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When we first broke up it was because she was always
talking about this guy, they hanged out a lot, she was starting to ignore me and not caring at all. I knew she wanted me to break up with her because she promised she wouldn’t break up with me. So that’s what I did…I broke up with her for her…it hurt me so much. For at least 3 weeks straight all I would do in my spare time would be listen to this one song. Like even at school, whenever I could I listened to it and I finally got better. I was okay…then the guy cheated on her and she came running back to me and I was stupid and let her into my heart again.
The second time we broke up was because her parents (that’s what she said…but I know why…it will come out soon), they said I was too old for her. I agree, but it’s not like her to give in to what her parents are saying so easily when it comes to me. Anyways, this time I was a mess…She told me then left for the weekend. I was depressed the whole week end. She came back and we talked it out and that night I wanted to kill myself…I must of said it out loud at least 500 times while everyone was sleeping I just couldn’t stop saying it. Anyways, I managed to get through the night alive. For a couple weeks I was telling her how bad I felt…like I was a complete mess. I barely ate, I just layed in my bed…and when i was alone I was crying most of the time. I remember calling her and I could barely talk because I was crying so much. Anyways at the end of two weeks i was talking to her and she told me I have something to tell you tonight okay. She told me she didn’t care what her parents thought and we would be together anyways….I couldn’t have been happier when she told me that…
The third time we broke up it was because a bunch of lies she made up…but just today (3 weeks later) she told me it was because she wanted to be with my cousin (I knew she liked him before the second break up…and im pretty sure that’s why she broke up with me the second time). Anyways, during these 3 weeks I have been really depressed, mad, and everything just reminded me of this girl. I mean everything…even other girls…
Anyways here I am still standing and I’m starting to feel better…she wants to be friends…I say f*** that…
This all happened over 2 years, she was my first love, and I was head over heels in love with her as you can probly tell…
The thing that helps me get over her is Time, Music, and Loving someone else…oh yeah and pretending she doesn’t exist :D.
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