustice that goes on every second.
yeah.. i do know he is always near me.. but i wish he could make things a litle more clear
I know the feeling of wanting to die but at the same time not wanting to :/ But yeah, I can relate :/
i’m so afaraid of death… but i’m so lost here.. i’m sure i won’t commit suicide.. but i wish i could run away
friendlyheart wrote:
i’m so afaraid of death… but i’m so lost here.. i’m sure i won’t commit suicide.. but i wish i could run away
Exactly the same here. Just want to run but there’s so many things hlding you back that you just cant ..:(
yeah.. a lot of things.. just hoping and hoping.. but feeling that hope is fading away
its tormenting. i feel tormented because I do believe in God. I feel like if I didnt believe in him it would be easier, then I would just end this crap, but I fear him too much
I feel like everyday is exactly the same. im listening to that song right now. its by NIN. it feels like my Life
I dont believe in God. I jsut can’t. Because if he is supposed to be benevolent he wouldnt want us to suffer and if he was omnipotent then why doesnt he just do something to stop it!? You know? I just cant believe in him. I do believe in heaven and hell though… everything else just not God or Jesus or anything…
by the way.. God gave me a lot of strenght.. but now i feel that he left me, he gave me this situation and want’s me to handle it alone… so hard
by the way there is a nice song… simple plan - welcome to my life
Im listening to Evanescence…so easy to realte to her pain
i do like evanescence too…
by the way skilet is a christian rock band.. they have some nice songs.,. you might check them out :)
music is a way of consolation :)
Ive only ever heard one skillet song and I love it… cant remember the name though but now I really want to hear it again :/
I think it was called the last night or something like that now I think about it…
yeah.. the last night.. that’s an amazing song.. here it is.. i love it so much
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ABeKHe…
remember Shirley Manson and the band Garbage…they wre great….”im only happy when it rains”..
friendlyheart wrote:
yeah.. the last night.. that’s an amazing song.. here it is.. i love it so muchhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ABeKHe1kDcU
Ooh! Thankies! :D
nirvana777666 wrote:
remember Shirley Manson and the band Garbage…they wre great….”im only happy when it rains”..
Dont think I’ve ever hearrd that one…
Wow I’ve got a nice list of songs to check out. I’ll youtube that one you mentioned in a bit nirvana :)
Do skillet have any albums out btw?
:) by the way what other songs you like guys?
yeah i guess they have an album.. just not sure the title.. i’ll check out, i’ll shout you
Thanks :)
Hmm…Within Temptation….
And Memories… And Destroyed :D
Ooh me seen them! lol… Funeral for a friend are high up… and nightwish
heres the link for the Garbage song…I love it. shes got a few other good ones too http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zdodc1…
I like all kinds of music…elliott smith, Nick drake, Nirvana, AIC, Garbage, Joy Division, Townes Van Zandt
Its kinds weird but most of my fave mucisians have committed suicide. i dont admire them for it, it just so happens that the people I can relate with are dead…ouch! :)
thx for the song nirvana …it was nice.. i liked it :)
i like .. let’s see a lot..
mettalica, queen, aerosmith, scorpions, bullet for my valentine, crematory, skillet, within temptation, evanescence, simple plan, green day, avril, linkin park, europe.. such groups…
Another band I like I yiruma… bit different from those above…
metalica, queen, funeral for a friend, bullet for my valentine, nightwish, skillet, within temptation, evanescence, avril l, etc lol
nirvana777666 wrote:
Its kinds weird but most of my fave mucisians have committed suicide. i dont admire them for it, it just so happens that the people I can relate with are dead…ouch! :)
It is easy to relate to people who have commited suicide… :/
all good bands :) love them.. guys i got to go.. hopefully see ya tom. shout me :)
see ya
wish you both a nice day :)
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metallica, greatest metal band ever..listening to them makes me have a manic episode(LOL), makes me need an extra valium
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