all i can say is step back look from another view.talk to her about it.but in the end all you can do is wish for her happiness with or without you.even us guy,s have feelngs only few of us will say we do.there not much i could say to make it better.i lost the 1st woman i ever fell truely in love with not to long ago.i hurt time heal,s all.pleas talk to her about it if the feeling are true she will talk.
Well I kind of tried that and in the end, yeah. Looks like I will be using the love hurts, time heals theme now…Thanks for trying to help anyway, I guess, at least I know now..whatever comfort that may bring..
keep your head high dust yourself off.here if you need to vent.
Im going to try but, its hard to deal with it. I find I feel numb most of the time and then go though phases where everything just hits me and I cant cope. Whats worse is that she still want to be friends and I think we really can be, but I dont know if I could ever deal with the reminders..I cant ever see anything as good as her again but I wont go into that because it just leads to endless ranting of things that I cant face. **** feelings….
it is going to be hard.my ex told me we be friends i have not hear from her about 2 months.hard part for me is she lived with me. this may sound dumb but i keep thinking she here.never had it this bad.all i can do is wish the best of luck to her.i know how it feels my friend like someone put a hole in you hollow just don,t know were to turn.like to say things get better but they don,t.love is the strongest force one that can transform us forever.you can cope it just take a little time the wound needs to heal.start with helping yourself don,t just sit and ponder on it.it can eat you alive. and you can,t say that anything as good as her will come again. i,m 29 this is the 2nd true love in my life that i lost hurts the most.but it,s good to have feelings in the end a true women will see you for you.just know this she hurts too it may not show ever but she is.don,t give up on yourself don,t let this change you i,ve had to many friends lose themselves to a lady so bad they will never know love again if i can do it for a 2nd so can you.i,m here with a open ear talk it off if you like
Im 21, yet it feels like for everything that I am meant to be doing, I am running out of time. Love is such a powerful emotion but it does not seem to care about who it hurts in the process or how it leaves you feeling.
Have you spoken to her since? I know with a ex before, we promised to be friends but it just seemed like, we only said that to make the break up sweeter. That we just were too different for it to work..
If you really loved someone then I guess the best thing is to let them go free and be happy but I dont even know if being friends with her would be a good thing. I can alraedy think of all the reasons why it would be bad. I am always such a suspicious person so already trying to see ways in how she could be misleading or using me. Its not something simply linked to her because I am like it with everyone.
The thing is, she made me so much more of what I was. She accepted everything I always thought would keep me away from anyone. I cant open any of it up to any of my family and the one friend I have I can only bare to see one day a week. I cant help but think that no one could meet the expectations I seem to have placed on them. That I would compare every person to her to the effect that its never true. I keep getting small blasts of the sadness of this but cant help feeling numb on majority..The feeling of wanting to just finally let myself go in her arms all too much. Of course going into the whole meeting the person in the first place is a whole different ball game heh.
Sorry about the long reply, I should learn my lesson to keep it short and sweet because I always seem to end up just boring or pushing people away heh.
1st thing don,t worry how long your reply is i,m doing this on my ps3 so its good to just stop take a breath of air from game play.i don,t feel so bad just sitting on my as*.my 1st big time lady was a 6 year long love you name it we did it go out walk she was my friend.it ended with her not telling me we have nothing in common any more.come to find out year later she wanted kids(me and her brother grew up togethere) i would like to have kids but i can,t i had to have surgery to stop a form of cancer.she never asked why.now the most wonderful beautiful intoxicate woman i every been with she was my best friend my lover.my muse for all my art i do now.she went to work one day then went to her mom,s called me and told me it,s not working anymore she told me it was her not me.
that was 3 day,s before my brithday.little back story i lost job my car (i called my car home for 2 years never do that bad when it cold out one word ohio)any who she was working i wasn,t (got a job now start mon) i did all i could for her cook rub her back.short story longer we loved each other for are flaws not for what we could do.we learn things from each other changed me.she got me to stop smoking 2half packs a day now i sit here and smoke once more i lost my best friend.can,t bring myself to do art right now.been two months not a word from her all i keep thinking about is her safet time spent.can,t get her out of my mind.i don,t know what is to come of me i keep think my life is half over.everyone i know has someone kids a home very few talk to me anymore.loneliness eats me alive.as for misleading onething for sure is woman do it the best heh heh.don,t worry about boring me you can,t i have this thing for finding the good in people.like it or not you have a new friend.the best thing about this is i know now i,m not alone.
