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Well people are trying to help you and you’re deceiving them. So tell your counselor how it is; they’re used to it so she will understand. Many people are uncomfortable when it comes to talking about their flaws, so they lie.

Well, a sound body needs at your age at least 7 to 8 hours of sound sleep !
In case, you are not able to sleep in the night, YOU MUST BE SLEEPING IN THE DAY TIME !!! DO CHECK Your routine!!! Things will fall in their place once you correct your schedule!!! Do Reply !!! Good Luck!!!

“So tell your counselor how it is; they’re used to it so she will understand.”
I’m so afraid to tell the truth.

As for the sleeping… On weekdays I’m getting about 2 and a half hours sleep.. on weekends, I sleep from about 5am to about 1pm.
My sleeping patterns never used to be so bad, but I found that as I got more and more depressed, the less I wanted to sleep, because I couldn’t handle the waking up part.

Are you subjected to some kind of bullying in the school or do you have any problems with any of your school subjects?

No bullying, but I find it nearly impossible to speak to people and I know it’s my own fault but I cut myself off from the other students.
I don’t have problems with any of my subjects either, but because I miss so many days, I fall so far behind in homework that I keep failing. I’m currently repeating year 11 because I missed so much of last year making myself sick with stress and panic…

No need to worry, Talk about your home work situations to your subject teachers, they are there for you, and i feel they can help you more instead of school counsellor.
A small note on talking to people, do explore yourself, you must be having some hobby long forgotten…. Rekindle that and make yourself busy at least for now… !!! Later on after improving your situation in home assignments you can talk to a few people about your interests…. Good Luck!!!

hi… i understand what you’re feeling.
life is hard sometimes, especially when we are young. i have those moments, and it feels really weird and hopeless.
at the end, i believe though, that there is more to this life than just the pain we feel.
i figured that there is a god-shaped hole in every man’s heart that only a person god-sized can fill and i found that in jesus… it’s normal to feel empty, like i used too. everyone of us needs to be loved and accepted unconditionally and you can find it through the cross. rather than being scared, just solve your problems with god by asking his forgiveness and repent. though you might think god doesnt care, he does really care… and listen. and he loves you more than you know… and he’s the perfect father that sees you perfect and accept you unconditionally. john3 16. just pray that you want him in your heart and he’ll be right there.