Ok that was fairly annoying, I wrote out my reply then my laptop cuts out just before and have to write the whole thing again!
Hmmmm, Ill have to do it later since I have lost all inspiration (may seem weird but I need inspiration to do almost anything otherwise I just sit here looking at the screen trying to think of what to say) ugh!
i understand i can,t do anything without a muse
I cant do anything without a muse, but I found my muse and now lost her. At least before I met her I was able to lie to myself and keep most of it hidden. The bad thing thing was that she inspired me to live. There is so much that I would want to experience or be and could see it all with her and now, theres nothing. Nothing, other then what I am left with feeling now. I cant see myself ever being happy..
my last ex was the 1st woman to be my muse.in the same why for you.there was so much i want too do with her go place,s bring life back up take time for us.smile look up at the sky on star lit night.
i sometime,s think how can this just end why is the best and only times i want to hold on too are the one,s that cut so deep into my self being…..only thing i,m left with is this feeling of walking around heartless not needed just unwanted.i got e-mail from her.ask how i,m doing that,s it.
like to tell you i made it sweet and happy.but why lie i,m not feeling that way.
all i can say is your feeling something its a start it shows your not all gone hold on to whats left.as for being happy if i ever get to that point in my life once more it would be my death bed.so i can,t say your going to get happy when i have not found it yet.i do know what would make me.but my death bed would happen 1st.
There is just something about a star lit night that demands the attention of couples but looks down upon those who look up alone..
The thing with emotions are that they are such extremes. The ones we must want are the most dangerous ones. Something that can be so rewarding like love can also do so much damage.
I am not quite sure what you mean by the death bed bit, are you saying you would only be happy now when that happens?
ugh, before writing this I had a massive mood change. One little thing. Jealously is such a horrible thing.
you got it i just think there is no more happiness to be found for me so i feel like i,m going to be alone for the rest of my life. find happiness when i die (of old age)
little things in life are the best star,s walking cupcakes heh.
your right love is deadly. wish woman would see that some guy are down to earth not scared of how there are.are willing to let emotion,s in or out not walk over them when there out.
as for that e-mail i got from her after i sent one back let say she made me feel like crap telling me hows she ding things.how can someone go and and act like nothing ever happen.all i asked of her was a reason why she left me not one word why.all i think about is i fu*ked up.she keep,s telling me i did nothing wrong.
whats up with the mood change?hope it not from the e-mail thing sorry if it was.but i screwed that up.i let my feeling run what i did that was bad.so if she try,s to get ahold of you walk slowly.
if it,s something else post it get it out don,t bottle it up….just as bad as what love could do too someone.
on a good note got a new job that help with loneliness and lighten my mind about things.
Mood change? same thing that has just happened just now, I hate emotions.
Was just talking to my..ex and she says that there is something she wants to tell me but does not want to because it might hurt me. She tells me, she is starting to get feelings for someone. We only “offically” broke up on friday and already I get that. She tells me, I just say that that did not take long and then she goes. Thats it. Yeah, now I have to sit here with it all running though my mind driving me insane until she comes on tomorrow, if she does. And even then, it still needs to be brought up. It hurts because, in a way I still have my heart on my sleeve for her. Im not sat here waiting for her to come to her senses and take me back, I doubt I ever could go back, but it kills me the way it is happening.
Why is it, after everything that has happened, I cant just break away. Cant hate her with everything so I can just forget, no. I have to keep holding on and letting myself get broken in the process.
Things were not good for a while before it ended, it was as if all romantic ties between us were lost and she was just talking to me for the sake of it. Thoughout the whole time she was getting closer and closer to this friend of hers and while things were bad for us, it was as if he was being everything to her that I should of been. If she had any problems she would tell him and when I found it, it was just like “dont worry about it, hes already sorting it out”.
In the last week we were together, I felt like I was going though hell but she was saying how happy she was. It hurts so much to think that being away from me was making her happy while I was feeling worse. When she basically was saying how happy she was I brought up everything and it ended. Yet, with the way things were between us then, why was she so happy!
And now today she tells me everything feels perfect and in the end I finally find that out about starting to feel things for someone (she has not said who but I am guessing it was the person I thought she was getting close to earlier).
Why is it people have to treat your own emotions like crap, to lie to you, to keep it from you. It hurts much less to just know from the start. Who is she lying to, herself or me. Its like, whatever we had was nothing. Nothing at all. Im not worth a single thing, as if I was something terrible and getting rid of me was like lifting off all the weight of her shoulders. Why cant I just hate her, I feel so many strong emotions in me, I want to clash out against the world but I know I cant because I have nothing left. I have nothing to live for and no reason to try, Im holding onto whats toxic because at least it gives me something to do. Im not stupid in whats going on around me, but im stupid in what I do because of it. Just like you, I cant ever see myself being happy again and..it just hurts too much, so much, I dont care if I was living a lie before I met her, I woudl rather feel that then to feel so broken. To be given life and then have it ripped away with a cruel laugh. to be shown you have a heart to only have it shattered into unfixable pieces..
everything you just wrote is everything i went through 3 weeks ago.the only thing is the why she left,i don,t know if she,s seeing anyone nothing. before her my heart was shatterd she helped put it back together.only to turn it to dust.
as for the wanting to hate her i,ve tryed to but she never did anything bad no lies cheating.
just broke the one rule i asked her to keep talk to me no matter what and if everything were to end tell me why.
to start to love someone you 1st need to get a friendship together.talking with each other like to say one day a woman would understand what that means don,t thing in my life time heh.
times like this by the foo fighters give it ear ,igood song ,igood band when things are like this.
the only thing i know is she,s not coming back ever as what i like her too. time to get back to something better.somehow.think about it i,m the only one to post here.(not a god nut don,t believe in it just believe things happen good or bad )keep posting work at it somehow.
how you holding up my friend?hope your doing better…
Hi there, sorry I have not been replying or said anything…I’m just hiding away from everything and things
How is everything with you? Are you coping ok?
I,m doing good. got a job at walmart 3rd shift. then I leave here and go to work at 9:00am. just trying to keep my mind from over thinking.but got back to doing art good thing……I think…time has helped we talked said what had to be said wish her luck trying to move on. she e-mails me time to time I came to a point were I just had to change for the good or the bad,it has been for the better 29 years old note I never did anything for myself but hurt myself I know I,m a better man then what any woman has seen time I do this.but any who it,s good to hear from you I hope somethings are working out for you.hope things didn,t get worst.you have helped me you may not belive it but you did I hope I can help you through some of this confusion your in best ear in Ohio.use it my friend take care of yourself . smile it free
Im happy that it sounds like you are able to move on and move up. I guess walmart is just a like a really big supermarket chain? I have a job in a supermarket over here, its nothing fancy but as you probably know, its a job, its a start, its something and something is better then nothing right?
im glad you two were finally able to talk, do you know what is going to happen with you two now? are you going to talk as friends, just not talk, become more like aquantices?
what kind of art are you doing? Are you enjoying it?
Things for me…its like for every step or two I take forward, I take at least double back. Whilst before she was at least talking to me, now im not even getting that. The feeling of being ignored like that really cuts into me, especially after everything she said. So many broken promises and the whole thing has never hurt so much! Quite honestly I can feel myself sink and sink and the frustration that brings just makes it worse. The worse thing is that from what I see, things I now remember…all the signs, everything that happened, that didnt happen..feels like it is tearing what was left of me to bits..Everything I want to do or be like feels dark, I just sit here staring at the screen, unable to actually do anything and the best bit? Is that I know im numb to most of it and the numbness really drives me insane
Sorry, I was not planning on letting out all that (even if its just a tiny thing compared to what I could do!) but when you hold the whole thing in its hard to not it all pour out when there is a small hole…
we don,t talk just hellos when we pass by and that never never will happen so alone at the world i go once more.i changed had to hurting myself to much holding it in.you be ok dump all you need to on me told you once not going anyplace.my ear is yours don,t feel bad if you write to much i don,t care how long it is i,ll read it say what i think
Well at least by doing that you might be able to move on?
I guess for me, it would be easier if I was actually a person but I cant see that happening
i never told you i moved on from her just not thinking about her as much.you will get there my friend took four month.you need to stop beatting yourself up on it remmber the good times you had hold them in your heart forget about the bad times you can do it trust merty
lol, I tried to hold onto the good times, but it brings in memories of things. Things that hurt. I see things that we were like, then my mind compares them to how she is now with someone else and it always seems more with them. It should be easy to move on. If someone makes you this upset, makes you this angry, treated you like dirt in all honestly..someone who does not love you and loves someone else. You should be able to let go, but I cant. I hate her but I will always love and it tears me apart..The first thing, is that they are moving on in their lives. Making it look so easy and when I look at my life now..theres nothing. Honestly, I just wish I could give up.
I guess no one likes to make it easy huh..
the trying to move on crashed and burn last night at work.on my hour lunch(that kill,s me what do you do with hour lunch)so i sit in my car and it stared to rain i lost it who knew that something that happen in the being would be what end,s it.just like a movie moment thing is we use to dance in the rain started to recall the first time on a road trip pulled over danced we ran around made love.now it,s all over everything we did was do it do it now let,s go to new york there………….hahah look at me now i,m sitting at a starbucks drinking coffee typing this on my moble phone all i have right now is help.com booked marked and my job.you know it,s good to know there someone just like me out there.funny heard this just now “i,m in love with the most beautiful woman in the world it,s to bad she,s not found me yet….i asked what if you found her but she,s gone now…..no one said anything.go fig but it,s time for som sleep
I hate reminders like that but then I guess they have to happen some time otherwise they will creep up on you…
What sucks the most is that, really no one can share it with you. No one can really help you. We can all say we care, all say sorry, all say we feel for you but..do you feel like me. Feel so alone in the way you feel and that, its all stuck in you…
I wish I could help, I wish I could take away the pain. If I knew a way to do it, I would of done it myself too but from what Ive just experienced..
Right now im tempted to say its better to not stay in contact with the ex. Mine just spoke to me last night after over two weeks of not speaking and already, they have crushed my heart. Ive had no sleep at all, I cant do a thing and sitting here is driving me insane. Im jealous, im hurt, im angry, im upset. They tell me of how happy they are, how things are going with the one they love. The things that happened that never happened when we were together…and it kills me. Am I still wishing for things to go back to the way they were? I have no idea how she sees things now because its all so messed up and im the one being dragged along and I cant stop thinking about her. Its destroying me but I cant stop…
all true write back some more later after work.but what killing me is i have to see her owe some money to her.it,s best not to see her but i have to and the is what is killing me now just like parts of my life just want them to go away
Can you pay her back? I guess with something like that the quicker you can get rid of the ties the better. Its horrible to have to think of it that way but honestly right now when one party still loves the other, I cant see any other way :(
Hope your having a good day at work..
fun recap lost my bank card(i do have the cash just can,t get to it fun) that i just got.now all the down,that night i was feeling down about the rain after work so i drove to the lake started to think how to put something back in my life.no luck now the worst found some more of her things here to big to mail so now i have to see her now worst (1st she live in the city next to mine) not anymore when i,m getting coffee after work who,s going to work.then she started e-mail me i can get them on my cell so i reply the talking went good.zip to the now more rain all i feel is the dust of what was my heart.so now i know how a ghost feels wondering around to know end.sorry how are you doing my friend?so much mind melt in the last 3 day,s on my end… but how you doing
The first thing I would want to say is that how you are taking all this..just shows how much of a heart you have. Shows that you really cared and were able to love which is something a few people miss out on. Even if it hurts so much, you cant change who you are. Getting over someone is never easy and it is never short. Even if you think you are something so small can come in and tear your whole world apart. The only thing you can do is keep trying to hang on, try to take small steps to get yourself back into life. Its better to find those things now then for them to come later and just prolong everything so much longer. I hate losing things, last time I had to get a new bank card I never got it for months because the bank had some security warning with dilverying stuff to my house…it was great that they never told me about this, not even when I came into the bank to ask why I never got my card lol.
Of course saying all this probably makes me the biggest hypercrite there is because Ive basically given up hope lol.
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Lost and sad. The past week has been the hardest for me in a while. I have spent a week plus now crying every night. Everything that was once so sure, is now all in uncertainty. What do you do. In one way it feels silly to let something effect you so much but. I feel like I am losing my girlfriend. I cant help but feel that everything that we used to be, she is now being with someone else and all that I am getting is just part of her. What to you do when you feel like you are losing when trying to hold on more always pushes someone further away. I love her. She said she loves me and I believe her, yet I still cant shake the feeling. Is it wrong that one person could bring your whole world crashing down into nothing.
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